this is a album i threw together with songs that didnt fit other projects enjoy <3 

shoutout jerbear for the art

shout all the prods - eric godlow, irby hollowprpl, dash, sorrowbringer, p4ra, neerdowell, & ryan kelly,

most of all of this is non profit I will lease beats  and post a ep on spotify next year.

i'm okay, everythings fine

@decayinganyways @tnvr555 

// decayinganyways
// verse
it’ll be a cold night, when you’re around
so take your shot, and make it count
and we can play these games, that’s your claim to fame
that Russian roulette touch going through my brain
it’s 6 painless shots for 6 painful months
was caught inside your side was caught inside your hunt
i’ll file down the pin so somehow I could win
lets hope these game begin
and hope they’re ending swift

// chorus
our love is russian roulette knew this was all just a bet
don’t hurt my heart blow my brains out instead
our love is russian roulette kiss me softly with lead
don’t break down all of my love
shoot my brains out instead

// geist
we're playing russian roulette
gun to my head and i'm hoping it blows my brains
i’ll miss and you’ll take me to bed
lay me right down and then you’ll blow me all the same

god i love the taste
when you ride on my face
so baby don't stop moving
grind until you're out of fluids

and you take the fall
yeah you risk it all
to see if its a fire you can tame
yeah you take it off
yeah you’d do it all
just to taste what you can of the fame?

the next one's gonna go through your brain
you look at me like it's not a game
darling
you want to feel this more than i do..
i’m starting to see that we’re the same
load a full clip
let’s taste the pain
darling
just do it the way that you do

russian roulette

spotify

russian roulette w/ decayinganyways [tnvr]

produced by the wonderful @iamaneerdowell

lyrics;
i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

gods always putting me thru tests
and all my friends are pushing me to the ledge
im still waiting for a text from my ex
my dr switched my meds
i think theyre working
its hard to fix something when ur always hurting
and nothings ever fucking working

is this shit always in my fuckedup head
i get tired of waking up and wanting to be dead
idk how much energy i got left
so leave me alone

if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
i dont wanna talk to you, you always got a plan
you use me for attention than go back to your man
ik i was apart of the plan
its okay you win

i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

try my best

prod @tnvr555 

your toxic traits oh baby 
i can see them on your face 
you crave attention 
i can see from how you flaunt your waist
but oh my how you love to tantalize 
tease me 
can’t see through your disguise 

you taste like poison baby 
trust that i’ll drink all of you 
i love the way 
oh how you bite and give me attitude 
but oh my how you love to tantalize 
tease me 
can’t see through your disguise

it’s do or die 
you & i 
this party is a suicide
romanticized 
oh baby don’t you idolize? 
the way they cry 
this party is a suicide 
for you & i

i’m sick of running away
you’ve got a lot left to say
so let’s sit down
say it to my face 
romanticizing the pain  
you’d tantalize me all day
so go on love 
just dig my grave 

suicidal tendencies
baby come and sever me 
do whatever you would like
i’m yours for life 
i know you’d love to drag the knife
across my throat 
so come tonight

tantalize

tantalize [tnvr]

prod @tnvr555

oh 
your eyes so romantic 
you’re moving and panting 
oh baby i’ll take it at your pace 
two steps, now we’re dancing 
got me in a trance and 
i’m gripping my hands into your waist 

take your vial of blood
i wouldn’t keep you starving 
you’re the one i want my darling 
so go ahead
take all that you want 
i want to see you smiling 
i was made for you my darling
so please just stay 
 
oh baby
wait a minute
i’m so caught 
inside the deep end now 
so love just please 
don’t let me down  
just promise me 
you’ll stick around

you're the one i want [tnvr]

prod @tnvr555

Yeah
Yeah
Yeah

[Verse 1]
Your man on the road, he doin' promo
You said, "Keep our business on the low-low"
I'm just tryna get you out the friend zone
'Cause you look even better than the photos
I can't find your house, send me the info
Drivin' through the gated residential
Found out I was comin', sent your friends home
Keep on tryna hide it, but your friends know

