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@evergardens 

well what do i do? x2
im lost and im out of touch
you pushed me to the edge
and now im in a mess
a mess
a mess

i can just never re mem ber what i said
to myself
time is tic king on and on i know i cant stop it
i know i cant stop it x2
im just act like im not in
i close the curtains and cryyy again

well what do i do? x2
im lost and im out of touch
you pushed me to the edge
and now im in a mess
a mess
a mess

im in a mess
in time it festers
were losing time
and ur still undecided
wont tell u where to find me
go find a silver lining
i choke on all my words
perfect timing
for better or for worse
im trying

i can just, never remember w/ evergarden (nevrfall/branwen)

take my breath, my blood out
run away fast doublej like a scout
bonk on my head cuz of this loud
blow out os, take ws all year around
take my breath, my blood out
run away fast doublej like a scout
bonk on my head cuz of this loud
blow out os, take ws all year around

red dot, scope 
i don't really miss a shot 
bread brings, hope 
and i gotta get my shot 
all day low 
so at night's time to get high
roll the smoke
open fl and feel the vibe 

lil bitch on her knees
my contact 4 her is dentist
the way i whiten all her teeth
a pro not an aprentice

double J im faded 
anotha j im jaded 
dont care bout a thing no more 
and this high i feel amazing

double j go crazy 
im prime u a fugazi 
the way u try to be me
just shows how ur fuckin lazy

doubleJ (branwen)

In 2017 I got addicted to painkillers
In the six weeks before we met
And after that I took them only when I needed
Like the night you called me back
And in the mornings we would walk to class and smoke cheap cigarettes
Because menthols taste healthier, right?
Back then I didn’t sleep and I wrote shitty poetry
About Newark when my grandma died

And i hope you don’t remember at all
You just grab the money and i’ll take the fall
I never moved to New York, but I went there on tour; I’ve got your notes in my drawer
I still remember it all

In 2021 I mixed klonopin and whiskey
In the city where angels go to die
And I made a man a flower crown then passed out on his living room floor
And said “don’t touch me, I’m fine”
See, my ambition was a prison, wanted to carve my name into
The bones of everybody I met
Back then I didn’t see beauty in just about anything
So I guess it turned out just how you said
It would

But I hope you don’t remember at all
Been running away, it’s getting harder to walk
I don’t know what it was for, getting ruined for sport; goddamn victorian whore
I still remember it all

Reading my old journals, double-checking it got better
And my hands still turn purple when it’s cold, so I’ll wait seven years
‘Til there’s nothing left of who i was but melody and fever
I hope next time, when she says she’s too high you’ll stop
And you'll believe her

One day I won’t remember at all
The pictures all faded, now we’re outlines in chalk
I never moved to New York, but I’ll go there on tour; I guess that settles the score
I still remember it all

i still remember it all

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with your broken apologies 

rough times when id go gome and ik that ur not there
dumb crimes got me thinkin that nobody aware
well trust me im aware
trust me im aware

aware of the things that ive done
Nobody can hide under the sun
gimme closure so that i dont wanna run
i need you to say that i wasnt the one

fun times used to lay back 
dumb lies made me back track
cold eyes all that you had
when i
 really fell back

wanted life to feel like an adventure 
come back I apologize for my temper
one job and i really put it in the blender
no wood for the fire in the winter

somehow life goes on
drive home with the windows down
find out what tbeyre talking about
eyes focused on the shapes of the clouds

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with my broken apologies 

no chance
broekn heart in advance
green vans no belt for my pants no glam
they all so judgy nowdays its like a scam
got no drip got no fans got no chance

thats cap
ima run it up and run it back
yea ima get my money up and get some fans
might catch me in a bentley truck in japan

no matter what it takes
if your hearts at the bottom of the lake
dont stay cuz i promise theres a way
dont cave cuz i know you wanna say
what you never thought youd ever get to say
take a run if you been outta shape
Thats love if you push through the pain
no drugs could ever maintain
the love that you couldn’t bring 

enough with all of the things
stuck up inside of my head
time to push them down the drain
and finally get me some rest

when the highway ends i hope that we could somhow be friends
i wonder if ur listening
to everything that’s happening 

but if you are then you know that i been wrong
wrongly torn apart 
so i wrote another song
you said that wed go far
maybe thats just what i want
Life isn’t too hard if you just look up to god

tell me that i could do better tban this
you look at my heart and say better than that
i dont know what the best medicine is

look up and you will find that

heartbreak on the highway (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

tether (ft. greenwood) [triple gemini]

spotify & apple <3

2nd single from dusk dreams 2 <3

Lyrics

All, these words spill out of me
I don't want the world to see 
What I could do 
And who I can be

