It makes me upset that this never blew up as much as it should've

This song will always have a special place in my heart <3 

5 years from now this will still be a bop

Still listening to this about 7 years later 🫶

[Lyrics]

A glowing halo frames each word, igniting praise and cheers,
Deeds bathed in radiance, the masses drunk on light and tears.
Yet if a poor man speaks the same, he’s labeled just insane,
And losers’ noble acts dismissed as shallow, selfish gains.
Titles shine as halos bright, blinding all who stare,
The truth obscured beneath the glow—does anyone care?


Speaking boldly, chest puffed high, parading hollow pride,
Fools stand tall, the wise recoil, seeing truth denied.
A halo forged by arrogance guides masses to white haze—
Oh, have you never learned the name: Dunning-Kruger’s effect?
The louder voices seldom speak with wisdom on their side,
Yet still we chase illusions cast by those with foolish pride.
But, louder voices never house a single soul of worth.


Degrees and titles were not forged to crown eternal kings,
Yet twisted, they distort our speech, decide what value brings.
Madman or sham-mad jester—titles alone decide the role,
Without a glowing halo, your words vanish, black and cold.


Speaking boldly, chest puffed high, parading hollow pride,
Fools stand tall, the wise recoil, seeing truth denied.
A halo forged by arrogance guides masses to white haze—
Oh, have you never learned the name: Dunning-Kruger’s effect?
The louder voices seldom speak with wisdom on their side,
Yet still we chase illusions cast by those with foolish pride.
But, louder voices never house a single soul of worth.


Words require proof, and claims demand refutability,
Yet halos shield their bearers from accountability.
So Hitler rose, and Stalin starved, while Mao let millions die,
Putin marches reckless on, and blustering Trumps arise.
A world consumed, burnt away by fools who proudly shine,
Blinded by the halo's glare, reason left behind.


Reason whispers softly, glowing faintly like a firefly,
Emotion shouts aloud, bright fireworks against the sky.
This world is only Śūnyatā, titles just Rūpa’s guise.
Empty forms in shifting gray, projected on our eyes.
Yet halos lure us down the slope to Avidyā’s despair—
White oblivion yawns ahead; step lightly… if you dare.

Herēs humānitātis

Halo

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＲＥＡＬ

//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

Emo bullshit


idc if you don't like this song I made this one for myself

Lyrics:

Today I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle 
Perks in my bloodstream I just took a handful
Don't remember how I got here
It doesn't matter how I got here
All I can see is the gun on the table 
Fall on my face call your phone while I'm able
Don't remember how I got here
Doesn't matter how I got here
Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
I fucked up again yeah it's what I do best
Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest but she don't understand what I mean by depressed and
I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
I'd tell you i loved you if you loved me too but
I'm on the edge now I know it's too late
I already know I was just a mistake

I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

I don't know who to put this in words, the way this burns
Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
With this anger that I know I deserve, or am I swerving on the people that I love cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
And I didn't learn a thing from this
Except what it's like to be buzzing with a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch
And I feel like such a bitch, now my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
So I say fuck it I'm done, And I try to get away
But I don't get very far, And there's nowhere to stay
Now I'm writing these bars, Cause I've got so much to say
So my worlds will live on, Even When I fade away

 I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
So can you please tell me why?

Oct. 17th 2014

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Make It Through Fall

guitar by : @waitingoncisco

lyrics:

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

if i'm a star i'm burnt out and looking down
just cause she love me right now
don't mean she'll always be around
always stoned and in my house 
don't got nobody i can count on 
just stay tucked off by myself
oh i 
only get in my zone when i get on my own
all alone
she hit me up at all
and i shut off my phone
i go ghost
i swear she got those words you feel in your bones
who would have known
the prettiest face would have the ugliest soul

yeah but im a loverboy what'd you expect from me
i swear pretty girls will be the death of me
step to me i'm in the sky
baby i been hearing lies 
all my fucking life
so i always treat them nice
so when they fuck me over i don't even think twice
i just cut em off i don't even want a slice
imma leave her blocked
wish my heart weren't so soft 
wish you weren't my first fuck
all the shit is so dumb

now i just find safety in how 
these memories start all fading
put a knife inside my back
then ask why i'm so filled with hatred

anything but give you space and i'd rather erase myself
put the hurt of my back
chasing feeling's never helps

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you, 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

ghostboy. (with waitingoncisco)

Lie Again Ft. Yesterday & Moonlet (prod. Yung Flex) out on spotify

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

new video for "highschool" out now! https://youtu.be/W00tTrHoaCo

highschool

Inquiries to Lilxtramgmt@gmail.com

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Make It Through Fall

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