paperboy ft. swiiif (uglybeats)

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

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evergarden - https://soundcloud.com/evergardens

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lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

lyrics 

scars come forth
the sacrifice to hide what’s more
it’ll heal in time 
but what’s behind is all stored

everything kept in tact but when i bleed it’s a worry
people pretend but to those distressed i’m so sorry
but change is good, just don’t change the story
the gates will flood 
u need the hurry

i saw the gates 
i turned away
i saw the light
or guess i was led astray

i saw my fate
i cant be saved
peace during night
and pressured days

sometimes u jus gotta face it
and stop drifting by so complacent
the world can’t hurt u if there’s nothing satisfactory, so fake it

the worst you’ll do is hate it
so play it the safest 
care bout’ what people think of u so much 
till u can’t take it
any moreeee
take it any moreeee

scars come forth
the sacrifice to hide what’s more
it’ll heal in time 
but what’s behind is all stored

everything kept in tact but when i bleed it’s a worry
people pretend but to those distressed i’m so sorry
but change is good, just don’t change the story
the gates will flood 
u need the hurry

i saw my fate
cant be saved
peace during night
and pressured days

flooded gates

flooded gates (flesh)

baby i been chilling inside the cave on the east
from here i see the future so they treat me like a beast
they say i swear i never knew it or the place that its lost in
seld esteem within the walls ive been giving up on my concious

tryna find a reason it hurts every time i breathe
different battle with the seasons, fuck the cold and the heat
they say nothing i connect with but surprised i wanna leave
everything resentful an enigmas what ill be 

im just there
im a statue crumbling im not here
im all intrinsic so i guess i dont care 
they all ignore, or mayb im too aware
i do this 4 me, and everyone i love will get the share

hiding in the shadows 
ashamed of my name
ashamed where i come from and 
and im sorry that i came

i hate that i feel these things
when i know what ive achieved
my bloodline watching over like i wish that kid would see
(jus find peace)

put so much effort in to breaking down these walls
all odds against me and im still standing tall
i carry weight that u could never imagine 
so why would i relate when u speak to me at all

its hard to know my worth when i cant picture where i stand
guess im on my own, no suppression when i land
2 decades ive been destined for a confusing life
but im still here ive had no option but to fight

the enigma

the enigma (flesh x jolst)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5oodSx1VXqSffLSCqiUkKq?si=111860bd32f647ee

prod moneo
mix/master @vito2300 <3

really excited to have vito on this one, hope yall enjoy it :)

lyrics:
a ghost in a crowded room
doesnt like the attention
your death still haunts me too
is that even worth a mention 
if i keep on this path of abuse
maybe ill see you real soon
but what kind of ghost are you
maybe its not so frightening

like the spiders web
that catches the fly
in the same way that earth
takes back what dies

it got way too loud
oh dont make a sound
it got way too frightening
ill leave it behind me

(vito)
your eyes, melt mine
like cheap silverware
your cries, in the night
echo through the air
so keep holding out
to bear the weight all on your own
is not easy
ill be there every time you call
if you need me
ill keep you safe from me
as long as im breathing

do you believe in ghosts (w/ vito)

lyrics

its been a long time
been a long time since i thought of myself
i only think of u
im staying safe for u

i need a pouch for my gums
i need a patch for my lungs
i need a clamp for my toungue baby
i need a shield for my bones
when u call on my phone
its either a fight or its love baby

this the type of weather to make u do something youd regret
please dont take my picture cuz i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best u are
i may not be 100 but ive come this far
restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
u got it go ahead take my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i really feel strongly even tho i dont express it

so much for a first verse
i dont save face tryna stay safe save me in the dirt
got ur head down inside the sand only take it out when u lurk
i gotta find a new style nothing works
im drunk can we go home baby
i need to find peace in my self but i cant
i need to find peace in my self but i cant

this the type of weather make u do something youll regret
i cant take my picture
i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best that u think u are
amazing how i came this far
im restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
i think its time that u wrote my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i know i have trouble showing my love
thats why i make these songs for u

deadmanwalking (p. michael harrison)

<3
soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
the shades been drawn for so long
i dont know why i've been here
a summer passed without your laugh
i still hear it so clear
i wonder why it happens now
left to figure out
how the pieces of me suffocate in the weeds intact
told you that its good, its getting bad

listening to rover in your attic
sleeping in til 6 i know it after
i had marked the page to save the passage 
something about the pain that doesn't happen
i wonder if your neighbours figured out at all
i wonder if you saved yourself at a cost of what we lost

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
light we couldn't see but i'm sure that its hitting
i'd be down for a week, i'd be down for a minute
see the scope of your life when its already finished
kinda strange at the end, feeling like the beginning
and i know what you'd say but i'm glad that you didn't
put my life on a shelf for a job and its killing
cause i've been fucking up
i just need to come around
figure out the proper way to hold you but its different now
i just couldn't figure out

time had taken hold of me, bury me
take control like its kerosene 
in my head its invisible, what's that mean on a principle?
when its dark i could speak but i regret it so easily
if you promise to forget i'd tell you just what it means to me
to be out again
fucked up with the sound effects
heard he made it overseas i hope he knows i'm proud of him
happy so we call it that
second summer came to pass, i've been working late
cause no ones waiting for me coming back

cycle through the lens of the moment
i couldn't see what was coming
i tried to fix it when its over 
cause i thought that it wasn't

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Bloom (w/ Eoin Disney)

prod. clear purple x maybe
@clearpurple

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

know i come off codependent 
i just want love and let in
break this soul i’d let you dead it
said home is where ur headed
i feel like i’ve never met it
still slitting paths of velvet
picture frame with shattered lessons
got me second guessing everybody, patterns second
after life come death, well i dont think that i accept it
just a coward little bastard, fearing countless changes 
with how im climbing them you’d think my mind is fucking everest
and even if i kill myself im sorry honest
shizu never wanted problems, but my songs adore it
so this leaking heart can bleed throughout the art its forming
take a breath, to telling everyone ur living for it
have mercy on me

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

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sludge (clear purple)

Fuk nah (prod jdolla)

all instrumental rights belong to @idealismus
(completely non-profit)


legs shaking
sitting down's not enough, still vacant
just erase me
head down when i walk, they gazing
why talk when you know not a word getting through now
i don't wanna
but still gotta
be not a brain rotter

souls may tie
turn cries to weeps
don't try to be so kind to me
be my relief, so kill me now

make it my fault
just enough for the guilt to be wiped off
don't really care what they lied for

three down, feeling tipsed, no staging
falling used to feel amazing
my voice stay shaking
i'm sorry for the drinking

by the morning i mourn some more
throat burnt, puke all on the floor
i swore i used to be more than this
borderless, now i'm losing time
no love could be enough
but you said, "don't close in"
you were meant for me, "stay open"
thought clouds clear up real nice
but it's only for the night (3x)

the enigma (flesh x jolst)

maesk

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