I been fading like the leaves
I know I say it every week
But Please just listen to me
I don't wanna lose my peace 

I know that this ain't the time and place
But im losing energy in these waves
I can't stay afloat much longer
I kinda enjoy this rip I face

Maybe I need to try alone
It's best If I turn skin and bone
I really dont like that tone
Maybe I should turn to stone

Hold me tight till I hav no motor
One last night in this world I told her
One more day and ur world might crush
Below all of these waves I showed her

I knew I shunt’ve took that chance
The hope I had in a romance
Disrgretion wasnt shown 
Thrown overboard without a cast

Slow down I am going nowhere
So much more time in despair
Old friend I wish u were here
In this life I relinquish my care

The reasons are lost out in sea
They perished along wit the dreams
I dont know what else that could mean 
But I try to stay calm on these creeks

The wind is blowing us east 
I try to hold off a weep but the lack sleep of has left me so weak 
Guess I'll keep it locked until another one of these weeks
I'm hurting myself while I'm letting you bleed

Maybe this world will find out another way
But right now gotta figure out how to live today
I know it's not the topic that would make you wanna stay
But I've thought of this in a lot of ways

I've been a lot of places
I've seen a lot of faces
Still I corrupt the hatred
Enter my world and you'll want to paint
Just make sure to look in the corner and remember the name

thunderbreak

Thunder-break (Sleepy fish)

lyrics 

No more fires it dont go well
But In this silence its so swell
The raindrops fall apart on the surface
And here we are just sighing an oh well

These late afternoons go circles
These light orange tones giving purpose
All these sticks and stones
All our cries and moans 
In hopes of screaming songs for one person

Its written to be 50/50
Its not looking pretty pretty
My eyes starting to close  
But my mouth stay sipping sipping

Losing out on events like really
Our grasps dont feel that dearly
Long way away from home
The air is thin and cold
Don't feel comfortable getting teary

Hold my head till the thing collapse
No remorse in this mud filled land
Wishes and burdens 
Gifted me curses 
I Hope it breaks before the world ends now

Turmoil reached 
I learn not teach
My emotions speak
But expressions sleep

The remains of mind wanders back to you
The sun passes by quickly 
But that one soul is missing
I thought I listened
But my heart just dreams of us 2

Hear me out, I'm different now
I've assembled all this pain
I'll tell you now this evergreen was always going to change

My mind resides by horns and flames
But wait for me to wear the cape
I'll love you in anyway
But I'll wait for you to call my name

Don't start
Baby you live in the dark
I know you tell me you listen but I analyse things very hard
Just tell me who your missing 
And tell me who healed all those scars
I know you tell me that you're living 
But I assume you're just talking about Mars

evergreen

Evergreen (Sleepy fish)

this is probably my favorite song I've ever made, and it means a lot to me.

if you've made it here, please like & repost as it helps other people who might relate to my music find it

ty to all who listen <3
prod. michael harrison

**lyrics**
I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

I dont really wanna die I just want a warm embrace
Looking at ya' from the sky but i cant see your face
Babe It's just another ride, you know Ima be okay
But man i hope they hear my cry when i finally break
(x2)

If I turned around, would you call your friend?
I hate who I was but I'm better again
I cant stand the silence, you're my medicine
It's starting to rain, would you just take my hand
(x2)

I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

limerence (michael harrison)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

lyrics//

iv been talking to god
iv been doing my part like you told me

was it always so hard
i know you think you were always controlling
but it was never thay part
i saw a light and it killed me slowly
and now im packing my car
i made you think
you dont even know me


i was lost in the fallout
you pushed me down as i climbed out
or tried to
ivy league to the dog house
wonder what they would say
if they got to?

now my comforters stained out
took it all to the grave like i told you
was i always a let down?
was i always a person that you once knew?

fallout [idly blare]

lyrics: 

lost all my hope 
lost all my hope 
down the same road 
"fix up" but I cant
look at my bones
look at my bones
sailing on fear
the thin ice is breaking 

hate on my soul 
hate on my soul
wither then perish 
its dark, but I hope
I waste into dust 
powder; my heart 
I longed paradise 
but I tripped from the start 

oh how did I get here? 
how did I get here? 
blood on my palms 
from etching the scars 
my breath is so shallow
I'm falling apart 
I'm falling apart 
let me corrode away 
loosen your grip I'm fine 
loosen your grip

Evergreen (Sleepy fish)

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