@claudesdiary <3

sink ur teeth in my neck run the blade on my skin
i would tell her i dont feel safe but she'd never give a shit
try and sneak behind my back I know everything you did
i dont know why I wake up again dont really wanna live cause
baby youre driving me
so much further away than u could ever see
but i can't bring myself to leave i'd miss the memories
id miss every summer night when you were next to me
and now it seems like you can't respond a text to me

ive been walking round the sidewalk
so tell me where do i start
she said Im a ticking time bomb
then she gets to breaking my heart
like im thrown out with the sidearm
like im looking for the disarm
she said you're never what I want
never let down by the sidewalk

(clod)

i was stuck where you left me i guess thats whats wrong with me
i could say things are indifferent but then thats an iron chain
just fuck off i dont even want your hand
you dont even listen to a word when i talk
how come when she wanna fuck me she gon fuck me with the lights off (boing)
you clean  all the blood off of my arms with a white claw
she devours his lips while i watch (stutters)

(kristin and clod)

ive been walking round the sidewalk (fuck)
so tell me where do i start
she said Im a ticking time bomb
then she gets to breaking my heart
like im thrown out with the sidearm
like im looking for the disarm
she said you're never what I want
never let down by the sidewalk

sidewalk ft claude (stezzyxl)

prod. siem spark <3333
lyrics:

wasting all my time with you
and you don't realize that, that means
i'd die for you

ooo
ooo

like baby i don't wanna know 
if you've been fucking 
with my head
and anytime that you're around
my heart is beating out my chest
we get too high
smoke cigarettes
girl tell me what's next
if it ain't me and you
then baby
lay me to rest
like baby i don't wanna know 
if you've been fucking 
with my head
and anytime that you're around
my heart is beating out my chest
we get too high
smoke cigarettes
girl tell me what's next
if it ain't me and you
then baby
lay me to rest

lay me
next to you
tell me
what you wanna do 
shawty wanna ride with me now
first class baby
lets get out
she give me those eyes
when she's down
she don't wanna talk now
so lets
turn the radio on
find your favorite song
she say im the one
oh

cigarettes

@resolve1k
lyrics:

full throttle on the gas i can't let it go
torched and cauterized my skin by acting ice cold
you would think the way you act is getting old
side piece blowing up your phone acting hella bold 

baby tell me if i'm holding on for no reason
think i'm too late for all the begging and the pleading
flipped like order 66 like it's treason
and i don't think i can defeat it

and i never thought bare minimum was too much
got me thinking did i fuck it up did i rush? 
was your love a figment to my imaginary touch
should've listened to my gut and left you as a crush

and i'm sorry
think my tendencies made you worry
whitney in my cup has my vision blurring 
and i fucked it up once don't wanna see your love flurring

crush (inno)

@55depths
@traxee

track 4 off of:
"si tu veux"
"stay the night" part 2; gang shit.

lyrics:
(traxee)
last night
we were more than just friends
who's by your side
when you're depressed
i am, i am, i am,
i will, i will, i will
(that's me)

aye
put my dreams inside a wishing well
penny for a dream, can i make it
penny for a dream, can i make it
i think i want you to stay the night
i think i love you is that alright
whoa

i know i made you mad
you know i didn't mean it right
i know i make you sad
you know i don't mean it
i used to be a heartbreaker
now i'm a heart taker

i'll stay the night
baby turn off the lights
who's gonna hold you close
who's gonna hold you tight
oh, i think this might be redemption
maybe it was meant to be

(dth)
maybe it's meant to be
the way you look at me
(maybe it was meant)
well at least last night
it seemed
you're running back to me
i hate it when you leave
(when you're leaving)
but it's time we both moved on

last night
you gave your heart to me baby
then i let you down slowly
you've been in the back of my mind
i regret you all the time

you fucked it up
i'm never coming back babe
(you fucked it up again)
last night was just a mistake
you fucked it up
i'm never coming back babe
(you fucked it up again)
you fucked it up
last night was just a mistake

i've let those feelings go
you know
(i regret you all the time)
it's time for me to go
i regret you all the time

last night w/ traxee

imma fuck off to amsterdam
with people who
actually care
im not gonna hold your hand
not just a week
for eternity
i need a break from reality
for a little bit
for a little bit
cuz its getting to crazy

