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8/4/22

Vibes IX

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Lyrics
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It's the infection of all you love
Don't let it take you down or else you're giving up
Just feel the tension like it's in your lungs
And let the oxygen be gone again as the water rises up

And I thought maybe I could be better again
Tearing me down while I'm losing my friend
I'm hitting you up while you left me on read
But I don't need your help when I'm dead in the end
Maybe I could be better again
Smoking too much while I'm losing my head
You're kicking me down while I'm still on the fence
Indecision incisions to this very breath

Counting the seconds at night
If I survive, I'd be the greatest alive
Taking my chances like dice
If I don't roll sixes I won't have my chances to try
Screaming confessions of fright
I'm scared of the future why won't you just give me a sign
How can I tell if she lies?
I couldn't lose her but all I'm getting is snake eyes

I fall apart in the moment
I feel the rift and it's growing
Creating the waves
But I don't know where they're flowing
Rocking the boat and I'm hoping
That I don't sink in the ocean
Shout I'm okay
While in the middle of choking

And I brought it all on myself
I'm telling you I don't need help
And why are you listening
I'm the one withering living a shell
What left do I have to tell
I'm acting vampiric
While writing out lyrics
I ain't seen the sun in a week
While you ask if I'm well

And I'm trapped between my head and DMs
Like D&D it's all just pretend
And sure I can swim
But I've just been thrown in in the deep end
I'm not last to feel this feeling again
But all I see is see my own end
I'm not one to live
But I just keep, keep on dreaming

Maybe I could be better again
Tearing me down while I'm losing my friend
I'm hitting you up while you left me on read
But I don't need your help when I'm dead in the end
Maybe I could be better again
Smoking too much while I'm losing my head
You're kicking me down while I'm still on the fence
Indecision incisions to this very breath

Counting the seconds at night
If I survive, I'd be the greatest alive
Taking my chances like dice
If I don't roll sixes I won't have my chances to try
Screaming confessions of fright
I'm scared of the future why won't you just give me a sign
How can I tell if she lies?
I couldn't lose her but all I'm getting is snake eyes

Snake Eyes

Snake Eyes [Prod. Collins]

@evertheghost

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half 

You try to invite him over 
Got 3 screenshots from last October 
Don’t lie to my face 

you know you ain’t right
You know you ain’t right

I exercise my full right 
To keep on dying inside 

Please take your stupid thoughts
And shove them right up your ass 

Your always so full of shit 
I tried my best to make things right 

You fill my head with harmful thoughts 
And act so innocent in the dark 

I’m so tired of falling 
I’m so damn exhausted 

I cry so damn often 
My life keeps on falling 

(Ever The Ghost)
no peace
no remorse
only a flame to devour a forest
no remnants of life
captivate me on a fast decline
opening portals
unlocking powers
restless souls
all figure out after hours
lost and searching for my soul as it roams
got me backed in a corner
I just want to be alone

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half

Captivate [+ sogimura]

I Hate The Internet (prod. Living Puff)

This song is about the world being your canvas, meaning a true artist never limits themselves.

-- lyrics --
Canvas

I sacrificed my life and gave it everything I got…

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

The world is my canvas
Cuz I’m a true artist
The picture I paint it
I go in the hardest 
give a fuck what you say
Imma do me regardless
It‘s more than my ex girl
That’s left me so heartless

And I don’t even fucking want her back
I just wanna keep on making stacks 
I just wanna keep on spitting facts
What’s your problem that’s no way to react

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

I copped a goyard bag 
to put my heart in
I don’t beg for shit
So Fuck your pardon
I earned every lick
Life got me hardened
I don’t ever quit
I hunt like I’m starvin

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

Canvas

Canvas (Prod. STARINTHESKY)

