Art by @kaizenmuffin on instagram

LYRICS
I'm sorry for your heart break
I used to feel it all
but you chose for us to part ways
you miss me now I'm gone
and you change your mind like always
make me feel at fault
well I'm sorry for you're heart break
I finally broke the vault
but it's all on me I guess
each time I've realized it
I know that I can't go on alone
anymore

I'm sorry for your heart break
I used to feel it all
but you chose for us to part ways
you miss me now I'm gone
and you change your mind like always
make me feel at fault
well I'm sorry for you're heart break
I finally broke the vault
but it's all on me I guess
each time I've realized it
I know that I can't go on alone
anymore

It's been a long run for me
but baby don't run from me
I don't wanna see you go
always gotta make a show
all the times that you'd cum for me

all the times that you'd cum for me...

I'm sorry for your heart break
I used to feel it all
but you chose for us to part ways
you miss me now I'm gone
and you change your mind like always
make me feel at fault
well I'm sorry for you're heart break
I finally broke the vault
but it's all on me I guess
each time I've realized it
I know that I can't go on alone
anymore

Broke The Vault (prod. Allrounda beats)

RiverKinn
"Face Value"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live

This the life I'm meant to live
I knew off the rip
Look inside and I admit
Something's gotta give
Focus up and get a grip
Can't afford to slip
Graduated from the sticks
To mortar and brick

I've been chasing a ghost and
Self-medicating, upping my dosage
Say I might hate it but I still chose it
Claiming that I made it, never came close

Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live

Yeah, I was losing my head
I guess I've done it again
I got addicted to venom
I was caught in a web
Yeah, I've been through it before
Don't mean to make it a trend
I can't pretend
That I don't already know how it ends

I've been chasing a ghost and
Self-medicating, upping my dosage
Say I might hate it but I still chose it
Claiming that I made it, never came close

Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
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@riverkinn

PLAY DEAD MMXII

Face Value

Wh1te W0lf x s0cliché - Jouhatsu (prod. justletmedie)

https://soundcloud.com/rivilin

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNQ77eK9Gf8

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah this doesn't make any sense
So why did you tell me you don't want to see me again
How's does it feel to be you, pushing abusing the ones you love you break
So what does it mean to be me you wanna ask me
The questions you don't wanna see
You're rubbing the back of my hair your screaming so loudly
You don't want to show that you care

You're punching your face in the street
You're hitting the pavement your spitting out bloody teeth
Eager to meet me, don't want to see me, so confused i don't want to see
So what does it mean to me, you never ask you never care
So what does it mean for us, yeah you know i shouldn't ask that

Cus im a skinny piece of shit from the west side, lose sight
From where I wanna be cus im back on the drugs again
I wanna blame you but I know it's my fault
Just to date someone so disgusting

So who am I meant to be, yeah I know
He looks a lot like me
So tell me lucifer is that your reflection in the window
Staring back at me, what do you see

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Fuck you watchu thinking, you ain't know fuck all about me
I work harder than some pussy boys that do it for a bounty
They be bragging bout the money that they sucking dick to see
You a sheep boy, living in the simulation, deep

I am free

Boy I threw away a 6 figure job, twice
Knew I'm giving up a life, still I paid the price
I ain't give a fuck about the money, I'm alive
Create to survive, that's my line, till I fucking die

My ex said that I was a lame-o
Said sloth you a pussy just take those
Blank thoughts while blacking in the shadows
Fuck, thank god I left that hell hole

Drove fast, eyes closed
Count downed, I really didn't know
Thought my life would just stay shit
But know there's light in darkness

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

BURNT IGNITION

Construct

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Construct [Music Video ↓]

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

Rivilin:

I know anxiety lives in me 
if I stay here will I lose my mind I think I've already passed that time
plagued by derealization feel like im looking through a fucking glass
feel like this ain't my body im just in a dream will death wake me up

these drugs no they don't mean shit when this body doesn't feel even real
can’t keep up a fucking job it feels like im just blessed with bad luck
try to explain it to someone but they don't understand
like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Coaastgxd:


Every time I die I wake up
Every time I die I…

This time I'm just fine running away
And I'd sell my soul just to better the days
I never get a hold of this, I throw it away
I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions and 
I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh
Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin'
Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho

Can't sleep and I can't wake up
"Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up"
I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud
Going nowhere fast, The ash floating over the sun

Rivilin:

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Scarlett FT. Coaastgxd

Pseudo - Red on the inside

Pseudo - Red on the Inside

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Nicolas Sales: @nicolassales
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/LtUeTlERXQM

Lyrics:

[$LOTHBOI]:

