Prod @Sinxi

LYRICS 

Stop my heart
Dont fear this
Stuck all day
Cant see its
Too unclear
My feelings
Wont fade here
Im breathing
And im sleeping til my eden
Keeping distant
But you stay here
I been waiting
You wont change things
Just to fake things
Just to breath near
When im creeping dont be thinking
That im drinking and Im safe here
Cuz im dreaming about dying all the time
You dont like on what im thinking all the time
All the time you wont ever say
Cold fresh air
Vomit pitch black
Im back
Two seconds
Might just relapse
My last
Im checking all of my thoughts on facts
No guessing
Got me on form like that
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at

So frail
Snap my life in two
I guess im too stale
Pick up all my ounce in my lungs
Keep me in the back til im done
Cuz I been breathing for a long while
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at make a fucking move

Got my fucking signs
I dont wanna lie
Darling girl your fine
But i dont wanna do this again
She wont like the way that i am
Cuz i be sending it to voicemail

So frail
Snap my life in two
I guess im too stale
Pick up all my ounce in my lungs
Keep me in the back til im done
Cuz I been breathing for a long while
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at make a fucking move

Spotify

VOICEMAIL

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

christmas was never this cold (cxrter x tahtx)

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

can we still be us

can we still be us (secre x heyrick)

produced by @nevrfall (i love him <3)
enjoy <3

https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/5oDt4Eo8e3D4LYIKUPTnEq?si=ba7245bd2f584b99

lyrics:
Pretty lies, hoping u don’t lie
Trees begin to bloom and the colors are so bright
Walk beneath the blossoms of a pinkish tree, I‘ll hide 
Ur pretty fine, I like u best when u are mine 
Pretty lies but you don’t seem to lie
Lock u in my arms, u say I’d calm u when I stress
Lay here with me cause’ I really know u need some rest 
Know u need some rest

Say it to my face
As soon as she‘s leaving everything is tinted gray
Far away hear thunder break
This is fuckin’ stupid, baby why you doing this? 
She so cute I‘m fuckin losin‘ it
Call me psycho, yeah I think I‘m psycho
Thinking about you, now I feel my mind go
Thinking about her, now I feel my thoughts flow 
„U calm me when u talking“
Text me u never bothering

(Call me psycho, yeah I think I‘m psycho
Thinking about you, now I feel my mind go
Thinking about her, now I feel my thoughts flow 
„U calm me when u talking“
Text me u never bothering)


Pretty lies, hoping u don’t lie
Trees begin to bloom and the colors are so bright
Walk beneath the blossoms of a pinkish tree, I‘ll hide 
Ur pretty fine, I like u best when u are mine 
Pretty lies but you don’t seem to lie
Lock u in my arms, u say I‘d calm u when I stress
Lay here with me cause‘ I really know u need some rest
Know u need some rest

pretty, please (p. nevrfall)

prod. heyzbee & yunny goldz

take my life i don’t want no one else
i hate myself so you made my heart melt
hatred runs deep i just need your help 
i can’t speak so i just gave myself, up for good

i don’t want to fight back 
cuz i am just worthless
you said i’m the surface 
compared to you, im hurting 
you sang a lullaby 
that said i’m not worth a night
one word turned into fights 
now i sit and harmonize

you really don’t have any friend 
they lied to you they just pretend
just cut them off and let it end 
i’m the one you need and depend
your family sucks they hate you too
you don’t need them just me and you
best friend so what, it doesn’t matter who
i’m the one you want, so only me pursue

i don’t want to fight back 
cuz i am just worthless
you said i’m the surface 
compared to you, im hurting 
you sang a lullaby 
that said i’m not worth a night
one word turned into fights 
now i sit and harmonize

melt

computer screens

lovely track by https://soundcloud.com/kennedysucks
i really enjoyed making this <3

kennedyxoxo -the lights are on but no ones home (silencedgrave flip)

prod. bloodcryY and flesh

lyrics:
guide me back
go and find your path
its a long road ahead
so buckle in 
if it's too fast just let me know
it's slower than it's ever been
it's softer than my skeleton though
i fold in on myself
i still can't tell

it's so much
it was so much
wasn't what i want
a bar
wait till i get sorted down
i can smell the sulfur
i think i control anything
so i'll admit it

i can take a look 
they return, cyclops
pretty sure it's gonna go
turn into a light show
i know it might all
end at any second
disconnected

2fast (bloodcryY x flesh)

lyrics:


I took some pills
I need to feel right
I wish it was real when I see you by my side

I can imagine a new world when I close my eyes

everything is so good
maybe in another life

this could work
and you would treat me right

no one ever did
It always hurts like it's the first time

and I know, and I know, and I know, and I know
It's just a fantasy I have in my mind
but you know, but you know, but you know, but you know
This helps me not to want to die


come on, baby
Do you want me, uh?
tell the truth, even though you do not love me, you still call me "boo"

Are you still goinna kiss me and say you love me like you did at school?

No,I don't think so

So now I'm all alone
and you're the reason why I wrote this song

because I thought I could try
I could try to make you mine

Pills (heydium)

mama i'll be home

Thanks to guccihighwaters & notmorgn!
Jacky B:
https://twitter.com/NotJackyB
https://www.instagram.com/notjackyb

Guccihighwaters:
https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters
https://www.instagram.com/guccihighwaters
https://twitter.com/guccihighwaters

notmorgn:
https://soundcloud.com/notmorgn

Lyrics:

Jacky B:
Bags around my eyes
Gotta close my blinds
Cant stand the sunlight
Sitting in my room
Its time to write
Demons in my sight
X's on my eyes
Cant stay up all night
You really hurt me
Now your gone
You said you loved me
Now i gotta stay strong
Walking down this pathway
Holding a can of jack
Hoping that i'm halfway
You were a mistake
Take drugs in my pastime
Fade into a poltergeist
Cant help me now
Don't need your advice
Leave me in the back
Isolated forever

Guccihighwaters:
I think you loved me the past
Always throwing shade
Isolated in the back
Fucking jaded
Really jaded from the past
Should i get really faded
And forget bout what we had
I think it’s time
For me to go
To run away
And find my home
Look at me
Define alone
Look at me
I fight alone
Young waster
Don’t need a chaser
No mixer
Straight to the face yeah
She would talk a lot of shit
Drink the whole bottle shit
Now she poppin all up my mentions
No kolonopin
Not like that
You used to be so different
Type back but
I’m the one dismissing

Jacky B:
Yea i'm isolated
Leave me alone
I'm heavily sedated
Put my headphones in
Block the world out
Walking down the street
Gotta change the route
All alone at night
Gotta walk to maccas faded
Yea i missed you
Not answering your calls
You traded me in
For a new guy
Now i drink just to get by


Tried to stay with you for ever
You left me like a feather
Smothered in the dirt forever
Now i'm stuck in the past
Back at the start
I don't think i'm gonna last
Don't know what i'm doing
Time to grab the glass
Take it straight to the face
I wanna leave this fucking place

computer screens

luvflorent