[Chorus]
I only call you when it's half-past five
The only time that I'll be by your side
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, yeah
I only call you when it's half-past five
The only time I'd ever call you mine
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, babe

[Verse 2]
I'ma let you know and keep it simple
Tryna keep it up don't seem so simple
I just fucked two bitches 'fore I saw you
And you gon' have to do it at my tempo
Always tryna send me off to rehab
Drugs started feelin' like it's decaf
I'm just tryna live life for the moment
And all these motherfuckers want a relapse

[Chorus]
I only call you when it's half-past five
The only time that I'll be by your side
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, yeah
I only call you when it's half-past five
The only time I'd ever call you mine
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, babe

[Bridge]
Hills have eyes, the hills have eyes
Who are you to judge? Who are you to judge?
Hide your lies, girl, hide your lies (Hide your lies, oh, baby)
Only you to trust, only you


[Chorus]
I only call you when it's half-past five
The only time that I'll be by your side
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, yeah
I only call you when it's half-past five
The only time I'd ever call you mine
I only love it when you touch me, not feel me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me
When I'm fucked up, that's the real me, babe

the hills [tnvr]

produced by dash & sorrow bringer 

clip pt2

lyrics;

put the gun to my head
pull the trigger
did u mean any of those words you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip

im better off dead
what you felt about me is dead
theres nothing left 
how much more has to be said
im getting tired of this game of pretend
im just so tired just let it all end
i swear i was trying my best
  
no drug can fix me girl
im way too fucked up
i knew i was never enough
i knew i wasn't the one
i was just taking my turn
this could never work
talk to me like im human
i hope you meant something to me
but those days over its time to set me free
just go just leave
but before you go

did u mean any of those words you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip
blood on everything
there goes all my memories

im on this shit cuz i popped it
bitch i didnt want this
im numbing my pain
because all you can spew is non sense
you cant even stay on topic
you made it about you
when it was about me too
idk how u can love one minute than forget it
i thought we forged it
i know i did some fucked shit
but im not him that wasnt me
i was on drugs when i lost it
but its not a excuse i got a problem
i had everything i wanted
than i lost it
before u walk out

please put the gun to my head
pull the trigger
did u mean any of those fucking words 
that you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip
there goes all my memories


pull the trigger

non profit

letter p.3
produced by irby

lyrics;
i wanna write this letter
but i dont know where to start
well im sad all the time
and i blame it on the shitty weather
im losing my grip on reality
its almost December
a year without you
i wanna write this letter
but these words are hard to get out
i wanna do better
but i pretend now
i try to be happy
but im back in hell now
its the end of October
and im writing this letter again
but ill put it in the folder
never open it again
its starting to get colder
i wanna write this letter
i wanna get it over with now
but i cant figure it out
i wanna write this letter
im falling apart now
my worlds falling apart
its getting hard to pretend now
if you ever cared
why aren't we even friends now
i barely feel okay now
i wanna write this letter
i wanna write this fucking letter
its been so long
im not holding together
do you even remember
i wanna write this letter
i wanna write this letter
i wanna get better
i cant hold it together
i wrote you this letter
i just want send it ever

this letter - interlude

produced by hollowprpl
soulbound pt2

lyrics;
i opened up the book of my life
its time to turn the page
didn't get any sleep last night
so i jus get another drink
i got memories im trying to erase
im working so hard
but i need a fucking break
im in the studio popping shit just so i can fucking think

theres this feeling inside
its inside me and its killing me
theres something trying to rip me apart
its trying so hard to breakfree
but without this inside of me
ill be fucking empty
theres a hole where there used to be a heart


sick of living
i let everyone down
im gonna drown
i have words
but i cant say them outloud
i had friends
but where are they now
i was trying to find my way
but somehow ended up homebound
tried to move on
but somehow im soul bound
and I dont know what todo now
im so high now im up on the cloud
im so high now my feet cant even reach the ground
im 23 and im barely able to feel a thing now

