Best Selflove hits 3

Crybaby bitch

playlist made 25th January 2019 ( @ 18 gmt )

🧛🏻‍♂️ ⚡ϟ LiGHTNiNG LOGAN ϟ⚡️

@evertheghost

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half 

You try to invite him over 
Got 3 screenshots from last October 
Don’t lie to my face 

you know you ain’t right
You know you ain’t right

I exercise my full right 
To keep on dying inside 

Please take your stupid thoughts
And shove them right up your ass 

Your always so full of shit 
I tried my best to make things right 

You fill my head with harmful thoughts 
And act so innocent in the dark 

I’m so tired of falling 
I’m so damn exhausted 

I cry so damn often 
My life keeps on falling 

(Ever The Ghost)
no peace
no remorse
only a flame to devour a forest
no remnants of life
captivate me on a fast decline
opening portals
unlocking powers
restless souls
all figure out after hours
lost and searching for my soul as it roams
got me backed in a corner
I just want to be alone

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half

Captivate [+ sogimura]

I Hate The Internet (prod. Living Puff)

This song is about the world being your canvas, meaning a true artist never limits themselves.

-- lyrics --
Canvas

I sacrificed my life and gave it everything I got…

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

The world is my canvas
Cuz I’m a true artist
The picture I paint it
I go in the hardest 
give a fuck what you say
Imma do me regardless
It‘s more than my ex girl
That’s left me so heartless

And I don’t even fucking want her back
I just wanna keep on making stacks 
I just wanna keep on spitting facts
What’s your problem that’s no way to react

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

I copped a goyard bag 
to put my heart in
I don’t beg for shit
So Fuck your pardon
I earned every lick
Life got me hardened
I don’t ever quit
I hunt like I’m starvin

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

Canvas

Canvas (Prod. STARINTHESKY)

One of many

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat
[Verse 1]
You reminded me that I'm still human
I can't expect everything to always be perfect
We all make mistakes and learn from them
It's the only way to be a better person
I wish someone had told me all this when I was young
I wouldn't have ever considered pulling the plug
Sometimes all we need is just a simple hug
I used to think that opening up wouldn't be enough
[Verse 2]
I used to hate looking at myself
I was insecure if you couldn't tell
You showed me how to have confidence
The cold shoulder was all I ever felt
The only person you can really change is yourself
You can't force your agenda on someone else
Trust me, I had to learn the hard way
If I never reflected I wouldn't be here still
[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat

you made me realize (prod. 2001)

Lyrics:

you cant match my flow if you wanted to
labels hit my phone on the low im not in the booth
sippin on patron all alone while im on the move
gettin to the bag on my own like i oughta do

but yall dont even know so its lonely
do it by myself on my own G
fuck everyone else im a lone G
always try to drown but it wont leave

like fuck it ill just live with this sickness
like fuck it it aint none of your business
i swear that i get pushed to my limit
i hate it but i dont wanna give in

if only sorrow could build a staircase
or tears could show the way (shoutout BMTH)
you know id take it all right back
so we could see some better days
i know its really not worth leaving
they say goodbye anyway
i know that life can get real fucked
but im just hoping that you stay

Sickness

sickness

[chorus]

i’m sick of being all alone, sick of being on my own
tired of waiting on a text, when ain’t nobody hit my phone
yeah, they tell me that they love me, then they show me that they don’t
feel like i got no fucking friends, might make a friend out of a rope

x3

[verse]

yeah, you know youu got a problem when the blade don’t even hurt
i tried to force a smile but that shit, it never works
i tried to make a friend, but everyone was such a jerk
haven’t felt this way in months, but right now it’s the fucking worst
cause everything is moving all too fast
feel like i’m stuck in the past and i’m always coming last
baby, i swear i just feel like trash
cause i’m only getting older; i can’t get up off my ass
i tried to ghost my friends but i don’t think they fucking cared
i tried a call for help all i ever got was stares
the bruises might fade, my scars, they remain
they remind of a truth: all i’ll ever feel is pain