One of many

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat
[Verse 1]
You reminded me that I'm still human
I can't expect everything to always be perfect
We all make mistakes and learn from them
It's the only way to be a better person
I wish someone had told me all this when I was young
I wouldn't have ever considered pulling the plug
Sometimes all we need is just a simple hug
I used to think that opening up wouldn't be enough
[Verse 2]
I used to hate looking at myself
I was insecure if you couldn't tell
You showed me how to have confidence
The cold shoulder was all I ever felt
The only person you can really change is yourself
You can't force your agenda on someone else
Trust me, I had to learn the hard way
If I never reflected I wouldn't be here still
[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat

you made me realize (prod. 2001)

Lyrics:

you cant match my flow if you wanted to
labels hit my phone on the low im not in the booth
sippin on patron all alone while im on the move
gettin to the bag on my own like i oughta do

but yall dont even know so its lonely
do it by myself on my own G
fuck everyone else im a lone G
always try to drown but it wont leave

like fuck it ill just live with this sickness
like fuck it it aint none of your business
i swear that i get pushed to my limit
i hate it but i dont wanna give in

if only sorrow could build a staircase
or tears could show the way (shoutout BMTH)
you know id take it all right back
so we could see some better days
i know its really not worth leaving
they say goodbye anyway
i know that life can get real fucked
but im just hoping that you stay

Sickness

sickness

RAZEGOD X MINIMUM WADE PROJECT OUT JULY

⚬ RAZEGOD ✝︎ ...Secondly... (Prod. Minimum Wade)
prod. @minimumwade
https://www.instagram.com/minimum.wade/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_jcu_DchtP2AOqibs5NAhg

lyrics:

Tryna fuckin’ stay alive
I’m just tryna stay alive…

Bring me back to the past
I can’t fucking relax
I can’t fucking relax
My dreams wake me up
Bring me back to the past
I can’t relax
I can’t find solace in my own heart
Can’t find solace in my own home
Can’t find solace in my own self
I tried to bring your body to the surface
So we could resuscitate
Sadly
The blood had already stopped pumping
Through your heart…

Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside

I don’t know you, no not at all
Thought I knew you, I knew
Nothing at all…
My delusions they came to life
In my head shadows made me fight
I can’t dismiss the damage done
I can’t dismiss the damage done
No you will never let it go
I can’t let it go either…
No you will never let it go
I can’t let it go either!
I can’t let it go…
I can’t let it!-

Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
(of my heart)
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
Of my heart!

xxx

...Secondly... (Prod. Minimum Wade)

lyrics:

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

Cobblestone roads
From the dungeon I reside in
Dirty fox robes
Line my waist while I hide in
Back alley trash im a waste im an animal 
If u bled me at my neck I swear the blood would be cold
She hurts me and loves me
In that order it breaks me
Im burnt out I dont try to hold my head no more
Im limp
If she wanted id be her rag doll yea
I think I
Need a minute
To process
Ur new life
Oh The bug bites
Are insurance
For us camping
On this warm night

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

4 walls around my hell its boring
I purge emotion every time its pouring
3am its spitting I love it
Take me now if I cant see the sunset

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

till the morning (branwen)

lyrics:

On this pull out couch
I am spinning round
This the most fucked up
I had ever been
I know were not on good terms
But Could we try again
Its not me talking baby its the medicine
I won’t take no more of this cheap shots
How would u feel if I was with a grease box
Im out of line baby I need higher dosage
Patio lights hit my face as I blow spliffs

I was once someone I could look up too
U would not like me if u knew just what I go through 
 Sober late nights is what I never do
Two 5ths deep I wake up and I am brand new
Im decaying in health
And still I reject help
I pour liquor in my mouth and say 
Here’s to those who dont make it out

On this pull out couch
I am spinning round
This the most fucked up
I had ever been
I know were not on good terms
But Could we try again
Its not me talking baby its the medicine
I won’t take no more of this cheap shots
How would u feel if I was with a grease box
Im out of line baby I need higher dosage
Patio lights hit my face as I blow spliffs

pull-out couch (xlhc x fantasycamp)

lyrics:

If I told u what was wrong i know it would go left
If I preach to the choir I would be tone deaf
This was not what I desired or what was promised
You’ve been using me to frequently as an object

