(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

(gloomybaby)
i’m drowning in tears
i’m scared of what i fear 
this isn’t even 
real just past me another drink so i don’t feel 
this is not what i planned 
i don’t wanna hurt so bad this not what
i planned 
i dont wanna hurt so bad 
nothing you ever said 
could be as bad 
as what i call my self 
maybe i should get some help but i just don’t think that would help

(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

drowning w/gloomybaby (dead spyro)

burning like a star, doomed to die alone

lyrics: 

dont know how to make this right
always feelin' so dead inside
its all i can do not to end this life
yall just fuck me up and leave me here to die
god knows im so sick of cryin
fuck this shit i feel like dyin
dont believe anything they say now
ima light up to relieve this pain now...

dont know why 
i cant face this world
im always starin thru the blinds 
dont hmu im just a waste of time 

dont hmu im just setback
id rather be alone and hit this gas pac
pls dont get to close to me
everyone who does becomes the enemy...

dont talk to me...
if you do youll just want to leave
im backin down i dont want this 
nothing that i do could ever, ever stop this
burning like a star, im doomed to die alone
everybody leaves ive never had a home
just go away, i dont wanna talk now
im perfectly fine being a shadow in the background

oooo a shadow in the background
oooo the sun comes out
i dont make a sound...
i dont make a sound....

shadow in the background [+taurs & jolst]

updated mastering by @ztope

my favourite creation thus far, hope u enjoy <3

lyrics

and when our arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

i wanna take off
the world awaits for me no i can’t stay long  
id fucking freeze death here out in all these cold months
move away from under the clouds before rain falls
oh dont u see oh dont u see 
i gotta take off

its not hard when uve been living in the dirt this whole time
“we should talk about this” but you’ll change my mind
u say the sky falls everytime i see u cry
now here we are, i understand if ur not on my side
 
know in ur arms oh ill be safe
but if i stay inside my comfort zone 
my mind will still escpape
so ill be on my way
no i dont expect u to wait
for me but sorry im off

when its blue its so blue wish i could tell u bout it
but when its dark wish i never was around if
u could see what ive become in climbing all these mountains
id be content with laying here so fucking helpless

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

will it be worth it
well i cant say that for sure
but ill be hurting
yeh i can say that and more
oh ill be surfing
the ups and downs down to the shore
its clear on surface 
but the pain it lays deep in the core

u slip u drown 
u won’t be found
out there there’s no help but yours

i tore my face
explored my taste
i change my ways
to get this far

its hard to leave now
tho its cold out
i wanna make my mark

please belive me when i say i still see ur face in the dark

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
what have i lost

s p a c e (nevrfall)

hey, check it out

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

who, are you, to question the things that i do
im sorry i look like a fool
im outta my mind, what'd i do?
im falling apart, from the

Pain in my heart its mess, im
tryna realize all the things that i said
i been callin on you, to come and catch me off my head
is it harder than i ever really guessed, am i a piece of shit, i

Didnt wanna mess with you
im sorry if i seemed like a fool
I didnt wanna treat you like a tool
so i been questioning myself like a 

Million
wonderful people, im missing
Toronto, the city i live in
most of these peoples, aggression, im pressing

Who are you to question, the things that i do?
I been cross the city, im in pain so what i do?
Hates my only friend, so i keep calling out his name
The mirorr in my bathroom, is often out of frame

I dont really think there is a thing that i can do
To help my mental state, i got my music, i consume
Too much on my mind, that i need to get through
So who are you to question all the things that i would do.

*patience
im waiting
for a better day
i need to get away!* 

Fallin right apart in my head
So i lay in bed
I know im not depressed.
Often i might seem to have just failed myself
Loosing all my confidence, cant take care of myself

I might just loose it
Why you actin clueless, just prove it, ah!
*wasting away, i cant get another day*

Who are you to question, the things that i do?
I been cross the city, im in pain so what i do?
Hates my only friend, so i keep calling out his name
The mirror in my bathroom, is often out of frame

I dont really think there is a thing that i can do
To help my mental state, i got my music, i consume
Too much on my mind, that i need to get through
So who are you to question all the things that i would do.

who are you to question the things that i do (prod THERSX)

I should've died earlier knowing you'd leave me empty
At least id die knowing i was loved
At least i tried my best, to accept this
And i finally, moved on

An, yeah i suffocate
And then i ruin ur day
Im trying so hard to make it where i might stay
Worried bout money, is all i can say
I miss my friends, im ashamed, im ashamed.

You dont wanna talk, anymore!
What did i do to ur friend last night?
She cut her hair, said I made her cry!

I should've died earlier knowing you'd leave me empty
At least id die knowing i was loved
At least i tried my best, to accept this
And i finally, moved on


yet nothing in my head ever made it out
stone cold, let it go, mother fucker you been!
trespassing my mind, instead, of leaving
why do you care, if i stay for the season?

for your selfish mother fuckin needs
cutting, myself till i bleed
maybe thats all it takes to make you run away, please be afraid

I should've died earlier knowing you'd leave me empty
At least id die knowing i was loved
At least i tried my best, to accept this
And i finally, moved on

I cant, I cant, I cant
Watch that, watch that, watch that
Breaking my heart on the daily, i dont think you understand

Whys it so hard to talk to me
I thought we were meant till the end
The buildings im watching keep fading
Existence is hard understand

patchwork (prod hero)

v v v 

tell me how life changed and u dk why
smoking every night to get the words out of ur head
woah
please talk 2 me 
woah
but if u got like nothing to say then say nothing
ill know what u mean, ive been frontin too
woah
dont say a word
woah
ill sit in ur garage as the light just hums 
steadily more steady than my beating heart could
but please be proud of me because ive gained a few pounds since i got here
and i think i learned everything i felt was irrational 
i had a case of a thick ass skull
and everything i learned in school was useless
got alot of shit to say so hold my drink rq
stacking building blocks like a god damn child
does a come first or b come last
i still stay up but idk why
gtf to bed u gotta be alive tomorrow
swear to god ill be alright just have a good day at work <3
ill find some shit to smoke
maybe roll the rest
even tho it makes me feel hella god damn depressed
im really sorry i think i made another mess
im tired as fuck i wanna go to sleep right now 
jst give me some space or i will shut the fuck right down
(im tired as fuck i wanna go to sleep right now 
jst give me some space or i will shut the fuck right down)
swear to god ill be alright just have a good day at work <3
ill find some shit to smoke
maybe roll the rest
even tho it makes me feel hella god damn depressed
im really sorry i think i made another mess

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s p a c e (nevrfall)

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