not a drill

Yellow Worms

kittydog

brittle, baby! - char chris (slowed + reverbed)

Cabinet Man . Lemon Demon - slowed

OFFSET

stream :3 - https://open.spotify.com/album/5rlkspTW5YrreKCQH1Sb62?si=CieZ_CcbRcqSExu___RbsQ&dl_branch=1
this is a vent song i made continued from: https://soundcloud.com/rarded/they-all-hate-me
when i originally made it i was not in a good mindset. i built off of it adding a more positive verse to the end to signify the improvement of my perception.

lyrics:
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they all hate me, they all hate me
all my inspirations hate me, theyre all leaving
i should know that they dont know me
i dont know them
but if im too scared then how will i make friends?
they all hate me, they all hate me
i feel like everyone hates me, they wont listen
im an outcast among others way more talented
im a loser, why can't i just fucking fit in?

i just dont know if i can take it any more
idk if they will listen, no
i just know they fucking hate me, theyre all leaving
maybe part of me deserve it, i'm done explaining

how do i know for a fact they're not talking shit behind my back?
how do i know for a fact they're not talking shit behind my back?

they all hate me, they all hate me
all my inspirations hate me, theyre all leaving
i should know that they dont know me
i dont know them
but if im too scared then how will i make friends?
they all hate me, they all hate me
i feel like everyone hates me, they wont listen
im an outcast among others way more talented
im a loser, why can't i just fucking fit in?

why can't i just fit, why can't i just fit in?
why can't i just why can't i just fucking fit in?
[x4]
i'm an outcast, outcast
i'm an outcast, i'm an i'm an outcast
[x2]

i don't have to fucking fit in!!!

:3 :D

[kittydoggo! ki-ki-kittydoggo kittydoggo!]

u//w//u o///o

im an outcast, and all my friends love that shit
cause every time i lose, i bring back a ten times win!
i'm L pilled, i'm W pilled
i didn't take my normal pills
real ones understand that, it's all just fucking abstract 
so

they all hate me
they all fucking love me
they hope im failing
they know that im growing
a little bit of everything since i was fucking 13
i'll lose my life a billion times but i'll just keep on going!
they all hate me
they all fucking love me
they all wanna kill me
they all wanna fuck me
a little bit of everything since i was fucking 13
i'll lose my life a billion times but i'll just keep on 
going~

OUTCAST

drip drip drip fall

really proud of this one 
--

is it easy or not?
will u leave me to rot?
im starting to feel like i dont have a choice
will i create some love
is there somewhere high up above
we'll be screaming this until i lose my voice

deterministic reality vs randomization
im feeling passion inside of me but my minds losing patience 
been waiting ever so eagerly to achieve satiation
even if i am aware of it im still prone to invasion

im calling out to my god, not the god thats within me
and with a blink of an eye i see the ending's beginning
future's dead to me now, past can lose its meaning
with all this mass passing through me ill cry out every season

i dont have a choice
changing is all that i am
i choose to not give a damn
cause im a cycle theres no stopping it
i do have a choice
a signifying one
that choice is all that ive done

dont have a choice

all these people think they know me
they dont know me
all they fucking know is pixels on a screen
its all lies its all lies its not wrong its not right
if i fucking close my eyes and see the poison one more time

ive got blood on my hands splattered all across the walls
ive got years of lacking empathy i dont need it at all
fuck your reason fuck your meaning fuck your stupid fragile feelings
all you ever feel is pain so i would rather just feel nothing

its controlled, its all gone
nothings right, nothings wrong
i do not want to feel oh
they all think im not real so
lies, lies, i could fill my head with lies
choke me out ill just be fine
leaking out all of my insides woah

lies, lies, fucking feed me lies oh
likes hit that like button dont forget to follow
lies, lies, all my feed is full of lies
screen that keeps me up at night and notifies me when i die woah

LIES

May Death Never Stop You

Famous Last Words

In Utero

Heart-Shaped Box

KittyDog "Plaklqsa"

i made this with http://www.beepbox.co/
AKA THE BE S T T HI N G     E VNBFHJGJ

drunk furry (chiptu n e)

made this with http://www.beepbox.co/ again <3 i love it so much aaHHH

awesomazed furry (chiptune)

iM EXPERIMENTING WITH THE WIBBLY WOBBLY O K

high furry (chiptune)

the po po is here (chiptune)

I Know I'm Funny haha

In A Good Way

Moonsickness

i might be coming back to soundcloud but i mostly use bandcamp
https://kittydog.bandcamp.com

im kd
i eat ass
she/her and they/them
my alts are:
@rarded
@ipeedandfardedandshidded