khan aitmatov: I know this tunnel, and it knows me.

when did everything get overcomplicated 
I just want somebody to tell me that i’m not ugly
I I I I got a tab on my tongue I’m going 
25 over the speed limit i’m bugging
I would like to know what I did 
that made you think that I was someone 
you couldn’t put all your trust in
when I opened up my heart 
was it too much for you to stomach 
baby I’m so exhausted
fuck!
every time I dream about somebody 
then somebody ends up afraid of being accosted
every time I have a dream about you 
all of my inward feelings turn from happy to dogshit
i-i-i’m surviving in the metro 
cut my teeth on wedding rings 
bayonetta ready and sharpened
if I live to see the sun again 
i’m rolling to the bank 
goth bitch finna make the deposit

i i i i don’t wanna live my whole life 
i don’t wanna live my whole life 
in the dark and afraid
I don’t wanna live my whole life 
I don’t wanna live my whole life 
all alone and unsafe

please say something 
please say something
I’m so nauseous
all of this awkward silence disgusting
open up my texts I’m begging for a discussion

metro 2033 (p. trabint + dakota)

10/25

kurtains cover :)

LIKE A FUCKIN BALLS!
LIKE A CEO!!

no magician (cover)

streaming: https://open.spotify.com/track/5SboKCiZaCUGLEyn98l0HM?si=YYvrSQMOTQC_mlSSSEq3jg

prod me

lyrics:
(again)
stuck in the future tense and you're not looking back
i try to look up but my eyes are made of glass
cant even try you fossilized me in the past
wish i could crack
wish i could crack

i dont compare you're holding everything i lack
with one hand open hold it tight behind your back
said it was late so youd prefer it if i crash
again

even if i fall again and break my head
you tell me that it's all the same it wouldnt change
so even if im caught hanging on your wall you would never stop and complain
you tell me that it's all
all
okay
okay

(again)
so ill just waste away stay here looking through glass
i know youll hate it so ill stay here on my back
my company of wilted flowers that you grabbed
you left me here surrounded

came from the ground got my tears all around me
weird coming out it was weird when you found me
fears that i found i dont know im still counting
while froze in the state that you found me

even if i fall again and break my head
you tell me that it's all the same it wouldnt change
so even if im caught hanging on your wall you would never stop and complain
you tell me that it's all
all
okay
okay

fossil

produced by @arysvance
written by @arysvance
cover art by @arysvance

lyrics :

two double o nine

back in that time
there's nothing more than just a silly place
do you see familiar faces
oh yeah i know those are things that i grew up watching
so let me take you into this world

and i can't live without nostalgia
feature phones and old camcorders was a thing at it's time
but there's something so beautiful about it
so bring back to the old times

saving everything for the lights
through a wayback machine it's alright
it's more beyond daydreaming about the memories that have passed by

it's not that i feel lost
you think that i am sad about the things i miss
and you'll understand the joy of old things
sometimes it might have last for so long
it has never been gone

there's so many things to see
everything you'll ever need
all of the charm from aesthetic that seen from your eyes
green moutain white clouds & blue sky
so let the birds fly

i'll sing you a song with a melodyne
cuz my vocals aren't that great to shine
i stayed up for so long
i can't sleep what is wrong with me
oh i'm stuck in the past it's just who i am
live to see everything
over here where i stand
it's just a part of me that i can't let go
[ you're the deer in the headlights ]
and i can go back decades in the light to see the year

[ oh whatcha say ]

2009

Written by @hiisero, @ryanleahan & @trustt
Produced by @hiisero, @ryanleahan & @trustt
Mixed by @ryanleahan & @trustt
Mastered by @trustt

#2014Back

We made this in less than a day. (26/4)

[Intro: Ryan Leahan]
So won’t you go 
Go hang out with your friends
They’ll put the seeds in your hands
You found a reason to end you life, well
They found a spot to begin 
Well don’t you know 
Don’t you know in the end 
Were just the tracks that we spin 
So turn it up till the speakers blow
then I 
I wanna play it again 

[Pre-chorus: Ryan Leahan]
She's the girl divine 
Your always on my mine
Your the girl divine
She's always on my mind

[Drop: Ryan Leahan]
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again

[Verse 1: Trustt]
"Just wait for a week
Just stay for a month"
But I feel so wrong
But I feel so dumb
Just go out
Oh god, why'd it get so hard now?
I feel so dumb

