A compilation of songs by "Luminaria" that relate to anxiety, past pain, and feelings of disconnection.

The Emotional Collection

An Emotional Tribute to the Unbreakable Bond Between Natasha Romanoff and Yelena Belova

Inspired by the complex and powerful relationship between Natasha Romanoff and Yelena Belova, "Sisters in the shadows" is a heartfelt song that explores their deep connection rooted in shared pain, resilience, and sisterhood. Through lyrics that speak of chaos, scars, and the fight to find light in darkness, this song captures the essence of their unbreakable bond—one forged in shadows - but shining brightly as a guiding star.

Sisters In The Shadows

A powerful song about battling severe anxiety in all its forms, using vivid imagery of a dragon and fire to symbolize inner struggles. It captures the fight for hope, strength, and resilience, inspiring those facing their fears to find their inner fire and break free from the turmoil.



I Am A Fire

A heartfelt song that captures the quiet struggles of a kind-hearted person who feels unseen and misunderstood in a world that values masks over authenticity. It highlights themes of loneliness, resilience, and the bittersweet beauty of genuine kindness amidst societal superficiality.

The Nice Guy "Nobody wants"

"Out of Orbit" is my way of sharing what it feels like to be a little lost in the universe — to feel like I’m spinning off track, disconnected, and searching for something or someone who understands the gravity I’m in. It’s about those moments when you feel like an outsider, speaking in codes, glitching out, and wondering if anyone else feels the same fear of drifting away. I wrote this song to express that vulnerability, the awkwardness, the nerdiness, and the quiet hope that maybe, just maybe, someone out there is also floating, looking for their place. It’s a reminder that even when we feel out of orbit, we’re not alone in our space.

Out Of Orbit

A Silent Lighthouse

A Shadow In The Rain

"Yelena’s Shadow" celebrates a young women’s resilience, inspired by Yelena from Thunderbolts. It’s a powerful reminder that even in darkness, inner strength & courage shine through, helping others embrace their true power & overcome their struggles.

Yelena Belova’s story is one of survival, loss, and the quiet resilience that shapes a reluctant hero. As a child, she was torn from innocence and thrust into the brutal training of the Red Room, where affection was replaced by manipulation and trust was a weapon wielded against her. Her childhood was not defined by laughter or safety, but by the constant reminder that she was expendable, molded into something sharp and unyielding. Yet beneath the initial conditioning to eventual mind control a spark of humanity endured—a longing for family, for belonging, for something more than orders and missions.  

That spark grew into defiance. When the illusions of her “family” fractured, Yelena’s pain was raw, but it revealed her deepest truth: she was not just a weapon, she was a person who craved connection. Her humor, often biting and sardonic, became a shield against vulnerability, but also a bridge to others. She learned to carry grief with grace, to turn betrayal into strength, and to transform loneliness into empathy.  

Her journey from assassin to hero is not a straight path—it is jagged, scarred, and uncertain. But it is precisely those scars that make her heroism profound. Yelena fights not for glory, but for the chance to reclaim the humanity stolen from her childhood. She embodies resilience: the ability to laugh in the face of despair, to love despite loss, and to choose compassion over vengeance. In her, we see the truth that heroes are not born—they are forged in pain, tempered by hope, and defined by the courage to keep moving forward.  



Yelena's Shadow

A song of inspiration for those battling anxiety. Inspired by the emotional connection of Yelena & Bob.  From the Marvel movie Thunderbolts*

Breaking the Shadows

Yelena Belova’s story is one of survival, loss, and the quiet resilience that shapes a reluctant hero. As a child, she was torn from innocence and thrust into the brutal training of the Red Room, where affection was replaced by manipulation and trust was a weapon wielded against her. Her childhood was not defined by laughter or safety, but by the constant reminder that she was expendable, molded into something sharp and unyielding. Yet beneath the initial conditioning to eventual mind control a spark of humanity endured—a longing for family, for belonging, for something more than orders and missions.  

That spark grew into defiance. When the illusions of her “family” fractured, Yelena’s pain was raw, but it revealed her deepest truth: she was not just a weapon, she was a person who craved connection. Her humor, often biting and sardonic, became a shield against vulnerability, but also a bridge to others. She learned to carry grief with grace, to turn betrayal into strength, and to transform loneliness into empathy.  

