haven’t seen a well known face in ages 

SOCIALS:

ANGL:
www.instagram.com/hellboundangl/

mobile.twitter.com/hellboundangl

APT9:
https://m.soundcloud.com/weareapartment9

https://instagram.com/apt9charlie?igshid=9cgzegnqnpn9

https://twitter.com/apt9charlie?s=21

LYRICS:

i’ve been finding love in all the wrong places
i just wanna see some familiar faces 
but it’s been so long since i had a conversation 
haven’t seen a well known face in ages

at fifteen i lost my head
so i almost drank myself to death 
at sixteen yeah, i was fed
drugs, getting close to a final breath 

i was in high school 
fueling my addiction 
it’s been so long 
since i had some feeling 

fuck, i’m so pathetic 
god, i’m so anxious 
but i can’t help it
hate this feeling 

what is this feeling?
i jus need to numb it
never see me cryin
never cry in public 

what am i feeling?
you’ll never know it
i was taught to hide it
never see me talking 

now i’m so anxious 
always fuckin nauseous 
can’t fuckin stand it
how long can i take it?

can’t fuckin take it
i don’t wanna do this
i don’t wanna be alive
i don’t wanna fuckin die

i’ve been finding love in all the wrong places
i just wanna see some familiar faces 
but it’s been so long since i had a conversation 
haven’t seen a well known face in ages

at fifteen, i lost my head
so i almost drank myself to death 
at sixteen yeah, i was fed
drugs, getting close to a final breath

Ages (prod. APT9)

Lyrics
waitin til I like who's in the mirror
waitin til I wanna be here 
waitin til I grow up 
waitin til I give a fuck

waitin til I find the good inside the bad times
waitin til I'm not so scared of my own damn mind
waitin til I'm not skippin meals 
waitin til I'm not poppin pills

please don't stand so close to me
I'm alone by design it's how it's supposed to be
I'm damaged goods
blame it on my childhood 

my eyes are wide open
still I cannot see
everything is too bright 
the light is blinding me 
that's why I stay inside
let life pass me by 

daydreaming bout pills
but I'm just smokin weed
trying to be intentional with the life I lead
don't call me strong
I'm barely hanging on

maybe one day you will see
I'm not as strong as I appear to be
maybe one day you will notice that
until then I’ll cry in the back
 
tell me how you love me
won’t you please tell me
how you loved me 
I can’t stand the sight of me

(I'm so pathetic and disgusting)

darling I have no meaning 
the light is shining 
and I still feel like nothing 

I can't see 
but my eyes are wide open
I can't breathe 
unless I'm snorting 
line after line
oh I swear 
I'm fine 

and I can't see
but my eyes are wide open
and I can't eat
cause I'm too nauseous 
I'll never be
what you want from me

please don't stand so close to me
I'm alone by design it's how it's supposed to be
I'm damaged goods
blame it on my childhood 

my eyes are wide open
still I cannot see
everything is too bright 
the light is blinding me 
that's why I stay inside
let life pass me by

Barely Hanging On w/ Hellbound Angl (Prod. Tonedeaf + Lowtow)

cover art by https://twitter.com/remon_squash_
lyrics written by @jacimp3 & @kyokosgarden
mixed/mastered by @jacimp3
vocals performed by @jacimp3 & @kyokosgarden
produced / composed by @jacimp3

~ lyrics ~
jaci: sitting cute and pretty with a face mask on
getting extra glowey waiting for the time up
put the kettle on, honey and tea in my cup
self care and self love is all I need

right now
get my shit together too
right now, right now

tryna get better with my meditation
gotta get off this shitty medication
that shit messing more with my head
but I don’t know what to do without it

social media eating all our minds up
small waist, big waist who really gives a fuck?
all body types can be the champion
fuck all of this “who’s hotter” competition

(we want that) ~ self ~
(we need that) ~ care ~
(we want that) ~ self ~
(we need that) ~ love ~

(we want that) ~ self ~
(we need that) ~ care ~
(we want that) ~ self ~
(we need that) ~ love ~

kyo: why keep up an image
that will eventually fade?
like, your 9-5 they don’t care
when you're easy to replace
so take a breather, take a step back
you only live once
fuck what they all gotta say
take care with no fucks

jaci: (we want that) ~ self ~
(we need that) ~ care ~
(we want that) ~ self ~
(we need that) ~ love ~

~ all my links ~
https://jacimp3.carrd.co/

self love + self care - Single

self love + self care (feat. kyokosgarden)

Produced by a legend in the making, lilbjrrrd
And engineered by lexikshadowban
Codes vandamn is staying true to his weekly single drops.

Suck my balls Kyle rittenhouse

No Answer back, from Rebecca Black (prod. lilbjrrrd)

Hip-Hop, Rap, Boom-Bap, rare celestial flows out the cryptic cave.

astral trap - solace sign (prod. lunkhedd x gyptxvn)

Hold Me Close(Ft.Oni Mask)[Prod.Jody]

Into The Void (feat.King Kars)

cover art by https://twitter.com/remon_squash_
lyrics written by @jacimp3
mixed/mastered by @jacimp3 & @detsuakarai
vocals performed by @jacimp3
produced / composed by @detsuakarai

~ lyrics ~
always have my heart on my sleeve
i wish i didn’t cause it always bleeds
make it easy for those that wanna stab me
i tend to think of others, but nobody thinks of me

i know i shouldn’t complain
but i really do feel the pain
of being all alone
i wish somebody would let me know

how to feel alright
how to stand up and fight
how to think right
how to see the light
but instead i’m the one doing this for them
i know they won't think of it until i’m dead

should i be grateful? that no one thinks i’m struggling enough for them to check on me?
or should i feel abandoned? since nobody cares enough to see how i really am

my thoughts are valid
shouldn’t be disregarded
just because others have it worse
doesn’t mean (not) i’m hurting

mental health is personal
and i feel emotional 
no, it’s not seasonal
can someone let me know

how to feel alright
how to stand up and fight
how to think right
how to see the light
but instead i’m the one doing this for them
i know they won't think of it until i’m dead

~ all my links ~
https://jacimp3.carrd.co/

forgotten ghost (prod. detsu akarai)

Feat. SweetSpeaker
Prod. Ellipsi x Prodbyrick
Engineer. @AntGoSmack (on twitter)

Barely Hanging On w/ Hellbound Angl (Prod. Tonedeaf + Lowtow)

Kara