songs that made me think of someone I wanted to forget

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POV: he broke ur heart after he told u that he loves u☠️

top 2

sadeyes

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

@sorrow - ghost inside my head (prod. jang0 & autrioly)

@sorrow - close my eyes before i lose it all (prod. autrioly)

@sorrow - when did you get so cold? (prod. autrioly)

@sorrow - a one-sided love story (prod. autrioly)

@sorrow - we have to say goodbye (prod. sundwn & autrioly)

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

i know you hate when i smoke

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4ctisd4N7Q&ab_channel=yesterday

its hard to believe you
and anything you say
dont take it personally
ill talk to myself for days
and think about the things
you do when youre without me
im self detrimental everyday
find a safe space in my brain
where im alone with you
i can say the things i always wanted to say

trust issues, i wish youd stay
theyre eating me away
trust issues, i wish youd say
something to ease the pain

its like you say things but you mean something else
the barren trees start reaching out to me
as i drive my car through familiar places
the only limits my imagination
when it comes to you
blind faith has proved
that im such a sucker

Follow me <3

trust issues

@qawikamri
@itsyungvan

LYRICS:
It's silent but i hear voices.
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-i-keep-hearing-voices-annotated

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SPOTIFY

I Keep Hearing Voices (w Yung Van)

@qawikamri 
@guardinmusic 
@cpt_sad

LYRICS:
i guess we're soulmates when it's not hard.
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-soulmates-lyrics

Soulmates (w Guardin, Yesterday)

prod. QAWI and Lonnell
@qawikamri
@cozyboycries
@lonnellsuave

LYRICS:
my love is not enough for you
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-love-lyrics

Love (w Cøzybøy, Lonnell Suave)

n,n x falls - i still remember it all (remix)

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

cet album est pour toi

i'm a punk rock boy, baby girl don't get it twisted
i can't waste my time i know you fine but you won't listen
everything's better when you stay up out my business
but its hard, real hard when you're spyin from the kitchen, look

every girl i meet is fuckin trife, like what is life?
i been grippin at the knife, i need a light
please don't ask me if i'm fine, i'm not alright
i don't really wanna end, but i'll take my life

if you tell me that i'm wrong, you might be a song
it might truly hurt to hear a thousand people sing along
you could tell me that i'm fake, that i'm not the same
it won't change the way you acted, you're the one i've got to blame so...

(be yourself, ty for listening <3)

a message

a message (epilogue)(p. joemay)

cet album est pour toi

i think its crazy how it came to be, 
i'm really good at makin people run away from me
before i tell you what you mean to me
understand i'm brokenhearted but your love could be my remedy so

take my hand we can fly away,
we can kiss and hug and fuck to take the pain away

take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
(the pain away)

i been fallin, for you girl,
you could be my girl my world
i been fallin, for you girl
you could be my girl my world (x2)

tell me that you love me baby please
i will drive to california just to set your mind at ease
i will love you like there's no one left to please
let me run you outta breath i want your tongue apon my teeth
(i swear to god)

i think its crazy how it came to be, 
i'm really good at makin people run away from me
before i tell you what you mean to me
understand i'm brokenhearted but your love could be my remedy so

take my hand we can fly away,
we can kiss and hug and fuck to take the pain away

take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
(the pain away)

i been fallin, for you girl,
you could be my girl my world
i been fallin, for you girl
you could be my girl my world (x2)

wrote you a song

wrote you a song (p. ocean)

cet album est pour toi

people change but i'm not involved, don't you cry in that bathroom stall
i get wasted and that's my fault but, drugs wont change the way i love you at all
(love you at all)
(love you at all)

i can forgive what you did to me
i can forgive what you did to me
love drug, call me ketamine
and you love drugs inconsistency

what you need girl, yeah i got that, 
i can love you, would you like that
and i'm real too, fuck a price tag
fuck a fake friend, fuck yuh mouse taps

love doesn't come with excuses (nah), baby girl neither does music (nah)
i swear that i'm tryin i'm writin these songs for i lose it

