produced by tiedforsilver and ryan kelly
mastered by nate2timez
written and mixed by epitomeoffailure
artwork by melmige

lyrics:

looking back at my life, in black and white, all i see is the past
since hindsight’s is perfect and clear i knew i’d never last 
staring in a bathroom mirror, while life just keeps on going by fast 
i bury my face in my hands all night and scream this 
world is trash 

i just lack the confidence to get over myself today
the demon on my shoulder telling me that he gon have to stay
beggin me to fuck up and to give into my selfish ways
but i could never do it even with a mind to mold like clay

terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

pages i cant seem to read because im in the dark
tell me can we shine the light before i fall apart
please patch up these bloody wounds around my blackened heart
as you can see when left to me they start to form up scars

i just need comfort
in this moment
i still suffer 
in the slowest 
ways
i’ve lost the number when counting up my days
now this regret is what i’m smokin to the face 

terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

t-t-t-t-terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
p-p-p-problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

looking back at my life, in black and white, all i see is the past
since hindsight’s is perfect and clear i knew i’d never last 
staring in a bathroom mirror, while life just keeps on going by fast 
i bury my face in my hands all night and scream this 
world is trash

paralyzed (tiedforsilver x ryan kelly)

Lawn Mower Problems (mackk)

produced by cxrter & VITO
mix & master by cxrter & evergarden
📸: Lizzy Chew

lyrics:
(greenwood)
go in circles, somewhere to know you
call it sickness, white lights and cold rooms
say my name, the dark luminates through
only made in states i'm constrained to

tell me what's the cost
something just to have
everybody else gets on easier than that
i could make a call
you could send it back
i could give you everything
just tell me what you want
i could put it all to the side
it's just a noise now
i could make it right in the end
but what's the point now
fuck it up so late the game
who i'm supposed to be
i was me, but it's really not a choice now
voice down, breathe in, breathe out
never one to fall, but i'm in so deep
dream of death when i fall asleep

white lies just complicate it
painted in colors fading
wonder why i've been so pressed
feet on top, my neck have started pressing down again

go in circles, somewhere to know you
call it sickness, white lights and cold rooms
say my name, the dark luminates through
only made in states i'm constrained to

(notcursed)
don't wanna cause a loss of my own life
my own voice don’t feel right
you called it, under the street light
i walked back alone
i’m craving for a feeling
creating my own meaning
heart drops, a fleeting
but you wouldn’t believe it
let it sink in
i can't find a reason for all the commotion
when will i learn all the parts i’m supposed to
don’t understand the new feelings that grow though

(greenwood)
go in circles, somewhere to know you
call it sickness, white lights and cold rooms
say my name, the dark luminates through
only made in states i'm constrained to

cxrter, greenwood, & notcursed - circles (prod. cxrter x vito)

You don’t pull my strings cause I swapped em out for keys 
You might be able to play accordingly 
I think I only did it for the dopamine 
Don’t overthink it don’t be mean 

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence 

I’ll sit back by the stream of flowing where we stacked the stones taller 
Think we even dropped a dollar so it could 
Find its own way like we wanted 
Now I’m only feeling haunted by the river gone solid so we trade 
Everything for ocean fodder 
Hoodies for the buttoned collar 
Made us something that we’re not I dream for better days 
We don’t have to share a word your thoughts is what I’ve always heard 
We’ve always been depraved

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence

play accordingly (michael harrison)

