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~lyrics~

and i just want to disappear
but i could never walk away from you 
and if we switched places 
well then forever i would wait for you
yeah i know that you dont feel the same 
but i cant get you out my fuckin brain 
you went against all your fuckin claims
clearly you dont care how im feeling babe 

so dont be faking glossy eyes 
youre breaking me, your not the one to cry 
i guess you have no fuckin spine 
and all those promises were fuckin lies

and yeah ive always done my best for you 
but i guess i was just never enough 
and yeah ive never been this stressed for you
i aint know that things would get this tough 
i just hope you arent as hurt as me
but i dont think you ever deserved me 
you said its heaven, here on earth with me 
now i feel dead so drop the dirt on me
i understand that im not perfect 
but i dont think that i deserve this 
id give my sould to preserve it 
now youre gone, tell me was i ever worth it 
was i ever worth it?
or were you bein honest when you said im worthless?
i dont think that i deserve this 
youre breaking me, so dont you fucking dare act hurt bitch

i understand that i'm not perfect. (p. michael harrison)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Idealism
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Fruits Basket 2019 (Anime)

[Verse 1]
For once my life was going good 
But it all slipped through my fingers 
Never feel comfortable with myself
I wanna be somebody else
Always belt out emotion 
I still suffocate in the ocean 
Trapped in a body that needs a heal potion 
Losing my emotions

[Bridge]
Days fade so slowly 
Losing myself in the process 

[Verse 2]
Losing progress
Worrying about my health 
Wondering what you felt 
When u saw me 
Sitting at lunch lonely 
Feeling so phony 
This house never feels like home
One day I'll find comfort 
Ran through my mind 
Got myself into a bind 
Sometimes I just wish I could rewind

[Outro]
There's so much I have left to say
I don't wanna say it
Cause I'm scared to
Scared to let's u into my mind
I'm Scared to tell u how I really feel
So bye

I Wanna Be Someone Else (Prod. Idealism)

Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/p-guda & Michael Harrison
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(Lyrics) 
your eyes trapped me 
their glistening 
i hope you're listening 
to the things that I'm saying 
walk outside my head downlow 
your green gorgeous eyes 
they get me everytime 

girl your eyes are dark 
and it's scary
waking up to you yelling 
i am traumatized by the way you talk
look at my eyes girl you see whats wrong 
cause i want you 
and you want me to 
i feel you closer to me 
but you're miles away for me 
i love you 

finally met someone 
when shit gets so wrong 
you're next to me 
it feels like you're gone 
don't want this to end 
oh i want you here tonight 
i feel this convulsion 
hate this new version of me 
can someone just make it all stop 
you irradiate my life 
don't departure 
I'll love you till the end 

everything will be okay 
i know you're stuck in this empty place
it gets tuff i know it does 
I'm here for you for eternity 



departure (guda x michael harrison)

acrophobia w/ DZO DIGITAL (Unreleased)

prod. flesh

lyrics:
dont know where to start
im writing songs in your garage
im sorry things aint work out how you wanted
i wish i had deeper pockets
i would change it all if i could
i'd give you the world
i know its hard when you're in pain my love but
you will be okay i promise

garage0002

Lyrics:

Hey cupid baby
We haven't spoken lately
There's this boy i like a lot
You seem to have forgot
He treats me like a flower
Compliments by the hour
The violets purple and pink
And i can't help but think

When were falling down
I can't even see the ground
Hope i'm stuck there in your mind
You can be my valentine
Stay here in the clouds forever
Let me wear your favourite sweater
We will have the greatest time
Chasing cupid in the sky

His arrows falling down down down down
Hes aiming for the ground ground ground ground
Hes shooting all around round round round
Love spreads around the town town town town

Hey cupid baby
We talk about it daily
There's this boy i like a lot
He treats me like a daisy
Makes me feel all special
He's always kind and gentle
The violets purple and pink
And i can't help but think

When were falling down
I can't even see the ground
Hope i'm stuck there in your mind
You can be my valentine
Stay here in the clouds forever
Let me wear your favourite sweater
We will have the greatest time
Chasing cupid in the sky

His arrows falling down down down down
Hes aiming for the ground ground ground ground
Hes shooting all around round round round
Love spreads around the town town town town

Hey cupid sunshine
Let's talk about it one more time
There's this boy i like a lot
You seem to have forgot
treats me like a flower
Compliments by the hour
The violets purple and pink
And i can't help but think

When were falling down
I can't even see the ground
Hope i'm stuck there in your mind
You can be my valentine
Stay here in the clouds forever
Let me wear your favourite sweater
We will have the greatest time
Chasing cupid in the sky

His arrows falling down down down down
Hes aiming for the ground ground ground ground
Hes shooting all around round round round
Try not to miss us now now now now

(Chasing cupid in the sky
We will have the greatest time)

Chasing Cupid (p. wetgropes)