(swear that i'll lose it, swear that i'll lose it, 
swear that i'll lose it, i'm writing these songs for i lose it)

people change but i'm not involved, don't you cry in that bathroom stall
i get wasted and that's my fault but, drugs wont change the way i love you at all
(love you at all)
(love you at all)

i might get rich, maybe die tryin
i might fall in love and end up sad and cryin
i might love her, she might love me back
she might turn around and take all that i have

tell me one thing, do you miss me, cause i miss the way you used to kiss me
do you feel alright? (do you feel alright)
i don't feel alright unless you're with me

i'm sorry i'm never enough
i'm sorry i'm never enough anymore

tell me one thing do you miss me?

do you miss me

do you miss me (p. brody)

cet album est pour toi

hold her? haha
fuck that!

you were all i had i lost another one, another one
you're not coming back i'll roll another one, another one

every friend that i had
every love that i lost
every dime that i fucked
every time i'm on the drugs

i'm gonna die soon, every line i write i always wanna cry too
give a fuck about myself i wanna help you

give a fuck about myself i wanna help you
help you
help you
help you

wanna help you
help you!
help you
me too

i've fallen out, i'm done with trust, i'm over you, i'm done with love
love gotta price tag, i don't wanna spend that, sex like hazmat, fumes need a gas mask.

when you tell me that you loved me you were lying thru your teeth
cross your fingers hold your breath and hope i never fuckin see
you're always focused on the fuck ups on the melody and key
when the beat been drivin flow just let the lyrics do its thing

i swear to god i'll never miss the way you acted on my feed
you been speakin hella reckless i can't take another tweet

stay away from me
(lose my fuckin number)

monsoon

monsoon (p. ocean)

cet album est pour toi

my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you
my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you

i've got problems in my brain, you,
help me ease the pain, 
help me numb it out when i been cryin in the rain cause
i've got these demons that i can't shake

show me what i face, show me what you love, promise not to break my heart </3

you deserve better

you deserve better (p. ocean)

prod. @oceanonthebeat

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior. i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

i think it might be best for me to let you go
but if you ever love me you should let me know
i know you really want him guess i'm fine with that
be careful with your heart cause i'm not good at that

picking up the pieces, 
does he hold you while you're sleepin?
heard he loves you does he mean it?
does he care about your dreams and
all your goals and how you'll meet em
does he call you ever evening
is he making sure you're eating
do you love him how he loves you is it even fucking even

i won't wait around for him to break your heart
i can't mend your soul i don't know where i'd start
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior, i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

jaded (prod. ocean)

prod yusei  & me

lyrics:

i had a friend reach out and tell me
i've got allot up on my plate
i told her don't you ever worry
you got me when times are grey

she said nathan i feel ugly
no one understands my pain
and my parents never listen
i'd rather die than feel this way

don't cry, don't die
give it two years it'll only take time
and you're never ever ugly with a smile that bright
no your parents don't listen but i swear they wanna try

know your stressed, and depressed, and your hair is a mess
but you're cute when you lose or you're mad at your friends
and i hate when you'd cry every time that i said
oh i love when you're here, i don't want this to end

can we not talk school for once, it makes me nauseous
everyone in class is either mean or real obnoxious
and i'm sorry that i said it, but i felt so fuckin lost
it's like my life is just a token either spent it or you lost it

here i'm sittin, eye inside the storm issuing
waiting being patient for the rain to ruin
everything i've ever loved or ever touched, 
or ever gave a fuck about, i'm sorry that i hurt you friend i'm sorry that i let you down

and i, don't care, i'll always be there
no i won't give up on you

and i, don't care, i'll always be there
no i won't give up on you

 had a friend reach out and tell me
i've got allot up on my plate
i told her don't you ever worry
you got me when times are grey

she said nathan i feel ugly
no one understands my pain
and my parents never listen
i'd rather die than feel this way

don't cry

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad