was gonna add synths but i am incapable of revisiting old projects
also thanks to steven solace/shoelace for the unsolicited rei ayanami photo

denial

it will never be enough.

dc snuff film / waste yrself

everything is going to hell

From the album "town" (DWL020)

deaddrunkwithlove.com/dwl020

kitchen - november prayer

how do you tell a girl you really like her eyes?

Spirit Desire (sorry for crying)

baby wants to fight
always wearing black
mommys not alright
never coming back
i like the way you pull your face
it tears in two the metal taste and
i will make you feel completely
ravaged, ruined underneath me
i am burning up
watch the smoke come out
cook until it's tough
open up your mouth
you bite too hard your teeth are crooked
blood and spit misunderstood
ill pull your collar lead you there
it is heaven please just dont be
scared  of his face
hear  what ive seen
stand  in his place
rot  flesh like me

pic by rob
http://oldcondom.tumblr.com/

self

i am just a process
no more man than i
feel too much to process
i feel it in my eye

i believe in something
i believe in no
thing i believe in makes
sense to me any more

they all play the game
i wont play the same

biting at my tongue
i want to understand
why this happens to me
the pain is in my head

i dont know his name
he drowned in the rain
asking if he's sane
ripping off his face

he's upstairs / dissolving

i hate myself v2

smoked so much till i could feel something
the cold resided i'm erupting
cleared the dew as a drip to the ground 

take my heart and twist my tongue
rip my teeth out one by one 
squeeze my arms so i don't feel so numb

did you know i'm not great at communication, i sit alone but my mind's abrasion wears me down

did you know, i'm too scared if scaring you off so i'll just leave

being dead is still better than being me (demo)

support @wishing-music
https://wishing.bandcamp.com/track/emptiness-is-a-closet-full-of-your-old-clothes

when everything feels empty, i rely on empty touch 
to ignore the days that i hate myself and i miss you too much 
and everyone feels cold when they lack something familiar 
there was light trapped where the sun was 
this is harder than i thought 

i will always look for you in the quiet empty nothing 
where you were convinced there was only dark and the sharpest objects 
i saw your coat. i saw it like a martyr sees its body 
i saw your coat like the shadow of a ghost that wouldn't leave here 
i saw your coat hanging in surrender like a white flag 
i saw your coat and i hate this 

this is harder than i thought

i hate myself v2

lots of hands