In these hard times
We can still have a good time
Without sunlight
Still ur face had glown bright
Oh my god
Im in such a love triangle 
In my field of view 
I see doves
Take back the words I spat out when I was mad at you
Id still take u back regardless of the lies u told me too
I guess when im in love I tend to act a fucking fool
If u need a helping hand that badly im ur fucking tool

I just see red
My baby i just see blood
I walked in on you two
Naked body mid fuck
I guess I love you too
Was never something u meant
I pray u keep getting by
On all these lies u attempt on me
Now 
I cant feel at all
Lately
My whole bodys numb
I had just sealed my fate
Rolling off this Molly bump
I guess
I just called some people I should never been called at all
Maybe
I guess people like me dont change after all

In these hard times
We can still have a good time
Without sunlight
Still ur face had glown bright
Oh my god
Im in such a love triangle 
In my field of view 
I see doves
Take back the words I spat out when I was mad at you
Id still take u back regardless of the lies u told me too
I guess when im in love I tend to act a fucking fool
If u need a helping hand that badly im ur fucking tool

goodbye (eric godlow)

(LYRICS)


(Maclov)

I know Its fucked but I did what I did for the truth 
Waking up paralyzed inside my room

Souls been replenished and it’s been consumed
So what?……

I’m always stuck 

Switchblades are made to cut

Blacking out loosing my mental inside me

Thin threads release there touch

stuck in my hell but my life somehow fucking resumed

Now I’m just locked up inside of my room

Writing these songs as insanity blooms

Fuck…..

I need to run, hollows inside the gun 

I have these thoughts and they tear up my psyche (Somehow i find it fun)



(Maesk)

i know what i did but I’m not taking it back

ill move out the city, leave all that i have 

the devil massaging my back

im losing it…

losing my mind, fuckin up beats every night

absorbin these substances, losing my touch while i sit in my room thinkin bout taking my life

dig it up, cradle it 

the bodys dissolved u should savour it

expecting to much, this lines paper thin

and u just keep pushing and pushing, the walls caving in

uh jus take ur time with this 

think i love this sound - i want silence

look baby its me in the dark 

hope u dont see what i become when i take another hit

a quick one before the eternal worm eats conneticuit (feat. Maesk) (prod. guts)

<3

Lyrics:

Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground
Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground

All these fucking lies, I don’t wanna hear it anymore
I just wanna die, I don’t wanna be here anymore 
And I can’t ignore 
Life’s a fucking chore
Wish I wasn’t born 
I don’t wanna 
I don’t wanna feel at all
I just wanna 
I just wanna numb it all
I’ve been trying fucking hard to drink it all away 
All it does is make me more depressed I’m still the same 

Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground
Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground

abyss (sketchmyname)

lyrics:

Its a house party
Im here and I am sloshed
She been way too close right now
I think im in a mosh
Swear im a clit how they been rubbing the wrong way
The amount of smoke I let out after rips its Pompeii
She play games I had to hit her with the soft block
She too- I cant fuck u with a soft cock
Gimme head
Ill bless u back
Ok uh
She told me cum on top her back
And I sprayed uh

Im so Maury how I son these copy pastes
I ash on my vlone while he hang up his old navy
This power up in my cup could kill a baby
Im so deep inside this shit I promise u won’t save me
This some first take shit
On bass that’s earthquake
It feels like rapture how my whole entire room shakes
Got me sweating cause I know im not a pure soul
Still im gifted with this voice that lays ethereal
Her dad must be Phillips how she projecting
And her mom must be fedex how she hold my package
Pull up on my guys and they let that opera sing
Stay around too long I swear they’ll bring u damage

Fuck me and bite me and slap me and maim me and scar me and shape me and teach me the ways of the background U gave me I learned it and suffered the beatings and upsets
I am nothing but an object to you

Its a house party
Im here and I am sloshed
She been way too close right now
I think im in a mosh
Swear im a clit how they been rubbing the wrong way
The amount of smoke I let out after rips its Pompeii
She play games I had to hit her with the soft block
She too-  I cant fuck u with a soft cock
Gimme head
Ill bless u back
Ok uh
She told me cum on top her back
And I sprayed uh

house Party  (eric Godlow)

lyrics:

