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sewerperson - we live underwater (cover)

respite

prod. irby & jolst

i got fuckin' turned around 
and i had no option but..
to love it,
ｔｏ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｉｔ
i got shot down,
all of my ideas are in the ground now
( take my soul out.. )
we always had eachother,
we were never undercover.

have you ever felt it all at the same time?
well, i did; and i think this will be the last time
you said "i hope we're okay.." 
well, "i hope we are too."
and i never meant all the hurtful shit i did 2 uuu ;(

i think that we should just say "fuck this shit" and run away
( i mean like, )
i mean, what more can we gain from this if we stay the same?
( i dont mean no. . )
i dont mean harm, i just dont know how to spit it out..
and i dont want death, but my mind cant see it-
GOIN' ANY OTHER WAY!!!
( this is destiny )
WAY!!!
IM SORRY!!!

✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ:

i got fuckin' turned around 
and i had no option but..
to love it,
ｔｏ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｉｔ
i got shot down,
all of my ideas are in the ground now..
( take my soul out )
we always had eachother,
we were never under.

oo..~

HAVE YOU EVER FELT IT ALL AT THE SAME TIME?!
WELL, I DID, AND NOW I CANT FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL!
no one else,
no one else,
no one else, no
and i never meant all the hurtful shit i said to uuu.. u-u..

( fuck this shit, and run away )
( i mean like, )
( what more can we gain from this? )
( what more can we gain from this? )
( staaay.. )

i dont mean harm, i just dont know how to spit it out
and i dont want death, but my mind cant see it 
going any other way
・❥・ｗａｙ・❥・

there's nothing more violent than what i felt

new single produced by @irby314 & @pekarot_161

lyrics:

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
It's hard to fill the satisfaction
Moving target, always lacking
It's like you took everything that I ever wanted
Hidden on the surface
Planted urges
Now you're saying I should
Walk away
Walk away

When I came back I told you
None of this can stay
So you took something you knew I wanted
Wrapped it up in shame
Old standards mold the frustration
Presenting this duel fate
I'm still standing to find the answers
Are they written on your
Are they written on your face

Oh can I
Just forget about last night
Try to focus on what's mine and what's right
What's mine and what's right

Watching you walk away
Forced against one place
Still begging to escape
Oh does it even matter
Oh does it even matter

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
Like it's not what you asked for
So don't say
Walk Away

moving target [prod. irby & pekarot]

09 [outro]

u arrive, u grow, u leave

lyrics

ooo drifting away 

ooo  but staying in place

/

how i did i get here

i forget when i took off

was on track to repair

but then i got lost

/

i think on the way, there was this passing storm 

had to take shelter, a pure darkness had formed

wasnt warned when this carnage took place 

still heard faint whispers that i was still safe

/

dont mind the branches they break all the time

she waves the fog without telling me why 

how did, i lose track of the time 

things that were planned, now the back of my mind

/

what did u do to me 

this isnt fair 

thought i’d control of me 

where was I led

/

this wasnt out of the ordinary

seen this happen before

taking a soul for walk out the door 

chose the wrong path, not my life anymore

i hope being happy your seek after all

/

try be more grateful this world is all yours

i gave u vast land and this food isnt thought(s)

resentment, more like no different u had sought 

i hate you from the bottom of my heart

/

drifting away

but staying in place

where did those special moments go

where did those special moments go?? (empty roads)

im losing count what number single but its on the @fleshgolem album nonetheless

lyrics

my life is a ticking time bomb
u play the right song
and all of the wires will spark

life’s short then why it feel long?
i’m tryna right wrongs
while surrounded in dark

love myself
i’ve been tryna get to that place
no words said
i would never come out of that place
i don’t know what to say anymore
a thousand notes on my phone that’s jus stored

i wanna get to sleep on time
i been heavyheaded got a lotta stress on my mind
medicating just sleep at all
plenty ppl fall
but i can’t just lose what i used to die for

i don’t check the safety
just vibin lately
the pressure tryna take me
won’t let it change me 
suffer more suffer less, it’s all the same 
had no choice still a voice yelling change

she said can u lov me for the moment
but it don’t mean as much so y’s it so important 
u see thru my lens shit distorted 
why u want me to against the grain again and again
its jus pain, its jus pain, uh its jus pain its jus pain
￼

against the grain

against the grain (flesh x ertu)

