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produced‌ ‌by -‌ @killedmyself

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backyard beetle - spoken (prod. killedmyself)

Prod: @puhf

Robstar: @robstar100

Artwork by: @bvdcxrtex


Lyrics:

(Robstar)
Shawty come and boot me up
Bringing double cups
I don't give no fucks
But I don't really wanna talk now
Cold love, no love
All I ever feel blacked out on the concrete
​Do enough, Do I do enough​
​All you ever say is yes or maybe you should calm down​
Nose blood, nose blood
Dripping down my chin and staining my white tee
Too numb, I been too numb
​When I put down my drink
I think I wanna talk now
​No fun, it's no fun
When you're doubting yourself
'Cause I think I might be

I've been going twenty hours can I grab a light
I need something in my lungs to make me feel alive
They expecting what's impossible to satisfy yeah
Nothing's ever right, yeah, nothing's ever right
Why'd I keep my tongue tied if that's why I'm living this life
Crashing down from the sky like a satellite
I can see it in my dreams when I sleep at night, yeah
But I don't know what it means when I open my eyes

​Fuck all of these​ racks I'd be better in a casket
​What's the point in cash if you don't know how to cash in
Shawty throw out feelings I got a habit of catching
Why you wanna play bitch, you already acting
Getting fucked up then I'm with a bad bitch
Bury pain in the lust I need the action
Every day they say the love me but they capping
I don't want no sap shit I need my satisfaction

Roll up and smoke up the ashes
Of the feelings I swear I ain't having
It's the same damn shit when it happens
Same damn bitch when it-
I choke up but told ya I'm laughing
I had a dream that the moon started crashing
At the end of the world you were standing, extending your hand out
And I tried to grab it
​
I've been going twenty hours can I grab a light
I need something in my lungs to make me feel alive
They expecting what's impossible to satisfy yeah
Nothing's ever right, yeah, nothing's ever right
Why'd I keep my tongue tied if that's why I'm living this life
Crashing down from the sky like a satellite
I can see it in my dreams when I sleep at night, yeah
But I don't know what it means when I open my eyes

(Puhf)
When I open my eyes
I start believing the lies
You told me power was inevitable 
Feel it inside
You know it’s time to fly
I got a black range rover and im skirting the lines

And I don’t feel a thing
I don’t feel ok
God I don’t know what’s going on can you delay the rain
Travel down the same road that i did today
Still with the same goals, I don’t know how it works out

Robstar & Puhf - Cold Love

prod me :)

lyrics:

i could tell you what i've seen 
know you've heard it all before
wouldn't change a thing baby
nothing to report
treat me like i'm dirt
i guess that i am nothing more
my mind is in your bed
but i'm passed out on the porch

aching in my gut, it won't go away
there's a sickness in my blood i can't alleviate
every time we touch i feel myself decay
bearer of a curse i don't wanna break

break
break
break
break

should've left it in the past love
i don't wanna feel this way another day
you said that you wanna see me, should've never came
every time we touch i feel myself decay
bearer of a curse i don't wanna break


leave me in the gutter 
leave it all behind
i see you in the mirror
see you all the time
you say i'll never make it
say i never try
maybe i'm the one to blame
don't have a lucky side

bearer of the curse

overrated feelings got me nauseous 
often I been feeling temped getting lost in

honest I don’t wanna tell you what I’m off of
scared of everything that you had ever wanted 

promise you don’t wanna promise me anything 
if your locked in Why you been out lookin for a locksmith
toxic you don’t make me feel like I got options
over with I don’t need nobody come and offer it 
all of it
i need all of it

talking to myself everynight I’m getting sick of it
i promise you my life I’ll make it right I’ll make it infinity 
jus look up in the sky and tell me why you always missin it

cuz I miss every thing that we had been thru
glue in the cracks will not fix you

try to stich it up but this a bigger issue

honesty it’s getting hard to say that ima miss you

but ima miss you
until the day that I come home and ima kiss you
wipe my tears away I will not need a tissue
i got you ease my pain and ima lift you 
ima push you in the way that I need to
promise you that there’s a place for the two of us
and I said that i would never ever leave you
i see it as an opportunity to gain trust

i wish I was the only one to please you 
but you look in my eyes and I see you still see disgust

i always really wanted to believe you
but you tore all the peices apart like it was fun

Infinite (cxrter & cl6udy)

Lyrics

What if im nothing more than a chapter in your story 
Will i see you again
Will we leave this place together or will you be with another man
and i can bet he’d treat you better
Better then i ever can
Cos I’m hopeless little fuck up
and i dont think you understand 
theres no hope left for me
Just broken dreams and empty plans
And you could fit all of my self respect
In the palm of your tiny hands
and id end myself in an instant 
If you gave me a painless chance 

Cos i don’t wanna be here 
But I still don’t wanna die
just the thought of losing you my darling is
eating me alive
But i dont wanna force you
if this love is all lies
I sincerely think you’re better off without me in your life

So please believe me 
i hate that i hate myself
i wish there was something that you could do to help 
But im too far gone to help myself 
Help myself 
I think im stuck like this
And i dont have the energy left to change a thing
I can barely get out of my bed 
too many thoughts inside my head


help me 
Somebody save me
Help me
Somebody same me now
Help me
Somebody save me

chapter (rrarebear)