Burn me to bits and I will cauterize it somehow
It was just a friend until myself had found out
I cant look at you the way I seen you act just now
I swear to god ill blow this bitch apart right now right now right now
I swear id kill u both if I could but I cant
I drop out the knife I held inside my right hand
Im not tryna weep when they bring me on the stand
She Pick apart
The skin on my chest and clutch my beating heart
I was warned
Still I toss aside that rocky start
We had had
When we had met
Now u fucking on anyone else that rap
U just a fan
Oh u break me
I think I Took too much
But I lay down and I sweat it out
Coming clutch
At this function my guy smoked me out
Double dutch
U so crazy how u jump around
Say u hate me then u telling me we’ll work it out
All this did was put me under
6 feet of this dirt im buried breathing
But im tied to her
I tried to break this bond but it didn’t work
but Still I hope u been well
I dont need to hear it go and give em hell
Sometimes these words are hard to keep to myself
Once I sip my drink
Maybe we could talk it out

The Shift (eric Godlow)

I’m sorry that I have to say goodbye to you today 
I truly do love you no matter whatever I say
I really am angry right now cuz I just feel betrayed 
You said we would be together until our last days
Yet right here your sitting and I can tell it’s not the case
We’re barely in high school and I can tell you’re losing faith
I’ve never hurt this much until now so I don’t think it’ll go away
And if it ever does that means you’re standing right next to me

I think I understand why you tried to push me away
I think I understand why I shouldn’t have tried to stay
But when you’re with me I swear all my fears just go away
And if you asked me that question again I guess that I would stay

I do not wanna regret anything when you leave
But when I see you on the bed like that it gets hard to achieve 
I’m crying right now, so baby can you just let me try to breathe
It feels like we’re surrounded by this smoke, and I can barely see
But when I’m with you I see all that light that was shining within 
And now I feel so bad because I never said any of that
Now look at me I’m regretting never saying any of that
Now I’m saying I’m sorry, and I’ll never take that back

I’m sorry that I didn’t give you the love that you need
I’m sorry that I couldn’t give you a little happy family 
I’m sorry that we didn’t make it until we got married 
Now I’m sorry again, I could never take that back like

I’m sorry that I have to say goodbye to you today 
I truly do love you no matter whatever I say
I really am angry right now cuz I just feel betrayed 
You said we would be together until our last days
Yet right here your sitting and I can tell it’s not the case
We’re barely in high school and I can tell you’re losing faith
I’ve never hurt this much until now so I don’t think it’ll go away
And if it ever does that means you’re standing right next to me

i want to eat your pancreas (boyfifty & ayleen valentine)

forget me when the summer ends

my mind is clear
I disappeared
and fell right back to you
my heart’s a mess
lost since you left
I guess it’s for the best
the feeling in my chest
when it’s the place you rest your head
keep your hand tucked in my hand

we’re lost again
there’s nothing left
I walk this empty road
but don’t know where to go
outside your place
it starts to rain
but that’s alright with me
there’s nowhere I’d rather be

so hold me a bit closer again
I ran too far and reached the end
the fog will slowly start to fade
bringing memories back I tucked away

I ran so fast
I thought that I could reach you
and fell right back
convinced I didn’t need you
it hurts so bad
and I’m so fucking sorry
can we go back
to talking in your driveway

I’m paranoid
can’t hear your voice
it wakes me when I sleep
the silence when I dream
I fill the void
with empty noise
the shivers in my sheets
the shaking in your knees

couldn’t hide the way I felt
but I did this to myself
or maybe we were just pretending
and I carried out the ending
left my sweater by your shelf
darling keep it for yourself
I’ll be fine here in the cold
just really hope you’re doing well