<3

22 coming soon
i swear i’m surrounded by this attitude
i swear it get deeper with this gratitude
swear these pieces i get tattood
open up my skin and let you in ‘coz we gon’ match too

falls together every night
i guess that’s what happens when you’re acting nice
i set goals, i’m right at home
i don’t know
im on the right road
took a drive, long

hit me up to party but i’m cooked
don’t love me outta no god damn book
where’d you wanna go 
i’ll get that booked
running through the store
guess it’s more like storage

she wanna hit the porch
covered thing in gold and black
baby of course
this is not a typo
this just facts in voice
‘coz i don’t wanna right
you don’t think i’m right
i might just have to smoke another to open up this chorus

baby it’s just me inside this wraith yeah i’m ok 
i use herbs & spices to neutralise this pain
high tone, high tone ‘coz i don’t wanna lie
i been touch and go for 7 years
now i’m 21 with tight chrome

in the night, full of flames in the night
i wanna enrapture you, can i do something right?
move, sike
girl i know
you just pull my body out, right through

you just haven’t seen it when i’m coming out to bite
you just wanna hear the story when they’re coming after me at night
canceling my flight, mr. international
got no brakes, thats just how i roll

trust me i will roll up to the drank 
it gets messy in the paint
i chop it in, i chop it up, can’t tell you what’s at stake
money on my mind i put that money on my grave
money turn the minds at peace to saints with red paint

change, been through this before with this theres not much more to say
i just got the wire tapped, you should be praying that you prayed
my body needs to lay
but you just brought it up
i hit that 360 then i lay up

play up, you don’t wanna stay up
i’m doing my thing
i’m the real deal, you like mayo
table turning green, you’d think i paid somebody bale
this shifting view is not for sale

herbs & spices

herbs_& spices (ivn)

lyrics⬇️

you dont mean that 
you dont mean that

if you do then ill be be over in a minute now
you dont mean that
you dont mean that
Guess you left me with no option now i gotta shout
get out i dont wanna see you in my house
youre always under my skin make me go underground 
move south but thats aready where we said our vows

yea and then u broke em
ever since then i have been a grouch
i live in garbage every day so i dont make nobody proud
i promised that id make it but i never got up off the couch
im chillin where i lay because cuz i make the money speakin out my mouth
and u don’t understand how im only here cuz they allow

you dont mean that

i dont mean to make you think im really really bad
i had a couple awful issues but theyre in the past
i only said that part to link but i hope that we last
the last one was a robbery put my heart in a cast

i never ever thought that id get medals or a badge
while she pickin the pedals off the flower ima dash
if you dont wanna go there i wont ever come back
i been feeling like a mower i cant start without the gas

and i dont wanna be the owner of someone who only slacks
i could take you to my home or i could take you to the dance
but i dont wanna give more than that i just cant in advance 
you want my money in ur pockets oh im sorry theres no chance

out in downtown i be walkin i be stuntin wit these vans
u thought no prada on me but look at whats holdin up my pants
i got some bots around me around always steady following programs
if you dont look a lil harder u gon get lost in the sand
parents hate that im always sippin something out of the can
but they dont ever stop to think thats just the way that i am
and i dont go to parties get stressed out i dont know where to stand
and thats a part of me im always gonna need sum to relax

its an act
its an act but i dont wanna lie cant u understand that
Ima disconnect
ima log up off the net
too much problems in my chest
never ever get rest
but I need it so bad
if I wake up then I crash
yea everybody laugh
wait until like 2 or 3pm to get out bed
but I don’t feel no better 
always under weather
I don’t think a single thing will make me feel alright.

grouch (love matt x blocktane)

prod wisssery feat sendflowrs mastered by jolst <3

Intro:
First time
Alone in my mind
I was quite happy
But I knew you weren’t right

Hex on me baby
Hex on me
Hex on me
Baby put it on me

You were stood there
You were fuming
You were pissed off
You're accusing

That my mind didn’t have you inside
Baby so greedy that she put at hex on me

Hook:

Yuh
This is your downfall
Greed is your downfall
Ill burn in flames
Just to feel something
Your witchcraft is powerful
Put a hex on me x2

sendflowrs verse:

hex on me
“rest on me :)”
when you talk like that you put the stress on me
you protect your peace
so selfishly
and when you talk like that you crash my self esteem

like omg !!!
shut the fuck up are you serious
what makes you even think that i care
i mean i know i was crying
and halfway delirious
high at the top of the stairs
and yeah you’re right i was kicking
and screaming and begging you please let me play with your hair
and now guess what yea i’m drunk and i’m steaming i got a few issues i need to repair, i know