i haven't been feeling like myself lately
i been avoiding everyone
i bet they all hate me
im sinking in deeper
im losing myself
i think im sick, i got a fever

im falling down
im falling so fast now
i look in the mirror and im like who the fuck are you
im dreaming of nights alone now
but at the end im still falling to my doom 
and i dont even see the ground

fuck everyone
fuck everything 
i damaged my vessel
no one can help me
no one can help you
how can i ever be enough??
how can i ever feel good 
how can i ever feel good enough?
im falling deeper

yeah i got a fever
im falling deeper
i lost myself the day i decided to not get sober
how could i ever keep up??
how could i ever be here

im falling down
im falling so fast now
i look in the mirror and im like who the fuck are you
im dreaming of nights alone now
but at the end im still falling to my doom 
and i dont even see the ground

book of my life

say you don’t bleed
baby i can see it drip down your wrist 
oh so now you’re coming?
cum and then i’ll give you a kiss 
you want to fight 
i got your back just go on put up your fists 
but promise me that when i’m gone
that i’m the one that you’ll miss 

guess i’m catching a plane now
cutting all of the snakes out
come on closer
pull me under 
let me melt in your skin love 
and i know sometimes i seem vacant 
there’s not much that i believe in 
so baby just give me reason 

who are you 
where’d you come around from? 
eyes that glitter   
like she’s dreaming 
can’t stop staring 
she’s so pretty 
who are you? 
would you come around 
and say that you’re my honey lover
i want you to pull me under 
oh oh oh oh oh oh 
say that you’re my honey lover
i want you to pull me under

and there’s a serpent in the room 
that no one seems to address 
but that’s alright
i’d rather turn away to watch her undress 
and no one’s gonna like the plan that i’ve got coming up next 
their eyes are peeled to the screen
but are they ready to scream

face it 
ego’s big for the statement
fit all black like a raven 
and when i move
i promise you that
i wouldn’t feel complacent 
ego’s big and they’re glazing
sit back love cause i’m winning
for you 
oh oh

honey [tnvr]

made this on 8gs of shrooms 

prod hollowprpl x ryankelly

lyrics;
she added me back yesterday
oh boy what could it be
why do u think ill play ur game
nothings changed
your still the same, im the same
smoking all night
this shit my novocaine
i feel it in my veins

i cant feel my face
all the shit im 
jus numb the pain
3 pills to the brain
im still the same
said id change
but thats far way
i lost my path
i lost my way
maybe im the one playing my own sick game
maybe i should take the blame
but thats why life is ruthless
call it fate
2025 i hate everything i make 
2026 ill try my best 
but everythings the same
im slowly fading away

she added me back yesterday
oh boy what could it be
why do u think ill play ur game
nothings changed
your still the same, im the same
smoking all night
this shit my novocaine
i feel it in my veins

i jus faced 2 blunts
while i got liquor in my cup
im slumped as fuck
it feels like yesterday
but i lost track of time
and its already Friday
i started Wednesday 
i lost my self for the past week
it might not seem that deep
but all that lost time
what was i doing
wasting away to nothing 

she added me back yesterday
oh boy what could it be
why do u think ill play ur game
nothings changed
your still the same, im the same
smoking all night
this shit my novocaine
i feel it in my veins

novocaine

dredge, a message found floating in a bottle.

produced by purc
mixed by me
mastered by ne'erdowell

lyrics 

As the carcass decays
Starts to rot through the roof
Smell the flesh dessicate 
As it wafts through the room

Light a candle or two 
For the few who remain
Hope the stench starts to fade 
What a claim, wasn't you 

But the corpse has a face 
It was someone you knew 
False purchase of fame 
Then the fall, first the view 

In the ocean is fate
Singing hymns from the blue
Wipe the spray from your face
Throw the bones, tell the crew

There is work to be done on the boats of the town
Grit your teeth and ignore that what lurks further down
Lest you lose your mind or what's left of your soul
Dragging up fish with three heads from the maw of god

