The gritty footsteps of the great panda become a bell-like sound. This in turn becomes the cry of tormented souls. The track comes on strong and who could resist it.

set me far apart
i don't wanna be near you now
fucking up my life yeah thats all i can do
drugs in my mental yeah whats fucking new

everything i live for dies
on my wills written down lies
suicide note left on the door
i can't take this pain do i exist

was i really that worthless
cut me off at any fucking instance
tearing my skin off
why the fuck do i exist

emptying this bottle man its all i have left
you left me in this liquor filled manifest
manifesto written ima blow my fucking brains out
youll see nothing left of me
my friends remember no time of me

im so worthless

yuh nobody really knows me
seeing my hands im the one thats closing
its hurting me so bad (dont act like you would care)
its hurting me so bad
tieing up my mind like you did in the past

i dont wanna act like this
i dont wanna see you leave

no matter how much i pray it never gets better
god hates my soul, going to hell its better
why, why must i be like this
every fucking day holding up to my lyrics

every fucking day i wake its just the same shit
drink another bottle of this gin i hope its painless
crying everyday cuz i feel like shit
stomach hurts feel like this
this year has been my worst one yet but my music grows better
hope i cry tonight, at least that makes me human

modest violet

im in my room staring at the ceiling
thinking about what youve done without me
it happens every fucking time
nothing new to me, i guess im used to it

its all my fault,
its all my fault,
all my fault
all my fault

fuck myself up
loneliness drives me away
why do i never change (never fucking change)
crying in bed, yeah, im so dead

(roscoe)
she wanna see me hurt again
its just the life we live
id adjust to what you want
cause me and you are never apart

im sick of drowning my emotions in this bottle
all these thoughts want to see me hurt

i fucked it up im not surprised
everytime yeah fuck this shit
i cant keep crying for help
cause no ones gonna be there

hurt (+ polaven)

realization

https://soundcloud.com/grayilea
lyrics:
(lava)
i feel like im writing 
the same song over and over
cutting all my friends off
seems like they don't understand

i just downed another bottle
i know i won't make it out of here
where is your empathy

maybe its just a phase 
maybe its my lack of empathy
i know, no one watching me

(eloimmeth)
Mirror cracks
I can’t recognize myself
I’m in shambles
Won’t tell, you can’t understand
I feel like I’m singing the same things over and over
Its my call for help

Take my hand before it’s too late
Nevermind, I know that 
you will leave

(lava)
cover my scars
i hate everything about me
i don't know where to go
im lost in this fucking world

(eloimmeth)
I want to scar you, I want to defile you

What’s the point in this anyway?
What’s the point in this anyway?

(lava)
i hate everything about me
i fucking hate this
i hate everything about me
i fucking hate this

anti-me w/ grayilea

im not real

https://soundcloud.com/malwarevi
https://soundcloud.com/luvlus

prod. lava

living in my head w/ malware + luvlus

as i remember
coldest nights of december
as the nights get cold
feeling helpless, i don't
i stopped caring, would you care

as i fall in two (fall in two)
call out to you (calling out)
winter nights, i dont find any hope now
bear my loneliness
heart destructiveness

blow the smoke away
as i lay in bed in dismay
i dont love anyone
feeling like im half way done
drinking so much my heart is numb
why the fuck do i lie
you wont (will) forget me
thats all i have left

as i fall in two (fall in two)
call out to you (calling out)
winter nights, i dont find any hope now
bear my loneliness
heart destructiveness

self destruct (prod. anticon)

wrong

prod. whitecxffin x lava

lyrics:

just want to escape this fucking pain
just want someone to show an ounce of change
nothing ever seems to go my way
fight it in this bottle of endless drink
failing everything, cant you see that?
fill my cup until i can see black

EVERYTHING HURTING ME NOW
OCD RUNS SO DEEP IN ME CANT YOU FUCKING SEE?
CUT MYSELF JUST TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT ME
DROWN MY SORROWS IN THIS BOTTLE 
JUST WANTED TO FEEL ALRIGHT
YOU WENT SO FAR
LETHARGIC EMBELLISHED OBJECTS
I PUT MY SOUL IN THIS
I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU

2much + @whitecxffin

https://youtu.be/GfIvajyVxDI?si=zhGRxgFanHRkvQtp

realization

lava

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