PRODUCED BY PACIFIC & POLAR
ENGINEERED BY BYEFLORET
MASTERED BY BYEFLORET
WRITTEN BY BYEFLORET

lyrics 
wait for me baby 
tell me why you’re lazy 
told me you were changing
i don't wanna leave 
no one else behind now
i don't wanna leave 
no one else behind now 

i don't wanna leave now
i don't wanna leave now
and i don't wanna leave now 
whatcha wanna say when im sober
 drinking baby come right over 

sixteen days and i told you lies and why 
i wanna die like i been wanna cry 
told you i am fine no i don't wanna die
say that i'm just fine say you're just fine
told me all the lies sixteens days and i 
told you i'm just fine told you i'm just fine 

late night drinking 
friends are leaving
mentals depleting 
whatcha really missing now 
whatcha wanna say call me now
told me you love me not right now 
i said i miss you now 
could you take me back right now 
would it even matter right now 
and i don't wanna let you 

sixteen days and i told you lies and why 
i wanna die like i been wanna cry 
told you i am fine no i don't wanna die
say that i'm just fine say you're just fine
told me all the lies sixteens days and i 
told you i'm just fine told you im just fine

sixteen days

This was a song that's been in the long time making with my deerfriend, grxves and we both had fun slandering each other making this one hope you love it.
Prod. Centrus

Lyrics:
I can see the leaves fall and they're golden
I can see my head spin when I'm all in
And I
I've been looking for peacufl place of mind
I can't fucking find any reasoning behind what I've been going trough
Think I lost it
I've been bleeding out with you
Oh

You know angles don't fly right?

I can see the golden leaves when they are falling
Down from the sky where they came from
I was falling from the sky
Everything hurting I could

Oh
I can feel my bones creaking
I can feel my flesh beeing eaten
Away
Oh I can't feel
So tell me is it real

Imma find out I can find a way
It's a pretty night where the flowers stay
All the sorrow gets washed away
Till my body decays
Whoa

As the rain fell, I saw you through the glass window

oh god, there is blood on the floor w/grxves

lyrics

I will run amuck
will you follow at the 
end of the world
all the promises you made
God they make me wanna hurl
and my body starts to hurt
yeah my body starts to hurt
did u think about me when u were kicking dirt
right in my face
you will be erased
sorry

I will make you bleed
listen to me
hear my screams
I will tend to it
all this pain omits
what you believe 

I will run amuck
will you follow at the 
end of the world
all the promises you made
God they make me wanna hurl
and my body starts to hurt
yeah my body starts to hurt
did u think about me when u were kicking dirt
right in my face
you will be erased
sorry

Emptyprmses intro_ (tiedforsilver x sorrow bringer)

i've been trying to let myself let go, so here's a song that i finished a while ago

LYRICS:

that’s a dangerous habit to have 
romanticizing past regressions to compress and relax
that’s not relief though your belief would have you think that it is
mistaking pain for something gained so you can do it again
they said an end was new beginnings so you took it all in
wanted sovereignty from trauma fall away from the sin
that’s the eager misdirection talk it is what it is
lock in coping mechanisms like you knew they would win

i walked on watercolor thoughts to stop a switch to acrylic
cause it’s to quick to dry decide what time my time gets to end
ascension of men talk religion again
anything to justify the sickness shifting the bends
bent on living what’s been lost not even trying to find
the real deal cause a replica been working just fine
each meal causing nausea stomach turns on a dime
is that pretension or a physical sign [of some decline]

confronted thoughts i need a second or minute
for pausing process to retreat to what i once called forgiveness
that’s the burden of me sitting fences thru adolescence
blink and miss the coalescence of emotions and lessons
and now i’m older 20’s started missed the pistol start over
to mold reactions and my habits to a calmer composure 
fit the image in my head i have of what i’m supposed to be
sold on exposing me
to altering history

cause i’d
begrudgingly consider myself a revisionist
as i go trudging through my memories to switch how i remember it
my temperament and sense of good reaction to accomplishment
a promise since forgotten and resulting consequence
i’m not one for halting progress when i feel that im fine
but neuroticism blocks the process losing my mind
its habitual never intentional cause my mind
falters often as result of lies that say that i’m fine

fine (and the consequences of being so) [prod. eeryskies]

lyrics:

One more life is all
 all i ask
 so i can make it last
 the memories
 that i threw all away for 
 a temporary fix
 throw me in a ditch
 cut me and my wrist
 i deserve this shit 
 karma is a bitch 
 Cursed me like a witch 
 Losing all i love 
 Oh i've had enough 

 Far away i'll go 
 My stories not yet told
 I'll prove them wrong i know 
 I'll be someone's hope 
 I can't find a reason not to cry

karma is a bitch (prod. neverforever)

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

I Wanna Be Someone Else (Prod. Idealism)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)

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