produced by killedmyself

completely non profit 

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stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

ur life is over just as its begun
she found the sun inside anothers arms
and to a brother that had sworn no harm
i think ill stay inside long until the weathers calm
she got a humble cause
tearing u in half
tryna mend ur heart
she wanna leave some scars
head
whats going on in ur head babe
eyes are feeling like an xray
honestly i think im too dazed
feeling like its been 2 days
caught up in all of my blue days
that is not worthy of news page
so how r u liking my new face
ripped the skin off of my mainframe
rolled it around in an ashtray
stapled it back onto my veins

its alright
its alright
its alright
its alright

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

poetry from a diary i found buried by my headstone (killedmyself)

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

cedar street w/ evergarden

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said id be good on my own
lately my world has been feeling so empty
trying to see it half full,
the devil been trying to tempt me
but id rather cry in a bently
than worry abt u and ur bestie
cuz it dosent rly effect me 

always too mad at myself
sick of the feeling
im stuck in a hell
not one for asking for help
know that your leaving 
i said id be better oh well
but it hurt when you grow apart
and u dont burn from the same soark
doibled down on the weong cards
g-got scrapped knee and a broke heart
gave u my all im not someone u wanted
and each time u call i hust feel like a puppet
supplying ur needs 
but im bleeding im gutted 
how come we always took the wrong turn
told you im sorry i dont want nobody else
breaking my body
im hoping somebody help
no one will find me
confind where we used to go
lay me to rest
in my room or the studio

thats the worst part
im stuck in my head 
i been stuck in my mental
never did go far
less that i think the more i feel pressure
got in my car and i drove
each mik im furthur frok home
ur helping me see
my music my peace
its holding me down
while ur watching me bleed


i promise i wanted to change
but evrrytime too stuck in my ways
run from my problems i tend to just fade
and now u gone start telling lies to my face
again
we were kids i know,
tryna get by in a world so cold
breaking me down they can pray on my downfall
end of the day this is what i was meant for.

grow apart [boyfifty]

thank u kaydo

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half hour later i’m gone
told u i wouldn’t take long
the shit half y’all do is so wrong
if this was back then girl you would get stoned for that
i’m drunk won’t bite my tongue
blackout been my lung
frostbite had bit my heart and ever since then nothing felt more wrong then that
would it kill u to just talk to me
i know u wanna fight a little more but you should never let pettiness outweigh honesty
if u don’t hear from me for the next ten days don’t send them after me
imma be right here in the same spot
working on the same project
bout a kid who lost all his friends
tryna be the best man so i keep my hands down
cut my head off, end the shambles
put my head down on the mantle
long way down if i fall down now imma crashout like i’m rambo
guns a blazing for u baby u kno that i’m ten fold
if they try u michael myers on them big knife fuck em up

why do i feel so wrong
i don’t wake up feeling terrible
but by night i feel so terrible
i can’t end it now it would be too terrible

i’ve seen millions of faces
but something about urs sticks out
i find your smile contagious
people in and out of my life so fast
it’s like they racing
but all my bros stay solid we locked in like laces
pray they all gon make it
no don’t wait for nothing
pour medicine
cook all night
i know it don’t make u proud but when i drink i feel alright
i know u want me to talk to u but none of this shit you’ll like
i get stressed too often
its exhausting
wish i had an off switch

offswitch (kaydo)

- for mads <3
happy birthday dear :)

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do you think it’d be okay if I could stay for awhile?
you can pick my clothes, 'wanna wear your style
I can smile at your laugh, while you laugh at my smile
'Want you get your rest while I drive a hundred miles

you can pick out shells while we walk on the beach
and if your legs get tired, then just jump on me
I can carry you, cause you carry me
let your love be known, let your heart be free

please don’t worry 'bout the drive, or the time, or the weather
I’ll be there in an hour and I’ll make it better
I think the comfort of my home is me and you together
I know you really like this color, you can have this sweater

and we don’t have use our words, just let’s talk with our eyes
I wanna listen to the birds & see you’re standing where my life is
did you know you’re the only girl I think I see the sunrise in?
but there’s no better morning view than the brink of your iris.

i want nothing more than the love that you give (x2)
i want nothing more than the love that you give
                                   me

I don’t wanna go anywhere stay right here
put your heart in the fold of my hands, have my life dear
they say that time has a way of flying by, well let’s fly then
spread our wings, lift each other to the sky, spending light years (x2)

i want nothing more than the love that you give (x2)
i want nothing more than the love that you give
                                   me

i want nothing more, darling (michael harrison)

the more i bleed
the more i think of you
all it takes
for sense to come into
 
on that walk home theres no one to save me
theres noting left to do
in fall on morrision drive
i saw it look me dead in the eye

*i chose you
i was meant too
decieve you
not fear you
you fear me
and see me
when you sleep

why wont you get away
get me taking meds for my brain
to numb whats left of my senses
intense disaster refacting

it looked me dead in the eye
and yeah it made me cry
it looked me dead in the eye
i lost which way i was going
it looked me dead in the eye
dead by morning

to this day it chills me to the bone
how i never made it home
taken all control

Dead in the eye (prod. recyclebin)

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let me 
lemme hold the everstone
ill never be mainstream 
but that don't mean i'll never grow

the pain leakssssss 
into thru my veins and thru my soul
clueless what the day brings 
but i'm content to never know 

i skipped the spring
went straight to mars
its just falling meteors
and crashing cars

when i sing 
it's from the heart
i hope u find the bliss 
and just skip this part (ugh)

maybe in this moonlight we can catch a glimpse (ugh)
its taken half my life to change how i live (ugh)
if u ride w/ me i promise you we’ll win (ugh)
hold me down to something serious, ill never give (up)

when i see the sunrise im calling u 
i picture the world ending soon uh
and it's just us 2 uh
when i feel the breeze girl im missing u
half way round the world, you’re still
heard soon ill be there for u

care 4 u 
i know what i need to do now
i just needed time to slow down
i needed to heal the holed ground x2

i skipped the spring
went straight to mars
its just falling meteors
and crashing cars

when i sing 
its from the heart
i hope u find the bliss 
and just skip this part (ugh) x2

everstone

everstone (flesh)

Lawn Mower Problems (mackk)

ammends (tuah) #FREEALIBANDZ (prod. kenzee)

produced melon

i'm always so boring
can't keep up, i'm sorry
when i tell her my story
she's not listening
oh she won't give a shit
about it

it should be okay
but i can't seem to cope yet
makes me ache, feeling hopeless
without you it's lonely

oh it goes lower
why am i shaking every hour?
why am i still not fucking over you
lonely
told me to let go you wont
hold me
everything i want is you
dont go
it shouldn't bother me (but it bothers me)
my smile fades rapidly
oh i dont want to end it here

i know about my flaws
i'm far from enough
maybe worse than you thought
but my heart is all yours
you could smash it on the floor
but it would still belong to you
its you who i really adore (who i adore)
now my heart gets cold just like the north (like- like in)
without you it's lonely

oh it goes lower
why am i shaking every hour?
why am i still not fucking over you
lonely
told me to let go you wont
hold me
everything i want is you
dont go
it shouldn't bother me (but it bothers me)
my smile fades rapidly
oh i dont want to end it here

everstone (flesh)

maesk