[chorus]

i’m sick of being all alone, sick of being on my own
tired of waiting on a text, when ain’t nobody hit my phone
yeah, they tell me that they love me, then they show me that they don’t
feel like i got no fucking friends, might make a friend out of a rope

x2

written by Lightning Logan
prod. Discent

samples from Dracula x Haunting of Hill House

Vampire Ghost Club 2022

BEWARE THE MAN-THING

Friends With a Rope

when shes cutting w/ poppy tears (prod. kuroime)

im going to kill myself (prod. angst)

SKETCHMYNAME

darling, will you miss me now? [prod. sketchmyname]

@lilhappylilsad @lonnellsuave

yt: https://youtu.be/OpDcCbe2WEA

spent a couple nights in the bathtub
just starin at my wrist
shiny silver blade in my right hand
should I slit and watch it drip
x2

spent a couple nights in the bathtub
just starin at my wrist
shiny silver blade in my right hand
should I slit and watch it drip

high all fucking night in a bathtub
what is this life i live
shiny silver blade in my right hand
i lay it on my wrist

just tell urself its fine
i tell myself im fine

all u mother fuckers got the best of me
cant believe u fuckin did this when u know im weak
since it hit me ive been tryin but i just cant sleep
since it hit me all the memories r on repeat

tryna figure out a way to breathe
couple ounces gone im off the weed
if u fuckin knew how bad ive been
wish u fuckin knew the pain im in

blood on me and i scream
drugs on me im a fiend
girl help me tryna deal
girl help me hit delete

no matter what they do
i will love u boo
just tell yourself its fine

no matter what i do
know i love u boo
i tell myself im fine

just tell urself its fine
i tell myself im fine

spent a couple nights in the bathtub
just starin at my wrist
shiny silver blade in my right hand
should I slit and watch it drip

high all fucking night in a bathtub
what is this life i live
shiny silver blade in my right hand
i lay it on my wrist

iTunes

bathtub (prod. lonnell suave)

mask of woe: halloween

the night he came home

casper & wendy [prod. frander]

OFFLINE

down the slopes i'm going [prod. offline]

REAPER

please don't cry [prod. reaper]

lyrics

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

before i break down [prod. reaper]

i told you i don't like it when i feel ignored
now i'm standing in the rain, red blood on my sword
white mask on my face, i'm at your front door
you told me that you loved me, you're a fucking whore
i told you i don't like it when i feel ignored
now i'm standing in the rain, red blood on my sword
white mask on my face, i'm at your front door
you told me that you loved me, you're a fucking whore

you told me that you loved me, bitch, you fucking swore
i tried to give your ass the world, you said you wanted more
i'm looking at your corpse, laying on the fucking floor
i feel like jason voorhees, everytime it rains it pours
smoking in a storm, lurking in the fucking night
sorry, i don't feel alright, i'm sorry that i took your life
razor blades and kitchen knives, slipping knots, the rope is tied
baby look me in the eye, why'd you have to fucking lie

i told you i don't like it when i feel ignored
now i'm standing in the rain, red blood on my sword
white mask on my face, and i'm at your front door
you told me that you loved me, you're a fucking whore
i told you i don't like it when i feel ignored
now i'm standing in the rain, red blood on my sword
white mask on my face, and i'm at your front door
yeah, you told me that you loved me, you're a fucking whore

(why won't you fucking die)

Friday The 13th : A Love Story

NESS

friday the 13th : a love story [prod. clovtboi]

lyrics

i got all of these followers so tell me why i feel alone
tell me why my energy has always felt so fucking low
i'm smoking in the rain, all by myself, i've got no place to go
cause honestly, i never feel welcome in my fucking home
my mom is always bugging and her husband don't acknowledge me
he acts like i'm a fucking ghost, slipping through reality
i swear my depression covers me just like a canopy
crying while i fall asleep, i'm screaming in my fucking dreams
anti-depressants but that shit has not been helping me
been thinking about suicide but honestly i'm scared to leave
anti-psychotics but that shit has not been helping me
been thinking about human beings and why they're all so scared of me
black from head to toe, i'm lurking with the ninja blade
baby, kiss me on the face, drown me in the fucking lake
dracula, the way i bite you with my vampire fangs
baby, tell me it's okay before we take our lives today

