(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

(gloomybaby)
i’m drowning in tears
i’m scared of what i fear 
this isn’t even 
real just past me another drink so i don’t feel 
this is not what i planned 
i don’t wanna hurt so bad this not what
i planned 
i dont wanna hurt so bad 
nothing you ever said 
could be as bad 
as what i call my self 
maybe i should get some help but i just don’t think that would help

(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

drowning w/gloomybaby (dead spyro)

burning like a star, doomed to die alone

lyrics: 

dont know how to make this right
always feelin' so dead inside
its all i can do not to end this life
yall just fuck me up and leave me here to die
god knows im so sick of cryin
fuck this shit i feel like dyin
dont believe anything they say now
ima light up to relieve this pain now...

dont know why 
i cant face this world
im always starin thru the blinds 
dont hmu im just a waste of time 

dont hmu im just setback
id rather be alone and hit this gas pac
pls dont get to close to me
everyone who does becomes the enemy...

dont talk to me...
if you do youll just want to leave
im backin down i dont want this 
nothing that i do could ever, ever stop this
burning like a star, im doomed to die alone
everybody leaves ive never had a home
just go away, i dont wanna talk now
im perfectly fine being a shadow in the background

oooo a shadow in the background
oooo the sun comes out
i dont make a sound...
i dont make a sound....

shadow in the background [+taurs & jolst]

produced by soloft and lavendertxwn
mixed and mastered by mvø

I try my best to let go of the things I can’t control
This constant state of finding things to hold to when I fall has gotten worse 
I wasn’t perfect, maybe I deserve it 

The sun coming up is not the same since you left
Yeah, it’s hard to accept that everything I’ve come to love now hurts me
Should’ve never said I was you one and only
And still I try my best to breathe slow
Say you love, I was nervous, so I stared out your window
Never knew someone could make me feel this low
No need to talk, I’ll just go

Tried to make you happy I won’t leave unless you say so
Never wanted me but I was there when you got low
Switch up on the scene I see you act like you don’t know
Don’t care if you’re fake don’t hit me up when you’re solo

And I don’t really have the words to say
The ones to make you stay with me all day
Never thought you’d ever make me feel this way
Just let me go cuz now I can’t stay

no need to talk, i'll just go w/ flowers for you (prod. soloft x lavendertxwn)

updated mastering by @ztope

my favourite creation thus far, hope u enjoy <3

lyrics

and when our arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

i wanna take off
the world awaits for me no i can’t stay long  
id fucking freeze death here out in all these cold months
move away from under the clouds before rain falls
oh dont u see oh dont u see 
i gotta take off

its not hard when uve been living in the dirt this whole time
“we should talk about this” but you’ll change my mind
u say the sky falls everytime i see u cry
now here we are, i understand if ur not on my side
 
know in ur arms oh ill be safe
but if i stay inside my comfort zone 
my mind will still escpape
so ill be on my way
no i dont expect u to wait
for me but sorry im off

when its blue its so blue wish i could tell u bout it
but when its dark wish i never was around if
u could see what ive become in climbing all these mountains
id be content with laying here so fucking helpless

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

will it be worth it
well i cant say that for sure
but ill be hurting
yeh i can say that and more
oh ill be surfing
the ups and downs down to the shore
its clear on surface 
but the pain it lays deep in the core

u slip u drown 
u won’t be found
out there there’s no help but yours

i tore my face
explored my taste
i change my ways
to get this far

its hard to leave now
tho its cold out
i wanna make my mark

please belive me when i say i still see ur face in the dark

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
what have i lost

s p a c e (nevrfall)

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

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gerrrrr on ma level geerrrrrrr on my wav.file

lyrics

feeling like dirk
fading up all of my third
pulling up, not wasting a light night 
got sewer all over my shirt 😈

this aint ur call to make 
like who th fuck u comin wit
take me back to last time out 
coz im so ceebz wit all this shit 😒

its coming back
didnt come back jus to c u, no
i can feel alive, and i can feel it grow🐸

wait, line on th phone
u still wanna play 
no coming back
no coming back, no 😱

i see light and they see gold
i dont give my name, i know my worth and i cant take u home
uh uh
weird taste i know
uh uh
but i aint digging holes😵‍💫

cant tell em that i love em back
i c th score on ur snap
still wanna com for a ride 
how desperate u rlly for that😶‍🌫️

not spending time without th mains
fuck my life up 
and this th worst thing i could do 
coz id jus see u when im in pain😓

mumboest of jumbos

im so stuck, and its pouring uh
gotta wake at 7
but i can take it jus say no to all that flaunting 
they say use yo phone like wait where th fuck we going 
minding our own business, mr big man had me stalling uh🤬

wait uh 
i could stay unti th morning uh
c now what u got nd put those bottles on the floor uh
i cant help u out if u make me show u what im storin up
walking off like clowns but i can tell u we still talk it up🤡

no no no no 😵
 
those 2 right there got me fucked up
ppl watching from th gasstation 
i gave em plenty
cuh ion even need a chorus to make sum gas🥵

bish bish 
gerrrr outta th way
i put my tent down, i put a tarp im here to stay
u wanna move me
not gonna happen not today 
i barely know u, get on my level, get on my wave
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊

wave 🌊🌊🌊(level)

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

I should've died earlier knowing you'd leave me empty
At least id die knowing i was loved
At least i tried my best, to accept this
And i finally, moved on

An, yeah i suffocate
And then i ruin ur day
Im trying so hard to make it where i might stay
Worried bout money, is all i can say
I miss my friends, im ashamed, im ashamed.

You dont wanna talk, anymore!
What did i do to ur friend last night?
She cut her hair, said I made her cry!

I should've died earlier knowing you'd leave me empty
At least id die knowing i was loved
At least i tried my best, to accept this
And i finally, moved on


yet nothing in my head ever made it out
stone cold, let it go, mother fucker you been!
trespassing my mind, instead, of leaving
why do you care, if i stay for the season?

for your selfish mother fuckin needs
cutting, myself till i bleed
maybe thats all it takes to make you run away, please be afraid

I should've died earlier knowing you'd leave me empty
At least id die knowing i was loved
At least i tried my best, to accept this
And i finally, moved on

I cant, I cant, I cant
Watch that, watch that, watch that
Breaking my heart on the daily, i dont think you understand

Whys it so hard to talk to me
I thought we were meant till the end
The buildings im watching keep fading
Existence is hard understand

patchwork (prod hero)

Kirko Bangz

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