Skele

soundcloud vibes 2

he said it, i'm too damaged

w/ @scapexgoat


i'm trying my best 
i swear i am 
tryna show you i need you 
i wanna hold your hand 
i've been hurt so fucking badly i forget who i am 
this was never part of the plan 
so can you promise you won't run from me 
cause i'm so scared i'm fucking shaking
it gets hard to breathe
n i'm not used to someone wanting me 
god, it feels so fucking comforting

so pour me a drink
and i'll sing you to sleep 
n he said it
i'm too damaged 
bleed through the bandages
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him
n just to go sleep
have to be off fucking sedatives
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him

[scapegoat] 
i was in the backseat 
looking at my phone
why you never text me
i feel so alone
i just wanted you to stay 
tell me when the fuck you're coming back
i know i'm so bad
hate to see you like that
tell me why the fuck it hurts so bad
i wish i could save you but i know i can't
how the fuck can i help you,
i can't help myself

bleed through the bandages (w/ scapegoat)

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lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

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First track fully recorded out of the hospital. Just another one about a girl playing with my feelings I am getting back to normal now!

I Hate This

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i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

give me 5 more minutes

prod: https://soundcloud.com/irby314

lyrics:
i know that you wont hear this
so i can be as honest as i want
isnt that fun
ive been wondering how it feels to stare down the barrel of a gun
so give me 5 more minutes
so i can clear my head up
so i can dry my eyes, love
i know that u wont get it 
but i think its time i said it 

i still care, but i know that i shouldnt
i cant help but wonder 
i hope your not hurting 
im getting used to my burdens
i know u wont hear this
my mind isnt working

my mind isnt working 

i still care
i hope u know that u can talk to me 
even tho your words cut me to the artery
i hope u know that i dont hate u 
even tho i really fucking want to 
so when its late and im feeling low
replacing air with chemicals 
i tend to forget what im holding on for
and nothing feels real
its so hard to forget when i cant heal

i still care, but i know that i shouldnt
i cant help but wonder 
i hope your not hurting 
im getting used to my burdens
i know u wont hear this
my mind isnt working

i still care, but i know that i shouldn't (prod. irby)

thank you to https://soundcloud.com/sendflowrs https://soundcloud.com/remghost https://soundcloud.com/jvbeats666

it's so ugly
i let everyone control me 
and i can't think 
so i just lay awake and worry
blurry
your words just cut me , have some mercy
you never fail to leave me scars
that's why i'm hurting

it's why i'm hurting
i can see your eyes
i know they're burning
and i can't feel you in the dark
i know you're lurking
you really love to see me bleed
i'll close my eyes now
you really love to leave me scars
so bring the knife out

(flowrs)
knife out, knife out
baby bring the knife out 
and i’m so fucking sick of this
i guess i’ll say goodnight now
and i know you’re laying with him 
so i’ll scratch my fucking eyes out
you’re tryna match his breathing
he’s asleep, i’ll fucking cry now
gave me 3 chances, 
blew em all i guess i’ll strike out 
your rope is weak, this fucking hole i’ll never climb out 
she told me “never go to sleep with all the lights out”
cus she won’t show me mercy, wants me dead, i guess i’ll die now

mercy (w/ sendflowrs) (prod. remghost & jayvee)

it gets hard to breathe
https://soundcloud.com/crackxlizard
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mastered by: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy


so is he everything
wanna fall in love
get a wedding ring
taking back all the memories you got from me 
when i look at the past yeah, it gets hard to breathe
i bet he's giving you everything
it's killing me

wake up, i don't wanna wake up 
don't wanna live another day feeling the fake love
and they like wait up, i don't wanna wait up
i keep breaking apart
i'll take the pain, love

do you treat him like me now
say he's the worst now
sending heart eyes while he's falling asleep now

i don't wanna wait till i break down
haunt me like a ghost until i'm bringing the knife out

i bet he's giving you everything, it's killing me (prod. cracklizard & caspr)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

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