• Top of My School By Katherine Lynn-Rose •

I Deserve to Bleed

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written and composed by madilyn mei
produced and mixed by scrawny
mastered by joe hutchinson
artwork by madilyn mei

lyrics:

I think I really miss my bed
Oh when, oh when will the nightmare end?
I had it good, I had it good
And yet I left and can't retrace my steps
My steps

You’re gonna be eaten by a coyote
Run little one
Though the pack may follow
Two quite thin, their brother fatter
You can still win, just gotta be faster

Run for the yard
They’ve barred up the gutter
That was our route better find another
Was that a rabbit?
Really not
Like the one I’ve seen on a cereal box

And the birds don’t talk
Like the ones on screen
Have they really domesticated me?
And the birds don’t talk
Like the ones on screen
Have they really domesticated me?

(instrumental)

Cotton tail gonna end up in jail
Wrong place wrong time
Bad tune but it rhymed
And lined up perfectly to blame
The one who is far too tame
And he say:

Out, let me in, let me in, let me out
Stop telling me all about your problems
I been to hell, still in, get me out
Whatever they are I don’t know how to solve 'em

Out, let me in, let me in, let me out
Stop telling me all about your problems
I been to hell, still in, get me out
Whatever they are I don’t know how to solve 'em

Say, is that the kid from the milk carton?
Can I do anything when I’m also missing?
Something tells me kid
Never learned to swim
But can I do anything when I’m also drowning?

(instrumental)

Think I forgot a couple things
My brain is still at home
Home's far away
I really thought that life was one big race
But now I know it's one big chase

You can still win, just gotta be faster
You can, you can, you can, you can win

You can still win, just gotta be

I think I really miss my bed
Oh when, oh when will the nightmare end?
I had it good, I had it good
And yet I left and can't retrace my steps

Think I forgot a couple things
My brain is still at home (stop telling me all about your problems)
Home's far away
I really thought that life was one big race
But now I know it's one big chase (oh)

You’re gonna be eaten by a coyote
Run little one
Though the pack may follow
Two quite thin, their brother fatter
You can still win, just gotta be

You’re gonna be eaten by a coyote
Run little one
Though the pack may follow
Two quite thin, their brother fatter
You can still win, just gotta be

You can still win, just gotta be

Oh, the air is thick
Kinda makes me sick
Can I give CPR when I'm suffocating?

And the birds don't sing
Like the ones on screen
Have they really domesticated me? (I can still win, just gotta be)
Have they really domesticated me? (I can still win, just gotta be)
Have they really domesticated me? (I can still win, just gotta be)

Have they really domesticated me? (faster!)

The Milk Carton

They're Coming to Take Me Away haha!! -Sloppy Jane

A Twink and a Redhead

I Am The One (reprise)

didnt get to finish so heres the rest!


You want this life to be better than it was before getting older. You want to go back to being the silly little kid you were years ago. You want to believe that magic still exists and that school didnt suck. You wish to believe in santa, easter bunny, tooth fairy, even unicorns and mermaids once again but you have grown up to where if you still believed, you would get outcasted. Alone.  The worst feeling when you need someone most. You want to be able to see your friends and act like you have no idea what growing up would be like. You want to go back. Back to a time when your friends actually cared, back to when you had parents who loved you no matter what, back to when you could play around without getting ridiculed or yelled at.

You just want to be that same little kid. Who didnt have to loose anyone to the reaper. You want to be the same kid who wasnt always apologizing just to please everyone. You want to go back to a time when you didnt have to dress up to impress anyone but to be who you wanted to be.

Vent.... :/

On The Moon Above 🌙 (Over the moon)

Thia Kane (clip) - Emerson Woolf

THIA KANE -||- Regular speed

₊✩‧₊(Last updated 10/15/25)₊✩‧₊
                 / 7:32 pm (CT) \
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Before you start reading the rest of my bio, I'm sorry that it's so long so here's some food if you get hungry!! :)
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Well goooood morning/afternoon/evening/night!
I'm so glad that you are actually reading this.

˗ˏˋ𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊ˎˊ˗ 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊ˎˊ˗ 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊ˎˊ˗ 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼ˏˋ𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊ˎˊ˗ 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊ˎˊ˗ 

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Anyways ik that some of y'all just want to get to know me so imma let y'all continue reading!

Also, sorry if you read something that I put twice. Ig I forgot I already put it and didn't realize soooo...... YEAH! :3
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Quick Note:
Your skin ain't paper📜
So don't cut it✂❌
Your face isn't a mask🎭
So don't cover it
Your size isn't a book📘
So don't judge it
Your life isn't a film🎬
So don't end it
You are loved no matter what you think
AND VENT TO ME!! IM HERE EVEN IF IM NOT ONLINE <3

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“𝒮𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒𝓈, 𝐼 𝓌𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒'𝓈 𝒶 𝓅𝓁𝒶𝒸𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓁𝒹 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝐼 𝓉𝓇𝓊𝓁𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔. 𝑀𝒶𝓎𝒷𝑒... 𝓂𝒶𝓎𝒷𝑒 𝐼'𝓂 𝒿𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝓉𝑜𝑜 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒶𝓃𝓎𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉."