Her journey from assassin to hero is not a straight path—it is jagged, scarred, and uncertain. But it is precisely those scars that make her heroism profound. Yelena fights not for glory, but for the chance to reclaim the humanity stolen from her childhood. She embodies resilience: the ability to laugh in the face of despair, to love despite loss, and to choose compassion over vengeance. In her, we see the truth that heroes are not born—they are forged in pain, tempered by hope, and defined by the courage to keep moving forward.  



The Girl I Was "Yelena's Anthem"

Nebula. in my opinion, the greatest character arc in the MCU. she went from what appeared to be a cold killer in GOTG to a hero in Endgame. This song highlights her inner turmoil, her anger grief, and resentment of the life that was chosen for her, not by her. 

The only way to capture her feelings in a way that suits her character, I believe, is thrash metal. nebula is a character who has been through hell and back she is not a woman who can be encapsuted in a song easy. but I did my best. 

Nebula "in fractured skies"

“I Remain” is a song of resilience and endurance, portraying the struggle against hardship and the refusal to be broken. It embraces scars, storms, and obstacles as proof of strength, declaring that persistence — not perfection — is what defines survival.  

Download from my Google drive

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[Verse]
The wind tore at my coat
But I held it tight
The road cracked underfoot
But I walked all night
The stars hid their faces
The moon played coy
Still I carried my shadow
No time for joy

[Prechorus]
Every thorn
Every stone
I’ve made them my home

[Chorus]
Through the fire
Through the rain
Through the endless weight of pain
I stood
I stand
I’ll stand again
Through the fire
I remain

[Verse 2]
The river tried to steal me
But I swam upstream
The mountain mocked my climb
But I chased the dream
The echoes of failure laughed loud in my ear
I drowned them with silence
Refused to hear

[Bridge]
No hero’s cape
No shining crown
Just grit to rise when falling down
The world may break
But I’m unbowed
I wear my scars like thunderclouds

[Chorus]
Through the fire
Through the rain
Through the endless weight of pain
I stood
I stand
I’ll stand again
Through the fire
I remain

I Remain

“Through It All” is a song of perseverance and inner strength, embracing storms, scars, and setbacks as part of the journey. It portrays resilience as a fire that keeps burning despite rain and shadows, declaring that every stumble is met with resolve. At its heart, the song is about refusing to break — carrying pain as proof of survival and turning struggle into triumph.  

Download from my Google drive below.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nmDWA2t03TPuZ_cU6QlOoRP4NVfSG1Gv/view?usp=drivesdk


[Verse]
Woke up to the sound of rain
Every drop whispers my name
Clouds above but I don’t care
There’s a fire burning somewhere

[Chorus]
Through it all
I’ll stand tall
When I stumble
I won’t fall
The road bends
The night calls
But through it all
I’ll make it through

[Verse 2]
Shadows creeping
They don’t stay
Chasing fears that fade away
Bruised and broken
Yet I grin
Life’s a battle I will win

[Prechorus]
The storm may howl
The waves may rise
But I’ve got steel beneath my skies

[Chorus]
Through it all
I’ll stand tall
When I stumble
I won’t fall
The road bends
The night calls
But through it all
I’ll make it through

[Bridge]
Every scar’s a map
Every tear’s a tune
A melody sung beneath the moon
The weight’s heavy
But I’m not done
This is my fight
I’ve already won

Through It All

“Fearless at Last” is about breaking free from cycles of fear, doubt, and confinement to embrace courage, clarity, and self-liberation. It transforms inner struggle into empowerment, with imagery of shattered barriers and open skies symbolizing resilience and renewal.  


Download from my Google drive below.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1LT4Qv2Wf6P_qJTo9uthC6Yp_oA5wQ_Zj/view?usp=drivesdk


Lyrics

(Verse 1)
The clock ticks loud it’s screaming in my head
Patterns on the wall they want me to tread
Step by step I tiptoe through the maze
The mirror stares back like it knows my ways

(Bridge)
But I won’t let the shadows grow
Won’t let the whispers take control

(Chorus)
I’m fearless at last no chains on my mind
Breaking the glass no rules to rewind
I see the sky it’s calling my name
Fearless at last I’m done with the game

(Verse 2)
Fingers count the lines I’ve drawn in dust
Every breath a battle every thought mistrust
The world’s a song that’s out of tune
But I’m finding my rhythm I’m breaking through

(Bridge)
I won’t let the cycle spin
I’ll fight the storm I’ll let light in

(Chorus)
I’m fearless at last no chains on my mind
Breaking the glass no rules to rewind
I see the sky it’s calling my name
Fearless at last I’m done with the game

Fearless at Last

“Paper Tigers” is a song of defiance and transformation, turning cruelty and ridicule into strength. It portrays the journey from being weighed down by others’ words to rising above them, revealing that their power was only illusion. Through scars, storms, and resilience, the song celebrates reclaiming identity and voice — roaring louder than the whispers, crowned by survival.

