A new one

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

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flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

sometimes things just dont work out,
if you wanted me to stay you should know now,
you can tell me anything that you dont doubt,
Park Jefferson in the air while we roll out

cool breeze in her hair got my heart warm,
orange leaves in the air got me lovelorn,
cold fights on the phone make a big storm,
guess ill leave, wanna stay, got my heart torn

when i wake up my bed too big,
sleep in the hole in the grave i dig,
i walk away like i know you did,
turned my back the same time that you hid

some day when we're both alone and lonely,
some day when i want you back to hold me,
think back on all of the things you told me,
miss you feeling like you were my only

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

can you feel this pain inside
broke inside got me out of my mind
all these days pass by i cry
wanna go back, do it right this time

i been down im so broken
cant stand my hearts been stolen
the way our lives been woven
just makes me sad im frozen

i tried to sleep away my feelings im still sad
i tried to get all of this weight up off my back
i tried to numb all the emotions that i had
i cried and laid in bed for weeks i still feel bad

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

runaway (prod adjustisac)

familypet - hurt ur feelings

lyrics: genius.com/Softheart-hometown-heartache-lyrics

credits: 
main instrumentation by noah walker, cam quinn, 

some instrumentation sampled from killedmyself

download

Hometown Heartache

Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6hrUfX7wsi7bSUJNxVKbi4?si=OR6MWOowSsCWyHRlqECuGQ

Dear Dad why’d you have to go so soon
It feels like I never really got to know you
You lost track of ur life when your pops passed
Tryna drink away your problems through a shot glass 
I just hope that I don’t fall into the same path
I’ve had addictive personality since way back
It’s in our blood some times I really hate that
But we’re alike in other ways I wouldn’t change that 
You loved work you put that over everything
You even put it and liquor over a wedding ring
They say you never know what you had til' it’s gone
That’s why I’m writing you this song 
I've been stressing and second guessing decisions
Learning lessons and growing up gaining wisdom 
You’re out the picture this never was in my vision 
You helped me buy my equipment 
You shared my songs and you listened 
When I was younger heard arguing in the kitchen
Moving around a lot houses always switching 
As I got older began to see the addiction 
Mom tried stay to calm couldn’t stick with it
I don’t blame her but sometimes I blame myself 
Like there was someway or somehow I could of helped like damn 
Maybe if I called the ambulance a little faster 
We wouldn’t be in this disaster 
Instead of staring at the blood on the walls like it’s plaster
But I guess it doesn’t matter
Grandma’s crying in the arms of the pastor 
Not all stories get a happy ever after
Me and my brother stuck together that’s for life too 
Mama found new love met a nice dude
Things sucked but I always had to fight thru
How’s the weather in heaven hope it’s a nice view
Nowadays everything ain’t the same 
A lot of problems are bottled up in my brain 
I never thought that I would have to feel this way 
But I can’t help it I’m breaking down every day 
I don’t wanna get upset I don’t think I should regret 
Holding on to what is left hope ur happy looking down
I just wanna make u proud even tho ur not around 
I know you’ll always be there I know that you’ll always care
So I love you and I swear even though we weren’t prepared
Maybe this was meant to be this is what you meant to me
I won’t forget the memories 
I won’t forget the memories
Rest in peace yeah

Dear Dad (prod. Jakkyboi)

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes


https://soundcloud.com/montydatta

I’m drowning I can see the ark 
Sky opens up, world falls apart 
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da
I’m
Rocking all black strings on an old guitar 
With my all black jeans and my all black heart
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

Put me in an all white room and bind my hands
Tell me I’m no good till I understand but
Your demands mean nothing 
I need a Zoloft lil to even feel something 
Put me on a red eye flight and I’ll leave it all as you wave goodbye
She asking where the time goes 
Girl you might as well be asking why the wind blows 
But you see me through these all black windows 
Chilling with the sharks while you swimming with the minnows 
And I’m sorry but I chose my fate 
Big fish ‘round town done being the bait
It’s weighing on my all black lungs
But yours always right so I’ll hold me tounge
Got an all black soul with an all black prayer
I’m the all black sheep with the all black stars 

Hook 

Ripped black jeans and tears from sad eyes
I guess I’m alright I guess I’ll be fine 
I guess I’m real stressed I’m
Best when offline
Cause I suffocate when I talk to you 
It sucks to feel like you don’t want to choose 
I choke so bad my face turns blue 
My heart’s gone dark from loving you 
I won’t speak cause you won’t listen 
You’re my cure but we’ve been distant 
You’re too cute and that’s too bad cause 
Love won’t clean this mess I have 
I’m over love but I’m not over us 
Im over love but I’m not over us

