feat @cam_b22
prod cxrter x tahtx 

lyrics;

its hard to think when ur sinking in this tar
i hate myself so much but i 
swear this music shit gonna make me a star
i should of picked up my guitar more
should of been better from the start
but its not to late to get there
play this music from my heart
i built this, i played my part
i write until i fall apart
each song i write is about the same girl that never gave me her heart
it was all in my head from the start

but-but-but

why do u hit me up when ur lonely
play with my head, i'm already in your hand
i'm not rich, im not smart, and most of all im not him
I'm the exact opposite
but i think you like that
im just like one of your opiates

i try my hardest to not trip over this bitch
but that mood ended quick
wake up sad and sink into my bed
than i finally crawl out
we all end up lonely in the end
i can count the people i call my friends on one hand
always told me i was better than i am 
girl ill never be that man
so stay away

caramel;
it ain't hard to tell i was never rlly needed here
blacked out curtains so i never see the sun in here
so fuck it dear i guess i'll my breathing here
i love here the spirits made a home in me

at least they fucking notice me
and they don't take offense to the broken me
the way u do is way too fucking openly
oh its choking me

i know our time is wearing thin
we both know ur lies are breaking down
i can see it now oh it's sinking in
its rlly sinking in

it ain't hard to tell i was never rlly needed here
the more i fucking fell in that river i been bleeding in
exerting fear i hate it here
i really fucking hate it here

better than i am w/ Caramel

lyrics:

it's been quite a while since i've ever felt like this
i can't say i like you but i know you peaked my intrest
answer my wishes
god is my witness
for everything i do
break my bones down on the concrete floor
to show what i'm willing to do to get some more
i don't want nothing too strong
i just wanna get to know you
know you
know you
know you
so please don't push me away
cuz i fear that you've altered my brain
but i cant do nothing about it now
so i guess imma have to convince you how
yeah i could do this all for you in an instant
i would sacrifice my blood to leave an imprint
on your soul on your mind so you don't forget me
yeah i would do it all for you just from the beginning
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been quite a while since i've ever felt like this
i can't say i like you but i know you peaked my intrest
answer my wishes
god is my witness
for everything i do

it's been a while

lyrics:

hair is getting long
i wanna ask you should i cut it off
i want you to like what you see
when you look at me love
i would never change myself for someone
i know who i am
being next to you right now
i wish i was a better man

all these feelings deep inside my chest
they are confusing me
i know that i like you but you don't
so i try not to speak
stars are looking pretty tonight
but you're a different breed
you got me turning off the light
just so that you can sleep
wind is blowing through my hair
i wonder if you notice
i wish you would stop and stare
so that i know you're focused
it's hard for me to know if you care for me the same
your family knows how i feel i guess i'm the one to blame
i pray to god that he forgives me for all of my sins
day to day i've been praying
that's she's doing okay and
wipe the make up off that's all on my face
i'm feeling so out of place
i'm feeling like a disgrace

i wish i was a better man

deadwood

lyrics
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Ice in my veins
Heat in my cup
Puking up liquor
For keeping a buzz
I’m sorry baby it’s never enough
You call it love
I call the bluff

Weapons and armaments
Kill what my carbon is
Temper my temperament
Waiting for karma it’s
All in my head oh no isn’t it dear?
Feet on the ledge like there’s nothing to fear

Anxious and
Stressed bout’ the burden of faceless-ness
Chasing perfection and hating it
I’ll never reach what I’m aiming at
I’ll never be what I’m needing it’s
All just a means to an end

I’ll keep on feeding the cycle again
All while these years eat away at my skin
I feel as if it had never been meant to be
You’ll be the death of me
Coming the end

<3

ice n fire (prod. farber)

picture perfect

lyrics:

why you break me down so easily
like what the hell you get from making me bleed
now i stand still on the driveway
hoping that you'll possibly come my way
one foot in and one foot out
i see you like to talk can't shut your mouth
i guess i'll grab my things and head on out
i'm stuck within my bedroom designing sounds
don't talk about me behind my back or spread these lies
your cruelty is what will lead you to your demise
i loved you all and thought i could never switch those sides
but you showed me how and now i'll die

cutting ties [Unreleased Audio]

message

windshield

backseat

P. nomansland 

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

23 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
@rod / @web fan account

email - m@scars.online

better than i am w/ Caramel

marsmal