Tell me everything
Just tell me where to stay
I can't even eat now
I can't even sleep
So tell me everything
Just tell me where to stay
I can't even eat now
I can't even sleep


[Verse 2: Sero]
You find yourself, uh, 
looking for doors 
but they lead to the same damn place

You find yourself lying,
trying to keep trying
with a noose in your hands

You repent, you repent, you repent
while you wish to be someone else
You say "mother, I'm sorry"
I desire for one day to be the one

[Pre-chorus: Ryan Leahan]
She's the girl divine 
Your always on my mine
Your the girl divine
She's always on my mind

[Drop: Ryan Leahan]
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again

[Outro: Trustt]
just hold on, cuz waiting forever
hurts more than missing you
and white grass, painted all over
our spring is meant for two
wait up, you're fading too fast
my eyes can't catch your moves
and white tracks, painted and older
this seat, i left for you

girldivine (with Ryan Leahan & trustt)

prod me

it's 30 degrees and
her shirt is see-through
her skirt's red from bleeding
her eyelids are blue
she burnt on your sneakers
her dirtiest secrets
reverted her features 
to try to be new

but is it what she wants
or is it all she's got
it isn't what she wants
that makes her body rot

linoleum floors kiss cold on your thighs
youll sit there and hold her close
wondering why oh why
is it so hard closing your eyes
youll wash them with soap but it wont turn time
dont try

they heard all her screaming
alerted the news
they'll turn all her sequens
convert it to views
dont care if shes real they
just care shes appealing
theyll swear it's convenient
she wont get to choose

linoleum floors kiss cold on your thighs
youll sit there and hold her close
wondering why oh why
is it so hard closing your eyes
youll wash them with soap but it wont turn time
dont try

linoleum floors

https://www.instagram.com/hiisero/
prod, mixed & mastered by me

it's a cliché
and it comes right back to say
that i'm nothing, it's touché
and it hits me in my face
it's so hard to redecorate

if you tell me a lie
kill me, stab me, throw me in the fire for it
burn me alive,
trust me, all about me i will regurgitate

tell me about it while you cry
its always bark, you never bite
tell me why i should say goodbye
guess ill lie to myself, guess ill lie to myself

its different every time
but i guess it always hurts
no matter if i try
the thought of who i was will hit me

if my art doesn't speak for me
then neither will my mouth
i try to avoid it but i cant
cuz it haunts me, it haunts me

tell me about it while you cry
its always bark, you never bite
tell me why i should say goodbye
guess ill lie to myself, guess ill lie to myself

bark, bite

prod me

reach for a glass
the first of november (it hurts me to say)
caught in a gap
it hurts to remember (that nothing has changed)

what can i ask
that you won’t assume is in artifice
what can i have
what can i have

there she goes swaying low and caving on me
meanwhile i’m taken over
craving something

pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
ground teeth
found an outlet but the cord won’t reach
i’m burdened with proof

shattered my hand
while dialing the number
it cost you your land
from sunrise to sunder (i’ll break it off)

so take it all, your skates, your cards
we’re way too far, the pavement’s gone
my frames that broke, your laces choke
my ankles roll, i’m out of control

pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
ground teeth
found an outlet but the cord won’t reach
i’m burdened with proof

pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
ground teeth
found an outlet but the cord won’t reach
i’m burdened with proof

shattered my hand

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production by DJ Krewes

-

i know ive changed 
and i know you act surprised
cause deep down 
it feels like someone just died
i always dreamed of being the same
i always

spectator to my losses
made money then i lost it
cause you cant involve the world
and i cant help but evolve

the amount of times 
you know i stay away from here
opened up that door 
and now i gotta face my fears
put your hands to the sky 
if you know what im feeling
popped some pills
amsterdam
i dunno about this feeling
dunno about this feeling

i know ive changed 
and i know you act surprised
i know ive changed 
and i know you act surprised
i always dreamed of being the same

and you know that time broke us up
answer the call
cuts on your skin
it wasnt my fault
cried in my arms
ten miles from france
jumped in the car
you couldnt dance
you couldnt dance

dance
you couldnt dance
you couldnt dance
you couldnt dance
you couldnt dance
you couldnt dance
you you you

the amount of times
you know i stay away from here
opened up that door 
and now i gotta face my fears
put your hands to the sky 
if you know what im feeling
popped some pills
amsterdam
i dunno about this feeling
dunno about this feeling

fossil

leyton