I’m standing at the spot we used to meet
your hands around my neck I couldn’t speak
but all this time been on my mind it’s all my fucking fault
and now your eyes eat me alive I’m never waking up
so tell me darling do you think of me?
as I’m falling off the edge
back to the nights I couldn’t sleep
fall asleep with me
I couldn’t reach you
I’ll never reach you

written, produced, mixed, mastered, recorded by Days to Waste

when the summer ends

Belak on all platforms:
https://linktr.ee/heybelak

Stream/Buy this song:
https://share.amuse.io/bCISBik2rzOt

Lyrics:

so if i let you down
dont come crawling back to me
if i silence the sound
then it gets hard to breathe
x2

i already fucked my life up, ready?
45 minutes all it takes till you get it
and then the moments over in like 15 seconds
and all those years later you look back and regret it
and i dont really care
so do whatever you like
you can meet me
whenever we feel the moods right
intoxicating
you got me on a new high
love to hate me
so ill just commit

suicide
baby, you decide
change your fate
run it up
this shit do or die
truth or lies
you cannot hide
from what lies within
side your eyes
i see it all
ultraviolet skies
rose of thorns
bleeding out
theres no dying twice
cyanide
all the demons
they come out at night
out of time
out of luck
bitch im bound to die
this is it
this is it

(belak)

suicide

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Bloodyice

bloodyice

produced by xona

[loss, relationship]

speak lightly
I won’t seem that worried about you and me
down few
many lose lives quick, nothing’s new 
hiding right behind you 
you’ll choose, you’ll choose

from what I wear
to see and stare
I swear I swear
you’ll have my care

fuck,
how are you here with me?
I told you I’m scared of-
graphic and the terror to seize
It’s more than it could seem
It’s more than wear and tear
and I could hardly bear
and I could hardly bear
I could hardly bear
I could hardly-

from what I wear
to see and stare
I swear I swear
you’ll have my care

wear

spotify

rest of the ep soon

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

she told me that i am broken
branches snap, the air is frozen 
the cup is poured and now i’m open
i look around, am i alone?

singgg, won’t u sing for me and pour your heart out on every single track 
u know, instead actually getting back on track
“i know u really try hardest” but like what do u mean by that
put so much time in things but get so little back

ohhhhh where r u goin?
ohhhh where u @?

a collection of broken branches (nevrfall)

leaving:shattered *immortal*

Lyrics:

Forever loving you
My heart attached
Even when you're mad, Even when you're sad
I got your back baby
I remember when we started
We were lonely, broken hearted
Now you fill me up
I can't get enough
~
Climb into bed
take off those panties girl I'll give you head
Then I'll dick you down
turn that ass around
Call my name one time baby
Always on my mind baby
Ever since we met
I knew I would love you
I knew that we'd mesh
no one else above you
I would ask for nothing less
than to hold you inside of my arms
Dark out at night so I'll keep you from harm
Baby you just healed a wound inside my soul
Catch me trippin out when away from home (that's you)
Write a song when on the road (for you)
Hope that you know I am

Forever loving you
My heart attached
Even when you're mad, Even when you're sad
I got your back baby
I remember when we started
We were lonely, broken hearted
Now you fill me up
I can't get enough
~
Climb into ... bed with me  
Swear she cast a spell on me
look her in the eyes every single time we fuck
memories flood in my brain everytime that you leave
Painting a picture cliffside of the beach
and thats when I had asked her If she would be mine
Now one year has passed and our love's still divine
I've been searching and searching so long for this love
God answered my prayers, she was send from above
I am
~
Forever loving you
My heart attached
Even when you're mad, Even when you're sad
I got your back baby
I remember when we started
We were lonely, broken hearted
Now you fill me up
I can't get enough
~
Climb into bed
take off those panties girl I'll give you head
Then I'll dick you down
turn that ass around
Call my name one time baby
Always on my mind baby
Ever since we met
I knew I would love you
I knew that we'd mesh
no one else above you
I would ask for nothing less
than to hold you inside of my arms
Dark out at night so I'll keep you from harm
Baby you just healed a wound inside my soul
Catch me trippin out when away from home (that's you)
Write a song when on the road (for you)
Hope that you know I am
Forever loving you

Forever lovin u [prod. maxrxgh]

Endorphins (Prod. Chef G)

i'll be just fine [prod. noria]

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a collection of broken branches (nevrfall)

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