and i admit
that i made a few mistakes 
but it's alright
cuz it's really all i did
and i wont promise that ill find a way to fix it
you're on your own now
so i wont say shit

losing friends hurts a lot

amsterdam

w/ @gagedotwav

lyrics: 
(gage.wav)
and I hate this town
but I love you dearly
running around
losing my mind clearly
hanging around
and my thoughts uncheery 
say what I mean signed me, sincerely 
and I hate this town
but I love you dearly
running around
losing my mind clearly
hanging around
and my thoughts uncheery 
say what I mean signed me, sincerely 

verse: (luvstorm)
running around
baby can you hear me?
when I’m outta town 
know I miss you dearly
we’ve been fucking around,
bae it’s going down
i know 
like bae you’re playing around 
you better not fuck with my heart
baby I’m on the edge
i think you’re pushing me too far 
i don’t wanna think about this anymore
let’s go

and I hate this town
but I love you dearly
running around
losing my mind clearly
hanging around
and my thoughts uncheery 
say what I mean signed me, sincerely 
and I hate this town
but I love you dearly
running around
losing my mind clearly
hanging around
and my thoughts uncheery 
say what I mean signed me, sincerely

sincerely ft. gage.wav

this isnt home

@55depths
@nickp3tro

track 3 off of:
"si tu veux"
a song about how despite changing situations or hard times, the truest of love will always have a hold on you.
thank you p3tro for being you<3

lyrics:

(oh)
there's something in the way
you look at me
there's something i can't bear to see
leave me

and darling
i know things change
(why are they always changing)
but a love like this
it always stays the same
(for you, for you, for you)
and darling
i know things change
(why are they always changing)
but a love like this
it always stays the same
(for you, for you, for you)

and pull your weight
to guide me straight
and pull your weight
to guide me straight
what's there to say about this girl?
she's pulling me out of this dark world
what's there to say about this girl?
she's pulling me out of this dark world

and darling
i know things change
(why are they always changing)
but a love like this
it always stays the same
(for you, for you, for you)
and darling
i know things change
(why are they always changing)
but a love like this
it always stays the same
(for you, for you, for you)

change (deathright + p3tro)

prod: starboyrob
mixing: me, sacreds, 4bsence
master: i don't even wanna talk abt it bro
carried by: sacreds, 4bsence

lyrics:
(aura)
step in the club we drinkin hypnotic
giving me top it's turnin neurotic
gang in this bitch issa riot
bang in this bitch it ain't quiet
he talkin tough i couldn't believe it
aim at your skull and now you ain't breathin
mindin my business but you lurkin and seethin
fuckin your bitch and she drinkin my [redacted] 
get in my bag i flex it i get it i go
surprised a pop boy rappin this flow
your concerts are silent like death row 
whippin the coupe, drift thru the road
tryin your best but can't hit the gold
smokin ur pack strapped on the low
u step up on me i kno you gon fold  

(sacreds)
yeah getting the money so easy to me i just tripled that shit in a week
yeah i took a Percocet 30 it fuck up my body i cant even speak 
walking around with a K on my side and if he wanna test me he gon fucking bleed yeah
that boy gon talk on the net, we already know that he want to be me shh
walking around and my pockets so fat bitch i feel like i’m mf lizzo
he gonna talk all that shit
drac light a boy up like a fucking zippo 
bitch we gon hit at his hit at his head
now he wanna talk that shit so we go for revenge
i mix the act up
i count the racks up
fucking that bitch and i’m fucking her friend yeah 
i hit that boy with an xd 
hit that boy up and he mf dead 
i got a whole lotta mf xp
knock off his top and then fill him with lead yeah
i heard that boy wanna test me
killing that boy and i mf laugh yeah 
i already know they detest me
but i could not care
not bout that

(4bsence)
wait bitch
i got a choppa, a k, bitch
no i do not want to wait, bitch
shootin that boy in his face, bitch
hey bitch
wait bitch
i got a glock on my waist, bitch
you see my chain, you can't take this
i'm finna shoot up his place, bitch
woah, fuck
hold up
i keep a pole, bruh
i got a blade on me
strike like a cobra
i pop that boy like a soda
why he actin like he know us
me and my gang, yeah, we so up
yeah, yeah, yeah

hypnotic +sacreds & 4bsence (starboyrob)

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

JADED

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