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I'm so excited to share with you all my first ever single, Friend! This song is very special to me and I hope you all enjoy it! It feels so weird finally getting this out into the world, and I can't wait to see the reception!

Friend

OUT NOW EVERYWHERE: https://ffm.to/petalsdoblossom

prod: me / chiba

backstory of this track:
chiba and i were actually rivals at one point. we then came together because we realized how similar we were. a year goes by and we come together and say, "hey lets make some music together" so thats what we did. chiba flew out of asia to california to come see me. he stayed with me for about 8 months. we made music basically 24/7. this track you're listening to right now was originally a single i wrote when i got my heart broken in 5th grade. i was in a field picking petals off a flower singing, "she loves me, she loves me not." over and over. i kept asking myself, "did she really love me? or did she just use me for my playground in my backyard." the answer is, i'll never really know. that's the point of life, isn't it? anyways, back to 2019 when chiba and i started this masterpiece. we just finished it today. so i hope you enjoy it as much as we do. and remember, petals do blossom. (:

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petals do blossom

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lyrics:
im fallin through the clouds
can't get these crowds out of my head
these voices are kinda getting loud
so i think imma sleep instead
mmm

ooooooooohhhhh
woooooahhhhh
ahhhhhhhhh
ohwoahahowhah
oooooohhhh

the clouds upon my feet
just like pillows
i might be in the sky
but things are getting real low
you're the one who lifts
me off the ground
the atmosphere just shifts
when were in the clouds

woahoohh

ooh ooh
ohh ohoho hoh

na na nan anan ananann
nananan an anan da dadnadan
ndandan daa da danad ana na
nanananananana na
dad adada
*jolly singing blah blah*

falling through the clouds

PRESAVE

a song about my roots and the childhood i lost

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veered into a ditch
theres no coming back from that
hard to find my way
visions in and out of black
is there nothing to look forward to at home?
is there really nothing, nowhere i could go?

im just so imperfect
how was i made from scraps of you?
and my childhoods fading
im just grasping at scraps of youth
i swear im really trying to see the light in this
i wake up not to silence, but to a deafening hiss
the choir is getting louder, they tell me i should quit
they tell me that if im not dead, then im not doing shit
(how was i made)
im just so imperfect
how was i made from scraps of you?
and my childhoods fading
im just grasping at scraps
your words are falling flat, youre fading in the mix
its so hard to forget about this feeling that ive sinned
i think about the time that, he brushed against my skin
and even when he tried to push, the issue didnt fit
(how was i made)

save your breath for another day
save excuses, please
you gave me all that youve got
but now its starting to rot
i cant take it

its not enough, not enough, not enough,
its not enough, not enough, not enough

how was i made from scraps of you?
how was i made from scraps of you?
i didnt get to be,
the girl i wanted to be
how was i made from scraps of you?
how was i made from scraps of you?
its not my fault

scraps of you

but still, through it all, through every broken bone, you got back up, you kept on, you never lost passion. you're much more special than you think

through every broken bone,

poser

51 hours of work over nearly 2 months

https://miraonthewall.bandcamp.com/track/small-world

artwork - koyamori (https://www.deviantart.com/koyamori/art/terrariums-274205066)

--- Lyrics ---

I'm in a small world

My life hangs by a twisted fraying thread
Get betrayed by fate and I might be dead
Too overwhelmed to try the one way out
Yet I cannot wait I can't do without
I can't just run away to fix my life
Problems have no place they stick to my side
Yearning for touch from half the world away
Dreaming in my bed wrapped around my tear stained duvet

I'm in a small world

I'm in a small world
Connections race away from me
And I'm just a small girl
Nothing as far as I can see
My arm is reaching
Out for a hand to hold me tight
But I'm alone here
Lovers are all far out of sight

Far out of sight

I must rely entirely on you
I can't talk like they do
I don't get preference though
You've closer friends in tow
I have this envy overwhelming me
Drowning in jealousy
Yet only joy I see
In my periphery
They said you need to show the creeps your face
To hang around our space
Kicked right back to the curb
Another week of hurt
Dragged myself out of bed and got dressed up
Been waiting for a month
Cancelled cause you were drunk
I guess fuck me for getting my hopes up

I'm in a small world
I'm just a small girl
My arm is reaching
But I'm alone here
Far out of sight

Far out of sight

Far out of sight

Small World

easy villain

nothing

mimetic desire for an empty mind

i wanna be a genius

i think you're getting bored

get me outta here

vai5000 & jish! - cirrostratus

we make mistakes so you don't have to

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Waste another week, kill my throat
I can't even wait 'til you go
And it looks like you've been crying over me
And I've got some friends, depends
If I give them a pen
Will my music still sound the same?
I'm the only one to blame
You'd do anything for fame

Only for now, write while it's still cold out
Can't feel the tip of my fingers or my social circle
Only for now, I've seen you live better days

Take another hit, be my guest
Whatever can put you to rest
And it feels like I've been trying to see you
Whatever you do -
I know you're sad, be glad
You're here with your friends
'Cus your feelings won't go away
'Cus I've done the same
Oh, I know your pain
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huge thanks to https://soundcloud.com/ninkujaplus for some drum samples
huge thanks to @elidrinksgrapemilk for existing

get me outta here

luminism

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