prod deadfish 
love you all <3

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

So what if I leave you 
Still stuck in my head cause I need you
I hated the sequel I wonder if I didn’t call would I see you
So whyd she go and lie to me
I keep my head down I’m running from what’s inside of me 
And I can love you but honestly my anxiety 
I’m cutting wrists to avoid that there’s nothing of me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
Leave me in the bottom of a hole
Staring down a barrel with my soul at stake
I wanna fade away
I wanna die today
I tried yesterday

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

So, Go (prod. jolst)

[+] do you love me, do you hate me? I can't tell
* produced by @thersx *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFN_OlKU7m8

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

every time I see your eyes wanna die a little less
im still tripping off the shit last week that you said
was it something that I said damn
you know you hurt me think I might need surgery
you on a burglary might just let you murder me
ok
cuz I don't wanna live that much
and I just wanna feel like im loved

yea used to pop them pills just for fun
now im two months sober this shit dumb
I just miss the feeling when im numb
I just miss the feeling of your love

(repeat)

love me, hate me

+ music video

love me, hate me (+ music video)

@sorrow_bringer 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
[Audio Sample from King's Game]
~~lyrics~~
it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

hoping i heal, but i'm proof of the damage
everyone i kill's either hungry or manic
refuse any pills that i'm offered, then panic
if i'm really real, would you feel if i vanish?
let's trace back to the start
i ain't got no time here to waste on my heart
if i wanted peace, i believe i would be "anybody"
can't feel defeat when i'm coated in honey

permanently flawed; let me get my head straight
living at the cost; on the brink of being dead weight
no headspace, just silence.
what do you expect when the sky's blaring sirens?
but i knew the consequences all along
i used too much strength tryna grow stronger
the rapture, and endless disaster

take me by the head 
(okay)
leave no evidence 
(nor trace)

the moon is turning red
the air is so condensed 
simple lives and foolish lies
i raise a knife up to my eye
if one should seek, then one shall find
but what if i've already died?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬...
𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦... 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦,
𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut
like it wants in my gut...

sugar in the spice (sorrow bringer)

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

spotify

pavement w/skele

When I'm drunk don't piss me off
Please don't ask what's in my cup
Like what you heard from such and such
She's gonn' believe the thoughts I'm tellin' her
'Cause lightning strikes but once
I bite the gun
She says I'm not enough for her 

I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied
I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied 

When I'm high don't kill my buzz 
I thought she believed in us
I don't even care no more I'd probably bleed out on this rug
You a fantasy I dreamt of you a fading thought for sure 
And within this darkest bedroom I remember who you were 

When I'm drunk don't piss me off
Please don't ask what's in my cup
Like what you heard from such and such
She's gonn' believe the thoughts I'm tellin' her
'Cause lightning strikes but once
I bite the gun
She says I'm not enough for her 

I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied
I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied

over the hedge w/ jomie (p. yunny goldz)

shout out guardin for letting me remix this <3
@guardinmusic

original song: Guardinmusic – Geronimo

shoutout 93feetofsmoke for producing the original:
@93feetofsmoke

guardin - geronimo (hateful remix)

toothfairy

Lyrics:
wake up morning to a bad report
and i just cant be fucked so i just pour a fourth
then i shoot the fifth until my final form
begins to take its shape and im on the floor

and im heaving writhing turning to a beast
and i break my chains and i roam the streets
then im spinning falling faster in my sheets
and im throwing up my guts on my feet

i dont hope i choke on my internal fluid
i just wish the devil would get laid to ruin
we could find some peace and it would all be fluent
it would be just like we aint just been through it

and i hope i never get the past back
burned it up cause im like “pass that”
block it out and ill redact that
keep it dark like its matte black

it doesnt matter all the smoke in the air
never cared if i remembered anything, i was there, like
it doesnt feel the way it used to, like
sewerperson on my bluetooth, like
x2

eyes awake, steady forth
my wounds and pain is not a metaphor
my blackened brain is not a steady course
my frozen heart has stopped keeping score

now im sick from all the toxins
wanna get away but im boxed in
got a safe but never locked it
now i pay the price with no profit

pass the spliff itll be fine
they all say have a great time
fuck these demons gotta face mine
out my mind call me tech n9ne

hold my breath when i drink now
on my way to the sink now
too fucked up on the brink now
blackout cold in the street, blaow

Matte Black

lyrics
--------
they fake it to make it while you're in the dark
hole in my heart where you pull me apart
but the waves don't close they just crash & depart  
and i won't be scared when they rip me apart

rip me apart
you're vindicated for playing the part
what's in your head is not what's in your heart
if i'm mistaken can we just restart
only if it's for the sake of the art
we can't replace what we made at the start
canvases painted with faces from places
that solely exist in the depths of this part
chapters come chronologically
it's outta my own reach
to find another one
to write it out for me
i'm semi-automatically inclined to see
the good in everybody up until they speak
the words you spew are not aligned with my beliefs
and outta all the ones you preach there's one i think
you've gotten right and that is life is but a dream
the life you live is not a proper life to me
at all

they fake it to make it while you're in the dark
hole in my heart where you pull me apart
but the waves don't close they just crash & depart  
and i won't be scared when they rip me apart

i know you hate when i smoke

sadeyes