Pretend

one of my favorite songs i've ever made. big shouts out to the homie guardin for getting on this with me!! check him out here:

soundcloud.com/guardinmusic

sample credits: https://soundcloud.com/yungcold

sad chill - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWgkYnqG4u4
guardin - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfn_ugMCzmQ
静的 static - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V_UlSTkw1k

california dreaming (feat. guardin)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

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Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

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solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-downers-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

free download

Downers (feat. guccihighwaters)

OUT ON SPOTIFY

dead and gone w/ sleye (prod. metlast)

hey, i hope y'all dig this track. times have been pretty hard. As you all know, I lost my dad a few months ago. a couple weeks ago, i lost one of my best friends to a lifelong battle with depression. if my music has ever connected with you, please take a moment to go and check out @deco-slush music. If it weren't for him, I never would have released any music, wouldn't have had a friend willing to sit for hours while i struggled with software or trying to get an idea out of my head and into reality, truly one of the lightest and most creative spirits i've ever had the blessing of knowing.

I love you so much Shawn, and I always will.

up on all stores v soon

THE COLOR THEORY

old trauma, new problems

Lyrics:

she said she wanna hear my voice, so I'm going a capella
we could rockout at the show, you could take me to Coachella
all this money coming in it dont mean nothin but its hella
every time i put in work it's like I need a new umbrella

-its boutta raindown, you could make a bet that we all eating
i dont play now, know i got ambitions past the ceiling
every day now, live outside my body say I'm dreaming
what you say now, pack up all your bags and say I'm leaving

I be chillin with your ghost like im legion
there ain't nothin change at all throughout the seasons
i could stay up late and kick it with my demons
i could fall asleep right now without a reason

I could get you on the bed, shawty you heard what I said
But you wont stay till the morning cause I'm busy getting bread
So I guess I'll stay alone I'm like a zombie half dead
I could float and I could sink and I could run you through my head

Run U Thru My Head

run u thru my head

[+] used to hold your hand while you're coming down..
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @l1lbiscuit *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVr0Jf26AFk

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 1: @seejayxo]
Baby I could hate you,
But I think I could love you just the same
Holdup, wait a minute, lemme switch my lane
I just gotta get me a Range
I just need some bands in the back of the safe
I got nothing else to say
They was sleeping on me
Now I feel like they awake
Shawty got a lil taste
Now she think she love me, I can see it in her face
Baby I'ma get them bands and I'll spend on you
That's just what I do, I don't know if I'ma lose
I just gotta tell you when I'm thinking of you...
Cuz I'm thinking of your heart beating on mine
I don't even know if this feels right
I just gotta know where it leads right, where it leads right?

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now
So what do you want from me?
I could sit here all day you won't talk to me
Even if I was dying, you wouldn't stop for me
I've been making racks, its not enough for you
You keep wanting more even when all my bands are blue
Caution, stop with all that fuck shit
Cameras flashing the lights off when I walk into the function
Razor round my necklace I'm bound to get reckless
Seejay in the back while I scratch off my checklist
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now

Coming Down

+ stream on SPOTIFY

coming down (feat. skele) *MUSIC VID IN DESC*

https://soundcloud.com/shinpuru
^ Show him some love

Lyrics:
walking in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, take that belt off I sweared
I was done with this, come back for you baby I'm a masochist
running so damn fast from this
cause baby you the catalyst
alcohol the agonist
pain I cannot manage it.
kiss your glowing lips again
aware that you're a basilisk

now it's 9 am at the station
in my chest I feel no breathe the space is vacant
got no recollection on how I awakened
on this bench said fuck that wench I cannot take this
why I always find myself
downing all the shelf
going 85 inside the residential belt
walking home alone again, I'm talking to myself
I can't find no home until I'm greeted by the 

BLINDING LIGHTS
GLOW SO BRIGHT
I FLY UP HIGH
I TOUCH THE SKY AGAIN
*
coming down
she never come around
I just wander and I ponder If I'm better drowned
leave my body in the lake
I live my life and I'm half baked
and I just wonder If she faked each day she said we're bound

running the in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, as I belt over snares
rip out my hair
everything I came to know was fucking lies
anxious as a mother fucker, rather die
missing every touch and every fucking lie
now I now the truth behind each every line

Street Lights [prod. shinpuru]

IS   /   AC   /   LBZ
still trying to learn how to be human

rest easy @deco-slush

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