ophelia xoxo

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

updated mastering by @ztope

my favourite creation thus far, hope u enjoy <3

lyrics

and when our arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

i wanna take off
the world awaits for me no i can’t stay long  
id fucking freeze death here out in all these cold months
move away from under the clouds before rain falls
oh dont u see oh dont u see 
i gotta take off

its not hard when uve been living in the dirt this whole time
“we should talk about this” but you’ll change my mind
u say the sky falls everytime i see u cry
now here we are, i understand if ur not on my side
 
know in ur arms oh ill be safe
but if i stay inside my comfort zone 
my mind will still escpape
so ill be on my way
no i dont expect u to wait
for me but sorry im off

when its blue its so blue wish i could tell u bout it
but when its dark wish i never was around if
u could see what ive become in climbing all these mountains
id be content with laying here so fucking helpless

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

will it be worth it
well i cant say that for sure
but ill be hurting
yeh i can say that and more
oh ill be surfing
the ups and downs down to the shore
its clear on surface 
but the pain it lays deep in the core

u slip u drown 
u won’t be found
out there there’s no help but yours

i tore my face
explored my taste
i change my ways
to get this far

its hard to leave now
tho its cold out
i wanna make my mark

please belive me when i say i still see ur face in the dark

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
what have i lost

s p a c e (nevrfall)

single off my ep 'gust' that ill drop soon. ep prod by @wstdtimez and @secre_swallowtail

lyrics

i dont give a fuck if u talk loud
and i dont give a fuck where u at now
she been walking round like a rat
but im not playing games like its cat mouse

i dont giv fuck bout bout 
no i dont give a fuck bout ya 
i never did
i dont wanna talk to u well no shit
prolly shouldn’t blamed me uh for all of this

lifes hard so she wanna talk now
i got friends they told me that u talked down
on my name
and now she wanna restart
now
but she wanna talk down fuck nah

fuck love 
take drugs

switching up flows more than
u be switching up hoes
im with the same bros
be mindful
dont bring em over here
i only like toes

like i said she wanna talk now
that she low
coz ive been getting to the top 
while she froze
i did it from the start and now shows
u turned on all the lights but nobody’s home

shoutout wstd, coz now im on the floor
i can not take it any fucking more
i take fucking painkiller theyre too strong
she jus wanna take me outta my clothes

i don wanna talk why u tryna make me
my emotions going rampant i just hate it 

poor another cup of the same shit
poor another up coz im a lame bitch
but i dont wanna talk to u no
no fuck i dont wanna see u at all
keep coming with the lame shit
th fuck u wanna say snitch
write another song huh every fucking day bitch

distant (wstd)

i don't wanna go
unfamiliar places make me scared
and i feel safe at home
always on the road
i've been so alone
even when you're right here by my side
it's like i'm on my own

how'd it get so late i lost control of time
all these fleeting moments tryna run my life
i can pay attention if i really try 
but 20 minutes later i'm inside my mind 
i've been anxious talking, typing, sticking to my word
everything i promise getting overheard
i'm aiming for perfection but i'm out of line
i refuse to trace an image and pretend it's mine

slipped, somewhere in my vision there's a dip
i can only see it when i trip
but the ice below my feet give me a lift
used to skate around when i was a kid but now i'm clipped 
all the energy lived
in amphetamine scripts 
and I thought that he'd never listen
don't know whether he did

and a brick don't swim
what i do when the ring's all melted
and the lights go dim
and it feel like no one helping
when really they is 
and it's just another part of me
that won the anti-lottery
I'll take my win

how'd it get so late i lost control of time
all these fleeting moments tryna run my life
i can pay attention if i really try 
but 20 minutes later i'm inside my mind 
i've been anxious talking, typing, sticking to my word
everything i promise getting overheard
i'm aiming for perfection but i'm out of line
i refuse to trace an image and pretend it's mine

i feel like i can see my whole life right in front of me
i try to make it right by bracing for my suffering x2

tracer (prod. illumikaze)

mix and master @ztope

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butterflys in ur heart
and i will take them to my grave
i am doing my part 
but i cant choose to be saved
we can worship the stars
time just stops where we lay
ive been delt all my cards 
and i am well out of my depth 
and deeper when pressing my scars

i can feel the pressure building
fast
push u out the way, theyre on
attack
in jeaporady when getting to
attatched
feeding on my bones until they 
snap

protect th silk casing like my worthless pulse depends on its
ur beaty will project to outside planes changing course of comets
im not what needs to be beside u in the end in fact far from it
i jus hope u can appreciate our final moments

ink is running out 
most likely my last few pages
everything battered and worn
theres not many too more stages
but i am yet to explore 
the deepest part of my core
but  this aint about me anymore
im happy to pass the torch, in this storm
im still warm, coz i can tell that ur changing ur formv

still one arm on this battle ship i steer
there are one too many waiting for us at the pier
it isnt fair
we’ve come so far 
it stops right here
now this ur part
i hope you’ll know that this is what i wanted dear

butterflies in ur heart (killedmyself)

find solace <3

mix & mastr by me 😱

lyrics

wear your heart out on ur sleeve now that ur bleeding out
there’s a lot more u will see now that ur leaving town
pressing screens, live like feins i can’t tell u everything but what u hear u gotta scream it loud

nearly accepted what i preach but do u mean it now
there’s not a lot more i can teach with that defeated frown
i can sense a force that’s tense and did i mention still affection coz the trees that we grew from weren’t from different ground

baby i’m tryna ‘scape reality 
coz maybe this life we live ain’t what it seem
ur point of view is something i’d love to believe
but when you’ve lived inside this hole so long it’d hurt even looking up to see

now
feel the breeze now 
and trees now
hear the voices speak now

i’m sorry for my point of view and i can take it back
and i’ll try help with all the damage that i caused but that
isn’t a promise i’m just not one to hold my word when the futures as uncertain as my mental (verge on the collapse)

and if i’m honest
we’re living in a lodge amidst a fire in th forest
it’s in ur gut so save urself before it’s too late i’m sure ur prolly sick of hearing all this logic
im sick cant stop it
lets change the fucking topic

fire in th_forest (yasuma)

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