slasher [prod. clovtboi]

i know what you did last summer
you fucked him, didn't you?
you really did me like no other
and i was so in love with you
now i'm feeling like i might murder
yeah i've been plotting it inside my room
baby why are you hiding under the covers?
don't you know that i'm obsessed with you

run away, run away
before i bite your neck with my fucking vampire fangs
novacane, novacane
ima slam this line until i cannot feel my face
fade away, fade away
i got a dozen pills and i know some of them are laced
razor blades, razor blades
i might cut my wrist until i cannot feel this pain

i know what you did last summer
you fucked him, didn't you?
you really did me like no other
and i was so in love with you
now i'm feeling like i might murder
yeah i've been plotting it inside my room
baby why are you hiding under the covers?
don't you know that i'm obsessed with you

produced by reaper
written by lightning logan

samples from: i know what you did last summer, dracula, and friday the 13th

Slasher '78

i know what you did last summer [prod. reaper]

lyrics

i might fuck your girlfriend, pussy boy fight me
white mask on my face like mikey
got her blood on my lips, she excite me
got my blood on my iced out timepiece
got a gun with a scope, i’ll go sight seeing
in the guardin striking trees like lightning
full moon, let a werewolf bite me
i'm a psycho on the loose, they’ll never find me

blacking out like norman, i might turn into a psycho
popped another hydro, fucked her with my eyes closed 
bloody from her cut wrist, sip it, see my eyes glow
where did my mind go? i’ve been lost in time tho
shroomies with the codeine, sipping till i go sleep
knife inside my damn fist, her pussy on my gold teeth
everybody know me, but they don’t really know me
demons in my damn head, they just been here floating 
kill you in the night time, i’ve been so unstable 
tell me that you love me, i don’t wanna hear no fable
i'm a fucking star boy, i just feel like abel
i might kill your boyfriend, babe my blade is fatal
i’ve been so depressed now 
music has me stressed out
sipping till i throw up
tripping till i come down 
carving up my damn wrist
let the blood pour out
i just feel like patrick
grab the blade and black out

i might fuck your girlfriend, pussy boy fight me
white mask on my face like mikey
got her blood on my lips, she excite me
got my blood on my iced out timepiece
got a gun with a scope, i’ll go sight seeing
in the guardin striking trees like lightning
full moon, let a werewolf bite me
i'm a psycho on the loose, they’ll never find me
got a gun with a scope, i’ll go sight seeing
in the guardin striking trees like lightning
full moon, let a werewolf bite me
i'm a psycho on the loose, they’ll never find me

produced by misery
written by lightning logan

samples from: american psycho, and the voices

MISERY

american psycho [prod. misery]

everyday i’ve been praying i would feel a little better
it’s getting bad again, the voice, it’s getting so much louder
there’s a ghost inside the attic, i can hear the cries and laughter 
i will just try to ignore it, but that just makes me feel sadder
i don’t think i wanna be here, in my head it feels so spooky
i just want to end it all, my life is such a scary movie 
everyday i feel so empty, seems like nothing makes me happy
i am struggling to breathe, anxiety. it has me gasping 
i don’t wanna hurt myself no more, but something has to help me feel
no one ever talks to me, i’m struggling to know what’s real
the doctors tried to fix me but i honestly don't fuck with pills
just leave me here all by myself, i’ll be fine if i don’t kill
i know there’s something lurking near, i know it’s getting close as fuck
i think it’s made it to my head, i’m thinking about giving up
tell me i’m not crazy, i’ve been so down on my fucking luck
tell me it’s okay before i grab the knife and start to cut
i think i’m off my rocker, lost all sense in my humanity
look me in my face, i feel like michael on a killing spree
kitchen knife inside my hand, reliving all these memories
i don’t wanna feel no more, please uninstall my reveries
-
written by lightning logan
produced by discent
samples from: paranormal activity + dracula

The Night He Came Home

DISCENT

there's a ghost inside the attic [prod. discent]

Im Sorry

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friends with a rope [prod. discent]

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