life been feeling like this track lately </3

Hi! good job! pls check out my album Ho Ho No! Also about seasonal depression! <3

produced by @imtiredmusic

lyrics:

 Save me from another heartache
I promise to come back and see u one day
The sand in my hourglass falls to heartbeats
I cling to the smell u spilt into my bedsheets
I listen to my heart but it just brings me bad news
The stars in the sky burn out the same damn route
I wonder if she feels when im at the end of my wits
I figured out the code and I haven’t slept since

The wind reeks of war But I laugh in my room
Maybe if im bored I can go to war too
Bullets in my neck Shrapnel in my lung fluid
At least it missed my heart So I could still love you

Another night fucked up all on my own
Stringing out the Christmas lights from a couple years ago
Oh it hurts me to think about the times that I fold
Im Forgetting what I was as long as I keep my eyes closed
If im Lost I don’t ever wanna be found
Keep me safe but im Im at war
And Ill be standing my ground Till I die Till I die
U got me torn But im not taking no more no more no more
So burn me to tar Add to the scars
Just carry on Forget about us we’ll be alright
The mood feeds in into the tears I wipe
Oh how uve grown I can’t believe my eyes

The wind reeks of war But I laugh in my room
Maybe if im bored I can go to war too
Bullets in my neck Shrapnel in my lung fluid
At least it missed my heart So I could still love you
so I could still love you

cannibalism (hateful x moonsight)

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Listen on Spotify!

Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

lyrics:

I forgot the way about 10 miles ago
Ive heard to use the stars to help and walk me home
But Its hard to see anything aside from the moon
She said Its never been the same since the town lost u
The storm hit hard way harder than most
U shouldve been inside when it got that close
I pass thru the rubble heaps and I call to a ghost
Fear can get the best of us but pride will take a soul
I fly thru the sky for 10 seconds at most
And I thought to use the gust to try and drop me home
And I tried to use the wind but found the telephone posts
I felt The clips pops thru me out the back of my throat

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

The clouds look fake again
But what’s wrong with u
Its still poison that drips down
That’s what they’re telling you
So what ur telling me
Is that its you vs everyone else
I think u think too much
I know I do it too
And it forced my to change shells
And I wish we didn’t have these fucking arguments
But we dont talk to anyone else
She said I know
What u dont
She said I could tell u
But u should know its brutal
Well fuck it then I dont need anymore trouble than I got
A quarter way is a long way when ur looking back at the drop
There’s nothing better than a friday except a Friday u forgot
Even when its just my place I feel a strong urge to get crossed
The night had always looked beautiful but this time its just so strong
Even after the worst of it im still happier than I thought

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

the stars came crashing down
as i wait for you in this dirt road town and i
cannot make this up if i wanted to
i’m just lashing out at life
i can’t let go
it’s a lil bit harder now
you taste like him
i’m a lil on fire now

light speed into the fray ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

https://www.soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/shikixo

amv:
https://youtu.be/6PVfJgVxxXc

lyrics:
i guess i'll see you for a night
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, you’ll have to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i’m so used to tryna finish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

trying my best
you'll be better off alone
cause im a mess and i just stare at my phone
you can find another one
he’ll treat you better than i ever could  ohh
kissing in the shower, i'm missing you after
you should see my head love
i'm such a disaster
ohhh you'll stay for awhile
it cuts me deep everytime that you smile

i've
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, you’ll have to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i’m so used to tryna finish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

i'll regret it when you're gone
getting tired of writing the same songs
i can't help but worry that you'd leave
there's no way that anybody could want me
almost breaking apart
too many nights in the dark
i love the way they hurt me
it's kinda turning me on
one day in the park
i want to kiss in the car
i want to hear that you love me before breaking my heart

i guess i'll see you for a night
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, i'm learning on how to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i'm so used to trying to vanish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

almost breaking apart
too many nights in the dark
i love the way they hurt me
it's kinda turning me on
one day in the park
i want to kiss in the car
i want to hear that you love me before breaking my heart

i'll regret it, when you're gone

skele - it's my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

So what if I leave you 
Still stuck in my head cause I need you
I hated the sequel I wonder if I didn’t call would I see you
So whyd she go and lie to me
I keep my head down I’m running from what’s inside of me 
And I can love you but honestly my anxiety 
I’m cutting wrists to avoid that there’s nothing of me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
Leave me in the bottom of a hole
Staring down a barrel with my soul at stake
I wanna fade away
I wanna die today
I tried yesterday

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

So, Go (prod. jolst)

numb4 w skele (splashgvng)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

In The Light Of Grace

its been getting warmer but i haven't seen the sun

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
master/vocal chops: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy 

lyrics:
and it's the same things
that keep me awake at night
it's harder to sleep when i 
see what's lost in my mind
(x2)
i don't wanna sleep cause i don't wanna wake up
(x4)
i've been feeling out of place here
i swear i'd give up everything to get my head clear
i'm losing everyone i hold near
and i feel like i'm falling all i wanna hear
is your voice
i've been calling out to you
can you hear me
i don't wanna sleep cause i don't wanna wake up
its been getting warmer but i haven't seen the sun
bouta hit the road for some shows ima kick it in the backseat
i've been doing well i hope you're proud of me

the same things (prod. caspr)

i swear that it's nothing 

prod: @irby314
laying in bed
and i'm trying to match his breathing 
and i'm wide awake 
but my heart isn't beating

some type of apathy 
i sleep through the morning
say i look sad 
i swear that it's nothing 
the way you whisper 
is making me shiver 
winter is coming 
i hope i feel something 

and you got some skeletons lining your closet 
got some secrets filling your pocket
been a couple days, and a couple nights
but it's fine as long as i'm breathing, right?

i know you don't like that 
it's not my fault, i can't help when i fall back
biting my nails till you text back
hitting your phone like "babe can you come home yet?"
it's the same every year with no reason 
praying to god that i'll live through the season
look at my eyes if you mean it 
why am i always just picking up pieces

apathy (prod. irby)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

seasonal depression (prod. iof)

skele

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blue sky bird ;)

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