Lyrics

wishing on stars every night
cosmic the light from your eyes
it hurts so much when we say goodbye
But i know were better with time

and if i could hold you tonight
I know that id be alright
And Id know that im still alive

Id know that i

And if i
Could hold you tonight
Id be alright
id know im alive

and if i
Could hold you tonight
Id be alright 
know im alive

you’re best alone for the week
Cos i know you’re fed up with me
You say “its fine watchyu mean”
But i think your lying to me

And if i 
Could hold you tonight
id be alright
id know im still alive

Oh if i
Hold you tonight
Id be alright
id know im alive

alive (theoptimist)

prod me :)

lyrics:

i could tell you what i've seen 
know you've heard it all before
wouldn't change a thing baby
nothing to report
treat me like i'm dirt
i guess that i am nothing more
my mind is in your bed
but i'm passed out on the porch

aching in my gut, it won't go away
there's a sickness in my blood i can't alleviate
every time we touch i feel myself decay
bearer of a curse i don't wanna break

break
break
break
break

should've left it in the past love
i don't wanna feel this way another day
you said that you wanna see me, should've never came
every time we touch i feel myself decay
bearer of a curse i don't wanna break


leave me in the gutter 
leave it all behind
i see you in the mirror
see you all the time
you say i'll never make it
say i never try
maybe i'm the one to blame
don't have a lucky side

bearer of the curse

fishing in los angeles (p. michael harrison)

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
feat. casperrr & shizukesa.
art. my friends cat LOL

lyrics:

(please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound, of my voice calling out, so that i can be found)

and i can feel my heart sink in the rain now
so cold thinkin that i might breakdown
feelin lost, feelin lonley, and nobody’s around
and in this storm the waters rising and i think i might drown
please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found

please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found
but no matter how many times i might scream
it doesn’t mean ur any closer to finding me
so now ur looking for a ghost
just give up you’ll never be close

(please just tell me now, u r looking for a ghost)

(caspy)

nana~
can you help me now
pick me up from the ground
i hate loving in doubt
cuz that's when shit goes south

used to look for some1 like u
now i don't have a clue 
of what the fuck i should
to try and forget u

(shizu)

thoughts fadin like the blood on my palm
she saying shit the same well bitch im already gone
guess all the friends change
cuz they dk what im on
suicidal lil prick im jus a dick of a cunt
just a pussy n**** i quit talkin
steady smoking until hittin coughin
ion need help 2 know im the problem
bullet to the dome woulda solved em
only fuck around inside of FL but by next album im offing me
and honestly, been so sick of the calling me
like fuck out of my head

my heart sinks in the rain w/ casperrr & shizukesa. (secre swallowtail x hey rick)

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

can we still be us

can we still be us (secre x heyrick)

people keep telling me i'm a guardin clone, so here's this in spite to start off 2024 :)

Lyrics:

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

she could read minds in the first place
she could read minds in the worst way
that means she should know that i can't stay :(
that means she should know this ain't my day
spent my whole life chasing first place
somehow i'm 5th wheeling on my birthday
taco bell 3am on a thursday
wish i could share it with you come to my place
ay
double stack chicken wrap yuh
ay
babygirl where you at love :(
crush up 9 grams gurl i'm terrified
still i'm feeling alright this deep in your eyes 

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope- 

YUH

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

solitary (dash)

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

beautiful guitar -> @safeatlast

Lyrics:

jaded in the backstreets
she'd hit the gas flyin past me
5 guys girl ur trashy
9 shots like who put me in the front seat
ay
guardin on my playlist
wired up on go while the tape spin
kind face but he a rapist
no name
no face
still complacent

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after?
this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after

-

where after
where after
where after
where after

where after
where after
where after
where after

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote

where after?

where after? (prod. safeatlast x hero)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@bitekivibes

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