You're not answering my texts now
Got me feeling stressed out
Thought that you were different
But you're just like all the rest now
I never said that I was perfect
Yeah I know I got my own shit
Told you that I'm working on it
But you're making me feel worthless
I just needed you to love me
Please don't fucking judge me
Spit right in my face and I still tell you that you're lovely
Let's pour another cup I don't want to give a fuck
All I think about is love and I think I've had enough

How many times can we pick up the pieces
How many lies does it take to believe it
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
That you're leaving
How can I forget how it felt when you loved me
How many shots till I stop feeling empty
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
So when are you leaving

We went on a heart bender
But I know that you'll push it till we break
Cut you off like I'm a bartender
But you're thirsty and I'm easily replaced
I can't be the only one who sees it
Just know I never asked you to believe in me
Your feelings changing with the seasons
So change your colors in October then you're free to leave
And I don't want to fall in love ever again, I'm too afraid
And no I won't put you above none of my friends
So you can stay away

How many times can we pick up the pieces
How many lies does it take to believe it
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
That you're leaving
How can I forget how it felt when you loved me
How many shots till I stop feeling empty
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
So when are you leaving

How Many Times (ft. Day Dreamer)

prod jolst & oscar4400xy

where u goin
where u been
i got juice i got beans
i got polo on my jacket 
it go crazy in the wind 
i go crazy 
i go crazy i go dumb
smoke out all my lungs 
babe i’m goin stupid
can u pls jus show me love 
x2

like baby show me love
4 or 5 percs
tucked right under my tongue 
i don’t wanna steal it 
so just gimme all ur love 
need a bitch with the fishnets 
she gon turn me on 

turn me on turn me off
4 a second 
i feel lost
i been blowin shit up
like im rico from just cause
big back breaker bitch 
NFL i’m really on 
and u ain’t 
lil bitch 
delete ur music n get gone 

turn me red 
turn me red 
for a second i’m so blue
big 44 pussy aim it straight at u 
in a black merc
what u wanna do
need a bitch with an attitude
she leave me bruised

#BRUISED (JOLST X OSCAR4400XY)

i have lost the urge to run
https://soundcloud.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/taurs


i said today was different 
she asked how can you tell 
don’t feel, it don’t feel significant 
drink up white Zinfandel 

yeah the progress can be slow 
enough to make you wanna quit 
there’s feelings i don’t even know 
and that’s not easy to admit 
i cannot cry i’m stuck inside a second world 
i’ve lost the urge to run
said i gotta give it one more try before i say i’m done 
done done done done done 
before i say i’m done 
done done done done done 
before i say i won’t try, try try try 
won’t say i won’t lie not one more try  


my needs and your wants yeah they always collide 
i can’t help it we can’t help it that we always try
takes two weeks to make a bad habit yeah
always knew, yeah i told you this was happenin
take another sip then back to work got shit to do 
i’m in my hut ran outta luck I’m in the slums with u 
who can i trust i’m lookin left you’re always lookin right 
at me with those eyes i might just fall right to my demise 

yeah the progress can be slow 
enough to make you wanna quit 
there’s feelings i don’t even know 
and that’s not easy to admit 
i cannot cry i’m stuck inside a second world 
i’ve lost the urge to run
said i gotta give it one more try before i say i’m done 
done done done done done 
before i say i’m done 
done done done done done 
before i say i won’t try, try try try 
won’t say i won’t lie not one more try

lost the urge to run (jolst x taurs)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

this aint for th soundbites
this for reminscing 
like looking back at those times
like yeah, that kid had summin missing 
but as soon as u dont hear from me im buried im not kidding 
so thres no looking back no fucking point in all this sitting

still got a bone to pick with living 
guess i jus gotta live with it 
muscle memory got me acting like i give a shit
give a mindless nod staring blank, this so limitless
u jus wan attention, its all fake im so sick of this
this place so ridiculous

or better yet absurd
someone get me a one way ticket to anywhere out this world
i been playing words, hoping ill be heard
it cant really remove how likely my death is to occur 

maybe if this car crashes /// things will be better
burning untill freight ashes, ill see u in th life after
maybe if i jus start laughing, ill eventually mean it
i control th wires attatching
bae u best believe it

they think its forced, with what im seeing 
this was my own choice, the will of my own being
staring at a point, and now i can foresee it 
at least that i believe, so who cares if im right
im putting time in to my feelings

or what is left
feel a komodo how they cut my fucking head
coz im still here, im in flesh
its wearing out..my chest 

is dissolving up a whole 
i couldnt tell u if i bled
a story thats been told 
so im no different in the end
we all end up the same dead
so let me take a seat right and get a little rest
lying on a head stone either way its my new bed

u think this a gift its a curse
its a tragedy
slow burn till im dust im imagining
u think th worst thing possible 
the next moment its happening 
these our final hours, theres no point no n even mæsking it