STARING AT THE SKY
LOOKING GOD UP IN HIS EYES
ANGELS ALL AROUND ME
BUT THE DEMONS STAY INSIDE

DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
IN THE CLUB I'M ROLLING DICE
REALIZE
DEVIL STILL AN ANGEL
BEAUTY NEVER DIED

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

LATELY I SEE CREATURES SHIFTING
VOICES IN MY HEAD BEAT
CALL THE ONE THAT SHARES MY MIND
MYSELF IN DIFFERENT MEMORIES

SIPPING WINE I FEEL ALIVE
ASCEND I SHINE IN STARRY SEAS

PALACE SO DIVINE I EXIT
FLASHING LIT THEM LIKE A SCENE


[NICOLAS SALES]:

RUN
RUN AWAY
RUN IN PLACE
I CAN’T RUN AWAY
AND I’M BACK WHERE I STARTED
MUST BE A BETTER WAY
INNOCENCE YOU’RE MIXING IT UP
CONFUSED WITH IGNORANCE
NOW I DON’T KNOW WHERE
ALL MY FEELINGS WENT
WHERE MY FEELINGS WENT
YEAH

[$LOTHBOI]:

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

[NICOLAS SALES]:

SKY FULL OF STARS
LOOKING DOWN
THEY’RE ALREADY DEAD
YOU'RE NOT YOUR JOB OR THE VOICES
YOU HEAR INSIDE YOUR HEAD
YOU DON’T HAVE A NAME
YOU DON’T HAVE A PERSONALITY
YOU'RE JUST THE OBSERVER
TRYING TO SET YOU FREE

[$LOTHBOI & NICOLAS SALES]:

I SAW A LIGHT AND FOLLOWED IT
DO YOU BLAME ME FOR ALL OF IT
I’M SORRY THAT I LEFT WITHOUT A BYE
BUT I BE TIRED OF IT

SIGIL IN THE NIGHT
I ABIDE
CAN YOU GUIDE ME RIGHT
EVERYTHING’S CONNECTED
SO IT MATTERS WHEN THE TIMES RIGHT

THROW ME IN THE FIRE
LET THE EMBERS FLOAT AWAY

LET THE FATES DECIDE
IF I’M GONNA GO OR STAY

BURN INTO THE GROUND
AND FEED THE EARTH A BIT OF PAIN

ALL THAT’S LEFT IS SMOKE AND ASHES
HALLOWED BE THE DAY

I SAW
ANGELS
KILL MY
FRIENDS AND
I SAW
GOD PRETEND
HE CARING

Painted Clouds

$LOTHBOI x NICOLAS SALES - PAINTED CLOUDS

Cheers to my homie https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey for jumping on <3

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

a foggy bed covers home
how did I get here vision is not clear
lost in a maze of streets alone
all i do is fear, withered inside here

yeah there's a vacancy where i mistakenly 
put the trust in the ones i love
laying a wake with a knife pressed to my skull
as the nightmares take control

stuck on a cheap diet of cigarettes 
just so i can keep the hunger at bay
swear to god that someones living inside these walls, 
cus i know that hes calling me name

i don't feel like i'm making sense
when i talk yeah i just regret
every little sentence that leaves my mouth
cus you always seem to twist the words i say

whether it comes from a family, a father or lover 
or something i don't really care
try to explain what the dissociations is like
but they don't really understand

never can be perfect, yeah i know that
but its hard when you look and stare
filled with the judgment of someone else's problems
till it's more than i can bare

it's just a glitch in my personality
feel the anger lurk in me
boiling burning till the circuits 
in my spine start to collapse

pressure is building, the person on my shoulder
tells me that nothing here is real
guess that's fine, i'll just represses everything
until i cannot feel

i never wanted i never wanted all of this
i'm so disgusted, i'm so disgusted i can't quit
the faces changing, i think i'm lost inside my mind
yeah if i don't wake up soon i'm thinking of taking my life

yeah what's the point man, yeah what's the point when you just run
yeah i'm so pathetic, i couldn't understand im done.
yeah my mind is aching, i think depression has just won
yeah if i don't wake up, i think yeah my chances are gone

Sepha:

Look at you taking a part of me away
Every time u make demands and say
Its for my best u know me 
U have my best interests at heart

Our interests are not my interests
I just want to rediscover myself
Again i lost so much but
At least i wrote it all down to remind me in moments like this

Im running away now go
Not cos im a victim no
Just cos i let myself believe that i was your equal but no

U hide under pretenses
False empowerment perspectives
Everything is someone elses fault ur only using ur defences

Im flying away im
Glowing up glowing up glowing up

Look at u take a part of someone else away

Pseudo - Red on the inside

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