Life's Unreal Sometimes

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Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/your-voice/1831551218?i=1831551219
YouTube: https://youtu.be/2G8j4clnHac?si=5zqxSeksVhVAoksh

Featuring @snusmumriksen (checkpoint) on guitar: https://open.spotify.com/track/4rdRnN4zzz6O2yfTq9320c?si=9d33e5e0612545b9

Cover art by ‪@Vin_Koe‬: https://www.instagram.com/vin_koe/

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---lyrics
I can hear your voice from a mile away
Tryna drown the noise I've been wide awake
Remember when you called me and you said my name
Believe me, I didn't want you to leave me
But now it's almost relieving
And now that you're gone, I'm breathing
I'm breathing

This ain't about you, this about us
No I don't doubt you, it was so rushed
You know I hate wasting time
I should take my time
Cause my effort turns to dust
And I wanted love
Am I loud enough saying no
You never liked my songs
Well imma prove you wrong
You work wonders as motivation
It's no wonder my goals are aimless
Would you break my fall
Do you hear my call
I'm saying no

Did you know that I can hear your voice from a mile away
Tryna drown the noise I've been wide awake
Remember when you called me and you said my name
Believe me, I didn't want you to leave me
But now it's almost relieving
And now that you're gone, I'm breathing
I'm breathing

your voice

Produced by waves
Featuring @xionnev
Mixed and mastered by me and Xion Nev
Lyrics by me and Xion Nev

You’re needing guidance
Whatever it takes for you to not
Make it so violent, (Mm)
Yeah, damn right, I’m hiding for my own sake

I was crazy when I thought I found you
But, dare I leave here without you
I was fucked up, was I allowed to?
(Was I allowed to?)
Oh, oh-ooh-woah, 'cause baby
Nothing’s been the same as of lately
You’re changing the way you talk
With your friends, the way that you act, (Yeah)
Well, darling won’t you get a grasp?

'Cause you’re needing guidance
Whatever it takes for you to not
Make it so violent
Yeah, damn right, I’m hiding for my own sake

@xionnev
I need your guidance in this moment 
Miss Independent, what a women, I
I wanna give up to find another 
Just hear me out 'cause we’ve got a problem 

And I know you can’t shake all the feelings 
That I gave you in the summer
Yet you say you’re lonely, yet you have me
And you traded me for another, oh
Do you dream about me and what we could’ve been?
Growin' old together don’t seem so bad when I have you
Right by my side

You’re needing guidance
Whatever it takes for you to not
Make it so violent
Yeah, damn right, I’m hiding for my own sake

fragments.

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(intro)
I’ve made a fool of myself
And still I don’t notice anything else
Fly till the fuel all runs out
Then I’ll glide till I reach over the ground

(chorus)
I’ve been wasting mileage in
Places that you wouldn’t know
I’ve been bout a thousand things
Everything is breaking in the soul
Tell me how everything is
I guess I never got the way it goes
I don’t want anyone’s thanks
I just want you when I get home 

(verse)
Pass it over it’s not like I’m gonna die by this tonight 
When I’m sober I’ll try to feel better about my luck
Then I drag it too much yea
Now the words won’t get off my tongue
Gotta hold you as my crutch, gotta hold you as my-

(bridge)
I feel like I can not stay like this for long
I feel like i can not see straight I’m holding on 
Could you get me out (could you get me out)
Could you get me far and gone
Could you get me out (could you get me out)
Could you get me far out 

(chorus)
I’ve been wasting mileage in
Places that you wouldn’t know
I’ve been bout a thousand things
Everything is breaking in the soul
Tell me how everything is
I guess I never got the way it goes
I don’t want anyone’s thanks
I just want you when I get home

mileage

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor

your lies got me freezin’
now i’m fightin’ off demons
i was lovin’ you softly
but you took it as weakness

now i just can’t stop drinkin’ 
i’m in love with the feelin’
feel these cuts on my body
through my clothes, the blood seeps in

oh Jesus, i’m fiendin’, i need it
been in love with you so long
but you change like the seasons

you bleed for me, i need you
just stay near..
i don’t make any sense
i know the end’s near..