— Mitsuri Kanroji

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Currently matching:
pfp: no one
banner: no one 
lines: no one

(ask me if u wanna match!!)
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Last time i cried: 10-15-2025 [Please dont leave yet, Maddie]
Last time i s/h: 10-12-2025
Last time i got yelled at/scolded: 10-12-25
Last time i had a panic attack/Mental Breakdown: 10-10-25
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The names I go by:
Rose
Lucky
(Izu)mi [PREFERRED]
Haru [ALSO PREFERRED]

Assigned Gender: Female (She/Her)
Chosen Gender: Nonbinary? Genderfluid? Transmasc? 
(any pronouns) [prefer they/them tho] (and sometimes he/him)

More about me: 
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Poly (only if my partner wants) 

*STILL SINGLE BTW* ＞﹏＜

BACK TO QUESTIONING EVERYTHING!!😭😭

Age regressor [Coping mechanism]

Not sure about:
Adhd
Autism
Trauma
DEPRESSION! :)   [Most likely]
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Age: ........  why do u wanna know.. WEIRDO!!
Birthday: June 3rd
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I am:
Insecure
Emotionally Unstable
Sometimes chaotic
Caring
Calm
Searching for myself
Epic the musical obsessed
Dandy's world addict
Night owl
Cosplayer [eventually lol]
Music lover
Artist (sculpture, drawing, painting, clay)
Theatre kid 😝
Cookie run kingdom player! 

Random Facts about me:
-I can change my voice to be silly
-My singing voice (at least to me) sounds great
-I find the wind and rain relaxing even tho it seems like i hate them
-I rlly like science
-I hold grudges but eventually get over it
-I love to play with my/ other people's hair
-I LOVE MY ESSAS!!
-I talk to myself...... lalalalala~
-I believe in ghosts <3
-I curse a lot🥲
-I look mean but i promise im rllyyyy nice :D
-I get pissed off but if im around people i love, i cheer up!
-Im rlly sensitive
-I love cuddles (/≧▽≦)/
-I can force myself to cry (idk why but i can)
-IM RLLY SUPPORTIVEE!!!!!!
- i absolutely LOVE dreamcore, kidcore, clowncore and weirdcore
- Im left-handed :3
- I LIKE BOOKS NOW!! :D
-When i say i'm fine, Jus know there is a 90% chance im not, so pls keep me company

I can be:
Closed off (Most of the time)
Rlly happy and joyous
Anxious/Fidgety
A GOOD ACTOR FRFR (trust!)
A rlly good singer
In my imagination a lot.....
SILLY
sometimes freaky ‼️only with certain people‼️

I have: 
Attachment issues
Major anxiety (at times)
Trust issues

I love:
-My dogs
-My friends (who actually care/listen)
-Music
-The darkness [even tho im scared of whats lurking within the shadows]
-The safety of my room
-My mom and dad (only when they arent yelling at me)
-cuddles
-attention (its not attention seeking , its being neglected for years at a time)
-bein silly :3
-talking/making frens


Triggers/things that rlly bother me:
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-Loud constant beeping (it scares me and makes me feel unsafe in a way)
-Scratching noises
-Choking noises
-Gagging noises
-Anything death related
-Weak breathing (sounds like someone dying)
- high pitch ringing 
-PEOPLE BEING TOO FREAKY W/ ME!
(idk what else but there more)
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Favorites: ....... (loading)

Show: Demon Slayer >w< (OML IM IN LOVEE)

Games: Roblox- Dandy's world, any horror game, evade; Minecraft; Coolmath- Tower of colors, Escape games

Food: Anything made by my mom <3

Place: beach, woods, out of country places i havent been

Color: blue, soft gold, baby pink

Number: 14

People: My mom, My two dogs, My children (my friends :3 ), The kids at my church, The caretakers at my church, Most of my friends, MY COMFORT CHARACTERS!!, My non blood related family (more frens basically)

Song: Isabella's lullaby [From Promised Neverland]

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I have major anxiety and trust issues. And if you are just here to hurt me, GET THE F**K OUTTA HERE!


I love to make friends so jus ask :)

Dont get me attached and then suddenly leave like i dont matter/exsist.   pls.........
And please don't toy with my emotions because my mental health isn't good right at this moment
Also if you ever see me crying, its normal for me at this rate.
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I REFUSE TO TALK TO PEOPLE WHO ARE
 18+
Z00
Pedophile
Homophobic
Racist
Sexist
Pr0$shipp3r (minor x adult\animal)
Anti-Furry / Anti-Therian
Or jus a rlly mean person sooo.... Get away from me right now!