World Falls Apart - Ft Sadeyes Prod. Monty Datta

turn out all the lights
baby it’s just you and me now
stay up every night 
we don’t ever need to sleep nah
you got me feelin right
where i need to be
baby lock eyes and
show me that you need me

i been thinkin bout you lately 
girl i know you want to
you can always slide by my place
you got my heart burning up babe
every single time that i lay
my eyes on your face

yeah i’m fallin for your body
and your mind too 
forget the past, 
we can leave it all behind you
i won’t let you feel alone again 
i won’t let you feel alone again, no

with your hand between my fingers 
i don’t ever wanna let go
yeah i’m mezmerized by your figure
never get tired of you at all, and

baby girl you should come through
we can do whatever you want to
just sit back and let me love you

turn out all the lights
baby it’s just you and me now
stay up every night 
we don’t ever need to sleep nah
you got me feelin right
where i need to be
baby lock eyes and
show me that you need me

put your body up against mine
couple hours we never look at the time
lay in bed as we watching the sun shine
through the curtains and passing the window blinds

yeah, and you’re so warm
in the middle of a winter night
so glad that i made you mine
i feel fine when you’re beside me

with your hand between my fingers 
i don’t ever wanna let go
yeah i’m mezmerized by your figure
never get tired of you at all, and

baby girl you should come through
we can do whatever you want to
just sit back and let me love you

turn out all the lights
baby it’s just you and me now
stay up every night 
we don’t ever need to sleep nah
you got me feelin right
where i need to be
baby lock eyes and
show me that you need me

SPOTIFY

i won't let you feel alone again

this is an old song, but it means a lot to me.

verse 1

last night
wasn’t my best night
my wrist looking like i got into a bear fight
i’m kinda scared 
because i really don’t feel right
i mean,
is everything supposed to be this bright? 
i might past out this time 
and i’m having flashbacks of my timeline
yo, i’m thinking that these cuts 
are way too deep
please help me,
i don’t wanna fall asleep.
and that’s when,
i heard the call on my phone
so i picked up 
because i’m all alone
and you didn’t even know 
you were just at home
so i put it to my ear and said hello
and you asked me if i was okay
then i said no.
not really today
then you told me,
you were heading my way
how did you know that i needed a save?
i’m just glad that it wasn’t too late

(hook)
do you know why i’m a mess
i’m never out of bed
it’s all inside my head
and on the stereo 
a song i listen while i bleed
i hope i never breathe
the way you look at me
you see right through my sleeves

verse 2

tell me how you do it though
girl i really wanna know
it’s not like i’m that public yo
i’m never on the radio
you treat my sleeves just like a ghost 
how do you know?
can you see my cuts?
do you watch them grow?
if it wasn’t for you
i’d be six feet deep
i’m strong now
but i once was weak
you know i’m hurting 
when we still don’t speak
your eyes froze 
from the blood in the sink
i’m sorry that i put you through this
but i promise that i’m on a new movement 
i might fall 
but i know i won’t lose it
so i thank you and look imma prove it
yeah

(hook)

sleeves (prod. haruhi) [unreleased]

Did a song with my bro @nocloudforecast
Lyrics:
HKFiftyOne 
Well I been out here everyday you know I'm tryna live it up
Get this money in my pocket watch me pour another cup
I been sad and I been lonely I been dying for some love
Say you know me you don't know me you ain't OG I been numb

Counting all this money live the good life we up next
Sippin on some UV while I'm running up a check
Ikati on my feet I rock the cat just watch me flex
All of this means nothing i exist in what comes next

Someday ill be better ya
Know that people leave but sometimes they dont leave a letter ya
Someday in the clouds ya
Catch up with my homies while im laying underground ya

Someday in the clouds
I look up with my feet upon the ground

NoCloud
Is it too late
Know you think I’m okay 
I been lyin for a minute so you feel safe
Always stayin up late
Livin in my own cage
Feel emotionless and empty like blank page 
I’m close to the edge
Waking up with regrets
Crying all alone on my bed
Need a friend now
But every day is all the same shit
Make hits
But nobody seems to notice

So hold me so tight
And Wipe tears from my eyes
I just need your light 
Love me cuz i might die

someday w/ nocloud

Spitfire (prod. jody)

hey, i hope y'all dig this track. times have been pretty hard. As you all know, I lost my dad a few months ago. a couple weeks ago, i lost one of my best friends to a lifelong battle with depression. if my music has ever connected with you, please take a moment to go and check out @deco-slush music. If it weren't for him, I never would have released any music, wouldn't have had a friend willing to sit for hours while i struggled with software or trying to get an idea out of my head and into reality, truly one of the lightest and most creative spirits i've ever had the blessing of knowing.

I love you so much Shawn, and I always will.

up on all stores v soon

THE COLOR THEORY

old trauma, new problems

IS   /   AC   /   LBZ
still trying to learn how to be human

rest easy @deco-slush

hmu for engineering/features/beats.
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