you bleed for me, i bleed too
you smell fear..
take a look in my eyes
now it’s so clear..

ohhh, you know me but i don’t know you
i fell in love with abuse
hope what you’re sayin’ is true..

i scrape my face on the asphalt
& slam my fist into drywall
‘cause you’re sayin’ it’s my fault
i’ll keep buildin’ up on my walls

(ohhhhh, yuh yuh yuh yuh)
(get the fuck outta my head..)

baby, are we finished yet?
i’ma need a cigarette 
still blowin’ smoke outta my chest
until i’m dead..

i’m seein’ red
you’re the voice inside my head
in your tight black dress
i’ll take it off, you know the rest..

fallin’ through the sky
when you get that high
the comedown don’t feel nice..

goodbye..
cut me outta your life
you’ll do it all outta spite..

misery, misery, misery
i been all up in her mouth like some Listerene
i got a fit on me, you see me glistening
y’all ain’t got shit on me
i’m keepin’ a blick on me..

misery, misery, misery
i been all up in her mouth like some wisdom teeth
out here for blood, i’ll die in Ohio
baby, you make me go psycho..

misery

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lyrics

and lately been a disconnect
your eyes on me so i try my best
what do i do when you are my only breath
breathe out baby, until there is nothing left
cross my words out baby
never respect
no effort, ill digress
whats that on ur breath
whats that price on my head

baby
keeping me in
feeling i never can win now
bring up shit that i did
20 months back got me pissed of
saints telling me watch out
head telling me head out
see the road i might run now
see the hope as it dies down

now what u calling me for
got nobody to leach onto no more?
and tell me what do u need now
never thought i coulda closed the door

now that u dont got nothing at all
setting off bout every alarm
cuz u couldnt handle when i withdraw
but baby that was ur doing
cant help u didnt treat me like i was human
fell out baby u know
this would happen when u leave me freezing cold
dried out baby left with the ropes
say ur tryna fix me baby i know

disconnect (tiresss)

man4144 [bluskxy]

girlfriend application [bluskxy]

You ask me if I’m happy and I say yeah cause I mean that but I wonder what you wouldn’t do if I had told you no
Every path is different but it reaches to an end so I make a bag then blow it then have nothing to show

While you have it you cherish that cause you won’t get it back
I take the blame for the future I’m not afraid of my past
Turn my hate into something great I picked up all the slack
I took the weight off of my shoulder and put it all on my back
I’m tryna change my life, no, I can’t ever go back
You gotta take life as it is cause you can’t ever go back
I’m not wasting my time, but the days are moving so fast
Abandon my regret, I watch it fall through the cracks

I try so hard
end of the day, I can’t force it
On my brother, damn, I try so hard

I Do everything I can to make sure I’m at my best
You helped me out of my worst
That shit was my biggest test
Took me out of my misery but I struggle to rest
It’s all repeating in cycles I gotta take it in steps

How can I move forward when everything was traumatic
Got my organs on my sleeve I found a place to attach it 
Close the door on what held me back but there’s nothing to latch it
It goes up and comes back down and you might not ever catch it


While you have it you should cherish that cause you won’t get it back
I take the blame for the future I’m not afraid of my past
Turn my hate into something great I picked up all the slack
I took the weight off of my shoulder and put it all on my back
I’m tryna change my life, no, I can’t ever go back
You gotta take life as it is cause you can’t ever go back
I’m not wasting my time but the days are moving so fast
Abandon my regret I watched it fall through the cracks

You ask me if I’m happy and I say yeah cause I mean that but I wonder what you wouldn’t do if I had told you no
Every path is different but it reaches to an end so I make a bag then blow it then have nothing to show

luckyy

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