Hook:

Yuh
This is your downfall
Greed is your downfall
Ill burn in flames
Just to feel something
Your witchcraft is powerful
Put a hex on me x2

Outro:

You were stood there
You were fuming
You were pissed off
You're accusing

That my mind didn’t have you inside
Baby so greedy that she put at hex on me

hex on me w/ sendflowrs [wisssery]

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

and i'm trynna get my money up
travel where the dreams come true 
when people make it it's never luck
except when it comes to you 

lately i been asking for help
sadly with no1 to come thru 
they say i just think bout myself
i'm trynna keep myself away from the box made out of wood

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how 

drugs keep me afloat
wavs keep me from ending it all
sometimes i wish u crushed my throat
so i woulnd't have to feel at all
so i wouldn't've to deal with all
the bullshit i get involved 
with everysingle day 
cause it just means a new headache 

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

Waiting 2 Wait Again

visualizer:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3xON_TVKGI

a year and some change;
it's difficult recalling myself prior to then.
the thought of such times tread across this constantly perplexed and dread-riddled frame, thinking about the kid; 
those moments of organized dissonance, 
nothing more than the faintest of cobwebs, blurred out by a new dawn.
but, more often than not, despite the continual disdain 
injected within this mental frame, now is as me as i'll ever get.
so in an attempt to see through another year,
here we are.

voice is still recovering,
but may you do, enjoy.
everything by me

thank you for being here.
take infinite care

‎ 
distortion has it's way with who i'm not
okay
fault reminiscence on mixing the uglier thoughts of things

whatever's happening
just isn't enough

bliss in dissonance,
keeping it distant
'cause i'm going missing the moment that i'm lifted up
and away,
rendered torn, from embrace

it's just been this way 'cause i've been used
tethered in place, this just can't do
i'd levitate, but the land's glued
perpetually shake 'till this fate's loose

they're using their strength just to hate
i'll die in time once i quit this refrain
scaring off crows with a chest full of hay
in respite of the crops that i lie being maimed
(may i do the same?)

severed regulatory;
hurt the boy and all his stories
now they hardly ever talk to him
induratized and caving in
answer to his wishes:
good as new and fully stitched
twenty floors, i still persist
the sink is dry
beneath i sit
rust and grime upon my lips

isolated sick
run me out the river,
where the current don't exist
this is all that i can give.
agony relived
the sun is but a catalyst
for harm to fill me in

you don't gotta think about the weight of i
disconnect is temporary
rough return,
the fangs were baring

i lay tied
fantasize:
wonder what'll happen
when the weather patterns swallow my eyes

𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘵 𝘢 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦,
𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘺𝘤𝘭𝘦.
𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘯𝘢𝘪𝘷𝘦,
𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸
𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸?

𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘺𝘤𝘭𝘦.
𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵,
𝘪'𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘭𝘵.

𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘮𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵,
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘪 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸,
𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴
𝘪𝘴
𝘮𝘺
𝘦𝘯𝘥.

nothing more than twenty floors

lyrics

just to let you know imma fuck this up again
i hope you dont change your mind
and all those times i ignored you, my love
its just cuz i was high
and as september comes to an end
im thankful now, more than ever
i look at this beautiful life that we have made with each other
i hope this never ends

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

build it up
break it down
its the end of the world in a few days
is this something we can fix in a few days
i had a little bit to drink and now i feel great
i had something on my mind but i think i forgot it
i hit up the plug and then i go and make a deposit
cuz lately i been fucked up everytime im writing these sonnets
i get high then i get drunk then i go and run it like sonic
the distrokid check came in im getting coins like im sonic
she love me more than i love myself think its kind of ironic
ive been burning bridges from the fires you started
and ive been making wishes everytime night is star-lit
theres secrets being shared between me and the  scarlett
its making money on the web kind of like charlotte
a white pill in the morning before its even started
but baby everything i do is for you-

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

herbs_& spices (ivn)

maesk