0uR F1n4L H0uR5 (killedmyself)

lost//eyes (ft. woahsxda, swaine)

prod. kill breanna x caves x safeatlast

dont try me
im not me 
i dont eat 
i dont sleep
oh
and im still 
looking at the sky
wondering why
and wasting my time
the ninja dude never hit the lightpoles
i always find out where you go
youre enough, i promise baby
no one else could ever save me
i take every step too, and it fucking pains me
and im focused on you, all the time maybe...
i did it all for you and no i dont regret it
i prance over the flowers and it kills them! . .
im sorry that i dont stand up for me, but,
im really not the same as i ever was,
now ill always say what i (truly) want
who are you, and who am i?
dont try me
im not me 
i dont eat 
i dont sleep
oh
and im still 
looking at the sky
wondering why
and wasting my time
the ninja dude never hit the lightpoles
i always find out where you go
youre enough, i promise baby
no one else could ever save me
i take every step too, and it fucking pains me
and im focused on you, all the time maybe...
i did it all for you and no i dont re.. gret.. it
i prance over the flowers and it kills them..
i prance over the flowers and it kills them.. :')
i wish i wasnt him, and such a victim
(i know im not!!)
(i know im not!!!!)
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i!!!
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i-

every step too

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied

lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home
but in silence
a whisper found its way
a gentle that led her astray
she found solace in his eyes
a beacon in her darkest hours
she saw the beauty in the flowers
he saw the beauty in her eyes
she tried to build a wall between them
the pain she carries inside
with every word he chipped away everyones lies

in his embrace she found her face
no longer silenced by the noise
he held her heart through every storm
no matter what came at them
they would always get through it
and thats the story once told 

(she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied
lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home)

(piano/violin solo)

burden

prod by mackk
Featuring Vails
written by wes & Vails
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[wes]
don't know what to call it 
I call it all over
said it's the last time 
the last time you're over
think I might be broken
i'm broken inside and
you're the one I blame for the feelings I fight

[Vails]
Really hoping that you’d call
Winter is approaching from fall
tried to stand up, stand tall
never saw the other side of the wall
Yeah
Is the grass greener on the other side 
are you laying in the fields, with no worries right?
is everything good with you this time
Tried to call you no less than a thousand times
never picked up
The only thing I got from you was this fake love
And now I’m broken
I need fixing 
Wanna past time
Cause it’s crippling

[wes]
don't know what to call it 
I call it all over
said it's the last time 
the last time you're over
think I might be broken
i'm broken inside and
you're the one I blame for the feelings I fight
x2

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Thank you to Vails for hopping on this and thank you to mackk for creating a masterpiece beat, Check him out.
https://www.youtube.com/@mackk5764

Last Time w/Vails (mackk)

closer to collapse

„Lost in my Thoughts“ ist ein Projekt über Nächte, in denen der Kopf zu laut ist und die Stille weh tut.
Über Erinnerungen, die nicht loslassen, und Gedanken, die sich endlos im Kreis drehen.
Zwischen Cloudrap, Melancholie und emotionalem Trap erzählt das Album die Reise durch Schmerz, Zweifel, Hoffnung und Selbstfindung.

Jeder Track ist ein Kapitel aus Nächten, in denen Schlaf keine Option war —
wenn man alleine mit sich selbst ist und die Wahrheit lauter klingt als alles andere.

Für alle, die nachts wach liegen und fühlen.
Für die, die zu viel denken und zu wenig reden.
Für jede verlorene Seele, die trotzdem weitergeht.

Lost in my Thoughts — danke, dass du ein Teil davon bist. 🖤🌙

— N.D

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