06

theres always an otherside

lyrics

roaming on these muddy waters many i lands convince to see

anxiety in mind tho its like im surfing shallow reef

im having hard times to grasp the things she feels for me 

we live 2 worlds yet we can say the same story

/

packing boxes on top of shelves

many options many hells

wishing wells. now store memories and memoirs 

are jus pleanetrys. heart warming. so heavenly 

heart burn and it’s killing me. this fire that u placed been attended so unwillingly

/

i lay down but with slumber im comfortable and comfortably

sure that this the only place where i can have some peace

i said these things, well these things take time

lifes to short to do null she replies 

/

my hearts bruised

this world is blue

my minds in 2

but I still love u

/

im losing pateince

my heart isnt waiting 

ill wait for u

/

many times ive checked the tide

rest assured its under control

i told u bout it last time, oh and last night

still u had to go 

these seven sees turned to five roads with this december snow

sit beside the rails and let the ocean breeze 

just take ur soul

/

sail the coast

let the sharp rocks just scrape the boat 

we have this path just let it flow 

i love u but its gettin old

/

its like date nights turn to great fights

and this moving home just kept moving ‘long

and we dont speak bout dark trail

coz theres 2 views and a sparked tail

/

i see green hues u see blue lights

i forgive but u say no ties

sirens going off must be system error 

but ik right

/

ik u this is not like 

how i saw u that one night when the trees paved a way for beauty 

that could be comprehended by eyes

i love u but im gettin tired 

/

she sent a signal to me that i wasn’t alone

now urs to take 

all my flesh, yeah my skin and my bone x2

/

im outta time in this world im outta time 

and its just me by myself on this grind

and its time to let the pen down

write my final words coz im just out of time

/

in this world the pages starting to fold 

i loved u once but my heart is growing old

heartwarming pleasantries that will go down with me

heartwarming pleasantries that will go down with me (empty roads)

07  [interlude]

grow until u reach the mold

lyrics

i hate it here, i love this town x4

/

i can feel the world burning motherland 

i can feel that it needs a helping hand

i can see the worst right across from me

in a lake that hurts and a lake that bleeds
/
i hate it here, i love this town

we have no choice either red or brown

old revelations interlude

old revelations interlude (empty roads)

prod. numb - https://www.youtube.com/@_numb

out on all platforms -
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/notcursed/pretty-girls

wish i didn't feel a thing 
i don't want this at all
pick myself apart
i wont catch me when i fall
dangerous cycle
keep crying at walls
i cant look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

detrimental to my mental health
i cant find the strength to rebuild myself
i'm done pretending
i'm overwhelmed
for this long, how have i dealt

wish i didn't look like this
i cry at the thought
'beauty is pain'
i guess that's true after all
painful cycle
but it's my fault
i can't look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

pretty girls (numb)

08 [bonus track]

i see the house burn down over nite.
and id relive it all again in another life.. 

lyrics

face me 
the darkness will replace me

/

taste me
im overcooking tryna take heat

/

over done
is this how we are, is it over love

/

im tryna bring light to the things in the dark 
but it seems like it cant get any lower ugh

/

where were u when i called 
7am in the morn.
ran off w/ no notice
i swear i didnt leave those scars..scars

/

wanted its all i wanted x2

/

ik the walls r caving in
we cant b closed we're close to sin
ik the walls r caving in
ik the walls r caving 

/

pouring the gasoline all over the driveway
despite the fact we said we'd b living the right way
pouring whats left of the dark make me sideways 
its burning every edge of my soul in the right way

/

not a thing u could do could unblur in this high state
a fine face 
but no room, yeah no space 
its not much to me if i live well but dont die great

/

im changing, im changing, im changing form
and im changing
im taking off and im spacious
i love it here but i hate it 

/

in this lake i bleed my final form
ur words dont anything to me no more

/

wanted all i wanted was for u to save me
im not sorry, in this one life u cant redo shit

/

i been hella places
but nothing compares to the basics
the simple things in life we take for granted
its so hard to fake it

/

dangerous, but its so dangerous 
in this fucking storm
im taken by the wind
they'll take u in this form

/

theres not much
not much you can do about it 

/
let them take you how u are.
the world will be the same when you're gone.

your former

your-former [bonus track] (empty roads)

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

your-former [bonus track] (empty roads)

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