Same shit nothing changes

Same Shit Nothing Changes w/brecken (prod.venus)

i hate that im still thinking about you. ft. cyzun (sorrowbringer)

im drowning in this misery that i didnt know existed
all our love has turned to history can we please try to fix this
and now that you hate me i dont know if youll even listen
to the songs that i write for you can we please try to fix this

im lost in the dark wish i was lost in your arms
im carving up my wrist while youre carving up my heart
girl i know ive been a dick you were my shining star
im on the ground feeling hit coz i loved you from the start

whywewish

let me sit down and start writing
for once without lying
since you ran away, ive spent every day dying
on my happiest days
i still spend my nights crying
with a mask on my face 
to hide the pain while ur still shining
and you knocked me down
now theres scars on my knees
chest get so tight that i cant even breathe
it'd be an understatement if i said that im addicted
so im writing this verse to ask can we pleaser try to fix this

im drowning in this misery that i didnt know existed
all our love has turned to history can we please try to fix this
and now that you hate me i dont know if youll even listen
to the songs that i write for you can we please try to fix this

if you decide to give up
just know that i wont
ill sit here and wait
while i cry in the snow

can we please try to fix this (feat. whywewish)

drown (w/ slmnMORE x Static)

sad chill - https://youtu.be/H34VCsKB-LU?si=SPS1DPDgo66C6ok3

lyrics ⬇️ (raw vocals)

strugglin since i was 16 everyone say im addiced
wish that i had me a team that push me way farther than all my conflictions
maybe its just my condition keepin me from all my dreams
momma jus trust me if i was addicted i would be flooded with beans
life gettin harder out here but ima keep balancin on the beam
stupid crishendo makin me feel like i dont got nowhere to be
i dont got doors anymore cuz my parents do not trust me
and now i can hear the whole house
& it’s getting harder to sleep

yea but i get it i broke all my vows
never told you what this was about
it comes from the heart i dont gotta shout
just listen to words that come out my mouth

i know your not proud
but what should i do
it tears me apart you look in my eyes and dont got a clue
happy on the outside 
but sufferin in
i always wondered what it feels like on the other side of this

look at me like I failed 
maybe its cuz i did
and mom im sorry that i bailed
i really wish i didn’t
i know you think we feel different
but really often its the same
Ik i need a lot of shiftin
I know i need to feel shame
honestly i got a sickness

never grew up in the trenches
but i was out hoppin the fences 
knew what is bad and 
knew where the best is
its hard to tefrain
Im sorry im tempted
ill never go back i dont feel the same
My life is dependin
i get tbrough pain 
by lookin above
i dont need drugs i just need god
hes riddled with love

strugglin since i was 16 everyone say im addiced
wish that i had me a team that push me way farther than all my conflictions
did i say 16
matterfact meant to say 13
when i was 13 my brother had hand me my first spliff

i Thought it was great i filled up my plate
then it went wrong i sat at the pond 
and hit out the bong 
made a mistake
might be late 
way to late to go on
i wanted to stop i wnated to drop all the feelings i caught
but they all caught ahold of me
“i couldnt do it”- bologna  
you cant just stick to it partially gotta get rid of all of it
gotta make sure its gone
gotta make sure its out
dont need no bong
touchin my mouth

letter to my loved ones (yunnygoldz)

lyrics//

been stuck on my meds
been up in my head
been saying oh well
it is what it is
but i got no patience 
i got no time
cant get out of bed
cant get out my mind

i been so sick of them saying
it all will get better
cuz lately im breaking
i still got the sweater
you left me in vegas
i gave you that box of ur shit
to replace it

i wrote you that letter
i guess that you hated it
its been way too long for the year that i dated
if you get the time couod you dog ear the pages im
trying my hardest but trying dont won’t make it

remember the days 
ask how im doing im going to waste
ask me to smile i dont have the strength
to lift up the corners and lips on my face

embracing the past is a waste of my time
youre taking me back to a simplier life
and you know im sorry
i stepped outta line
forgot all the blessings infected with lies

the city dont feel the same
cuz you in another place
so why do beat me until i feel broken
i been down this road and i know that its hopeless
i know where its going
im going, gone


cant pick up these pieces im just a man
and you take it for weakness and who i am
im just a figjting a demon to find a plan
weight is heavy
but lucky to have some fans

i was in love with you but
prophesy wasent true
now
autumn reminds me of june
and heartache reminds me of you

the city dont feel the same
cuz you in another place
so why do beat me until i feel broken
i been down this road and i know that its hopeless
i know where its going
im going, gone

it didn’t take too long to get attached 
it was only your words and the way you laughed
but also the beauty that you had
i wish that you knew that you had that
lemme get back on track
one day i started to hold you too fast
and then you said
that you feel like you are trapped
well i guess that i gotta sit here and be sad
wake up make eggs in the pan,
holding on by one single strand
gotta get over it make me a plan
no more games
no game boy advanced
gotta get over it
i already said that but i really meant it
i still got your sweater on
i’ll put it to flame in ashes

ily thank u for listening

can we please try to fix this (feat. whywewish)

kysoctober

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