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(I check my messages here in SoundCloud daily, so don't be afraid to message me. And I will try to message back as soon as possible!)
Also, if i randomly say 'anyways' its cus idk what else to say sooo.. YEAH! :3

PLS PLS PLSSS MESSAGE ME!! Im lonely and bored :(
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What These Emojis Mean:
😢-Im Actually Crying/panicking
🎒-At School
💤 - SLEEPIN!!
🥲-Bored
🛏-At Home
😶-My Anxiety Kicked In\Im Slightly Shaking
🌈-Imagination/In my head/ON SATURN BISH!
💬-Message If U Want
😪-Tired
🎧-Listening To Music
💫-Busy
🥰-In A Pretty Good Mood
🔋\ 🪫-Social Battery[HIGH I REALLY WANNA TALK :>\low talk if u want ill be less talkative :<]
🫤-No Longer In A Good Mood
😍-In love
❗- blasting music :3
〰️- hanging w/ friends
😟- reminded of ex.......
😚- talking to my lover!! (Once i find one...)
🔪-Thinking Of Doing S\h
🩸-Did S\h
🫨-fidgeting to not have a panic attack or cry/ constant movement
😭- Negative emotions trying to take over
🫂- need huggies
😋- SILLY! :3
🤧- ALLERGIES ✨
📓- school work/major project
🎨- being an artist/doing any form of art
😥- concerned....
😐-feeling numb/emotionless
😖-Lonelyyyyy
😠-feeling betrayed.....
🌲- Not home :/
🍼- Little Space
✖️- Watching Sam and Colby! >u<
📺- Watching anime <3
⏹️- Playin roblox lol
🚫- DNI [Unless you are on the list⬇️]

{thank you @trans_1d10t for the idea of doin this}
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DNI unless you are:
-https://soundcloud.com/trans_1d10t
-https://soundcloud.com/dicehaha
-https://soundcloud.com/shiloh-okunade
-https://soundcloud.com/birdy-90134631
-https://soundcloud.com/pansito12

{still adding other people!!}



GIRLS ARE NOT OBJECTS, BOYS ARE NOT WALLETS, BLACK LIVES MATTER, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, WHOEVER HURT YOU, YOU ARE LOVED BY ME AND PEOPLE WHO CARE. 💜 WE STAND TOGETHER, LET'S FIGHT BACK, NO. MATTER. WHAT. PUT THIS ON YOUR BIO IF YOU ARE WITH ME.🥺

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__❤__❤_____❤__❤__ Put This
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_❤_______❤______❤__ On Your
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_____❤________❤___ You
_______❤____❤_____ lost someone
__________❤ ______ (anyone, even pets)


if your absence doesn’t bother them.. did your presence ever really mean anything?
——all the daydreaming in the world wont make you enjoy living
you day dream all day, so you can escape your reality
you think that you’re coping
but you’re actually making it worse.——-

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Things i will say/do:
-Anyways!✨
-Im a lil slow
-imma 0ff myself (not actually)
-i need help
-*sing random song * :P
-im actually finna start crying
-Imma bite u
-*chomp the air*
-srry if i seem clingy/desperate
-*stare off into the distance*
-*sit down on the ground for no reason*
-what if i went missing
-do you even care
-imma jump off a cliff and im takin u with me
-*cry for no reason*
- PAINNNN✨
- KNIFE?!😋✨🤩
-OMNOMNOMNOM!! >:3
-MURDER!!! AHAHAAHAHAHA
-*maniacal laughter lmao* 
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Put this in your bio if your...
𝙵 - 𝙵𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙰𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝
𝙸 - 𝙸𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚎
𝙽 - 𝙽𝚞𝚖𝚋 𝙵𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐
𝙴 - 𝙴𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚞𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎

"𝙸'𝙼 𝙵𝙸𝙽𝙴"!

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—♥♥♥♥ (𝔹𝕚𝕡𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕣)
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-♥♥—♥♥ 𝕆𝕣 𝔸𝕟𝕪
♥♥──♥♥ 𝕄𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕒l issues

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-Soundcloud: My @ is @lucky2_have_m3t_u

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Things happen and it hurts but if you know someone who can help you through the pain, It will be a whole lot easier sharing the weight.   If you need a helping hand, know that im here to listen and understand what you are going through. Just let me know if you need to vent and im there!

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A poem someone had created so i wanted to quote it here!

“Death”
Some say death is quite. Others say he’s loud. Some people hear a shotgun. While others, not a sound. To some he’s just a whisper. A senseless breath of smoke. To others he’s a family member. Welcoming them home .
 
Creator of this poem:  https://soundcloud.com/isabella-melendrez

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Welp that's it! ~ (if u follow me i'll follow back as soon as possible) 

Again, I'm sorry for the rlly long bio <3

oke now byeeeeeee!!  :3

*casually jumps back into the abyss*

Vent.... :/

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