i am the captain of my fate
laughter is possible
laughter is possible
laughter is possible 
ahahahahahahaha

i’m de-programming 
black + white spirals stay cursing my eyeballs
yeah i’m de-programming
extricating myself from the hallowed halls of mating calls 
yeah i’m de-programming
stalking + stabbing my own simpering stockholm syndrome 
yeah i’m de-programming bitch
no more sex slavery, and no more forever happy home 

i’m swinging from every vine at warp speed
like how monarch martyrs in the holy wars bleed 
this escape artist’s scaling barbed wire fences
now she only requires the past + future tenses 

say i’m constitutionally incapable
like a baby’s shakeable 
they got me when i was one
miss me, it’s unmistakable 

under the skin like ex machina
it’s death in your own 4 walls
they meet to practice false alchemy
my meat practices falling off the balcony 

he was a tom cat in a top hat
referring to himself in third person
and i swig-swallowed that
in to a hollow vat 
they swarmed him like jungle gnats 
before their souls all went splat
a dengue fever dream 
a true believer’s high-pitched scream 

invade uncanny valley like a pep rally
they’re coming for me i’m not safe
so i cram myself into my own holes
slip-slide down all the oiled poles
i can’t help but leak everywhere
peek behind every cheap jump scare 
it’s just too much for me to bear

my gyroscope’s off kilter 
the center cannot hold 
helter-skelter this face melter 
living year-round in a bomb shelter 

spectre hanging over tranquility 
horse tranqs cover up any fragility 
chosen for my fecund fertility by his virility 

he promised the prophecy
proffered up the progeny
referring to ancient calendars
of suspect caliber 
as i prepare to insert the catheter 

it’s his church
i’m right here, bleeding
dark web torrents seeding
he’s on a birds eye view perch
so call off the her-i-knew search

dr. sidney gottlieb got me 
now watch the menace molt
feel the penance jolt 

that’s something i can attest to
he promised i’d be blessed too 
so jump sinking ship before judgment day 
begrudging i refuse to stay, refute the pay

unraveling parchments of verses
it’s day doctors versus night nurses 
so chase your tail, stay beyond the pale 

MK ultra, in the umbra, mea culpa
i was so gulpable but he’s still culpable 
digging thru the cult rubble 

i’m de-programming 
black + white spirals stay cursing my eyeballs
yeah i’m de-programming
extricating myself from the hallowed halls of mating calls 
yeah i’m de-programming
stalking + stabbing my own simpering stockholm syndrome 
yeah i’m de-programming bitch 
no more sex slavery, and no more forever happy home

baby stick with me + i’ll grant you salvation
stick n poke at his personal ptolemy space station 
swiftly turning to a wolf from a 101 dalmation 
be my pupil + prepare for your pupil dilation
 
cloak + dagger, stroke + splatter
slivers of silk on a silver platter 
tend to bacchus like a summoned satyr 
suck the fluids of his overfilled bladder 

obtained redemption via sensory deprivation
it’s all outlined right here in my deposition 
go deeper, deeper til we reach detrition 
this is divine damnation

fate’s as inevitable as this finger i’m pointing
but even so you won’t ever catch me anointing

Deprogramming (demo)

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a tribute to early 80s industrial music,EIT,  90s trash tv, culture jam, and satire of a childhood media environment. this 'industrial vaporwave' takes the style of vaporwave but amplifies it with the extreme disturbing abrasiveness found in the work of bands like Throbbing Gristle.

Photographer NDN bipoc, enby.
ADHD/Dyslexia/recovering from depression :)
Baku in disguise

Industrial/Ambient music

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Deprogramming (demo)

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