Download from my Google drive below.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1i6aQVJo-5CVwDHBmL2rFi9guPUNxAT0u/view?usp=drivesdk



Lyrics
 
(Verse)
They called me names I never chose
A battlefield of sticks and stones
Every laugh was a weight on my spine
But I learned to carry it fine

(Pre Chorus)
I wore my scars like second skin
They didn’t know what grew within

(Chorus)
Paper tigers
They looked so strong
But I stood tall and proved them wrong
Their words were whispers
I turned them down
Now I’m the roar
The sound
The crown

(Verse 2)
Their shadows stretched like endless nights
But stars are born in darkest skies
Each bruise a lesson
Each tear a seed
I grew a garden from their weeds

(Bridge)
I built my armor out of pain
And danced beneath their pouring rain

(Chorus)
Paper tigers
They looked so strong
But I stood tall and proved them wrong
Their words were whispers
I turned them down
Now I’m the roar
The sound
The crown

Paper Tigers

" Shadow of My Youth” is a haunting reflection on childhood fear and isolation, capturing the weight of silence, shadows, and self-doubt. It portrays the struggle of growing up anchored by fear, yet holding onto a fragile spark of resilience that refuses to die. The song balances darkness with the faint but enduring fire of survival, embodying both vulnerability and the quiet strength that emerges from it.  

Download from my Google drive below.

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(Verse)
The nights whispered secrets I couldn’t unhear
Walls closed in tight till they swallowed the year
The floorboards creaked like they knew my name
Every shadow a monster
Every corner the same

(Prechorus)
I called for the moon
But it stayed so far
I reached for the light
But it burned like a scar

(Chorus)
In the shadow of my youth
I stood alone
Fear was my anchor
Silence my home
I was small
I was scared
I was lost in the dark
But the fire in my chest kept a flickering spark

(Verse 2)
The mirrors would crack when I met my own gaze
I’d run from the future
Get lost in the haze
Dreams felt like strangers
Their hands out of reach
And love was an ocean
But I clung to the beach

(Bridge)
Every heartbeat a drum
Every breath a plea
Who was I fighting
Was it them or just me
The clock kept on ticking
The years swept away
But the child in the shadows still begs me to stay

(Chorus)
In the shadow of my youth
I stood alone
Fear was my anchor
Silence my home
I was small
I was scared
I was lost in the dark
But the fire in my chest kept a flickering spark

Shadow of My Youth

Music is often called a universal language because it speaks to the heart in ways words alone can not. It has the power to lift spirits, soothe pain, and awaken memories. A single melody can offer comfort, stir sadness, or spark joy—reminding us that we are never truly alone in our emotions. Through shared songs, we find empathy: we can step into another’s grief, celebrate their joy, or feel the weight of their struggles. In this way, music fosters compassion and understanding across boundaries.  

Yet, like any powerful force, music can be misused—twisted to incite hatred or division. That is why I believe so deeply in harnessing it for good. When used with care and intention, music becomes a tool for healing, resilience, and emotional connection.  

My goal is simple but meaningful: to create songs that carry messages people can relate to, connect with, and perhaps find solace in. I don’t come from fame or recognition—I’m just someone who has always loved music. As a teenager in the 1980s, I spent hours with a double tape deck, making my own mixes and dreaming of composing the kind of songs I longed to hear. Back then, mixtapes were the closest I could get to shaping my own sound.  

Now, thanks to advances in AI technology, that dream has become possible. I can create original music that reflects my personal taste—complete with lyrics and vocals across multiple genres from metal to folk that resonate with me. I take my time with each song, building them carefully so they are not just assembled but crafted with intention, meaning, and emotional weight.  

Best of all, I can share these creations freely. My hope is that someone, somewhere, will hear a lyric or melody and feel comfort, courage, or joy. If my music can reach even one person in that way, then it has fulfilled its purpose.

Again, songs are offered freely—without copyright, without barriers—created for anyone who might need them. Whether you are seeking comfort, strength, or simply a moment of peace, may these lyrics and melodies remind you that you are not alone.  

🌍 Share them widely. Upload them to social media, pass them along to friends, or keep them close for yourself. All of my creations  belong to anyone who finds solace in the words and music.  

Thank you.


The Emotional Collection

LUMINARIA