Fog lights, in the dead of night 
I can never sleep, I seen a poltergeist 
Memorise the passege hidden in the ice
Someone said that here that even dead can die
Alright, I guess the time is right
I cut off my thumb, perform this holy rite 
Prepare to see my love for the final time
I'm flung to overboard and all the seas rise 

As the carcass decays
Starts to rot through the roof
Smell the flesh dessicate 
As it wafts through the room

Light a candle or two 
For the few who remain
Hope the stench starts to fade 
What a claim, wasn't you 

But the corpse has a face 
It was someone you knew 
False purchase of fame 
Then the fall, first the view 

In the ocean is fate
Singing hymns from the blue
Wipe the spray from your face
Throw the bones, tell the crew



dredge (purc)

lyrics:

Everything they told us contradicts itself

The factory had closed before
But never did they bar the doors
And I wonder inside of there
And I wonder what they’re hiding for

Im standing on the precipice
Of prison over protest songs
They’ll teach me how to use a gun
Before Ive learned my right from wrong
So tell me is it funny yet
Oh You’ve cried until ur voice was gone
And Do we understand the bully yet
Or were we with him all along
Still Im so fragile and I dont know why
These Orders and anthems they’ve forced fed the child
Ricin will get you if you wont abide
Bullets will fill you and your domicile
So tell me is it funny yet
When they take away ur dad and mom
And Does it call for revolution yet
Or do the boots sour atop ur tongue

The factory had closed before
But never did they bar the doors
And I wonder inside of there
And I wonder what they’re hiding for

this rifle fires love (ne'erdowell)

tommy x @sewerperson reunion

Booted up don’t take no shit from no one
I can’t cuff the bitch she going 
If I get paper I’m gone show it yeah
I’m not just gone up for none
Bro got spooked and tried to run 
They put that beam on his body
That’s why I can’t show no love to anybody 
If I’m tired tired
Tell me if you’d stay for a while
I don’t wanna let you go
And I don’t wanna leave you yet


I dont wanna leave you tired
Tired
Lately I been wired
I jam up this fronto im not getting any higher
Blood line out the forgiatos I put on the tires
Fire fire
Baby im on fire
I roll up this 3.5 im floating in this vacuum
There’s just all these hormones in the air im tryna pipe sum
Baby bend that back and look at my face it make me feel sum
Im fine pouring this drank up till the rest those fucking pills come

Booted up don’t take no shit from no one
I can’t cuff the bitch she going 
If I get paper I’m gone show it yeah
I’m not just gone up for none
Bro got spooked and tried to run 
They put that beam on his body
That’s why I can’t show no love to anybody 

Yea oh Alright
Its just me and my dawgs in this function and we spiked
I blew thru his fucking skull I dont need a green light
Hit this peace pipe yea
Me and my guys in here we drugged up bad and mean right now

TIRED ft. SEWERPERSON

produced by s0ftskelet0ns, who killed this shit
mastered by ne'erdowell
for my brother myles, whom i love

lyrics

I got a friend and he doesn't take enough care of himself
He prays for an end and he bides all his time reprimanding himself 
and he pushes out the cravings of what he really needs
For the habit he built

And he thinks his times up

He thinks she was the one
But it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world
Than a girl that you never knew.

Who gave you the idea 
that you're unfit for love my friend
I think I put 2 and 2 together 
they mentioned s&m
That shit was never love and a kid
should never bear these things 
Why you take it out on yourself
There was no winning this

Why do you resign yourself to this mess
Oh Myles you know better

If it feels like you're decaying 
Then the first step isn't praying
Take your foot out of the grave 
And punch the world back in the face
You need some good shit in ur brain
Like Vitamins and sunny days 
You need a proper bit of steak
And then some beers with proper mates 

Why do you insist
On letting this bitch win
Myles you know better

And it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world 
Than a girl.

my brother myles (s0ftskelet0ns)

lyrics:

Lets go
I swear u take off the glasses and light up the park
You pick at my brain pick out the pain in fragile porcelain parts
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U feeling my frame u touch on my face and worry become malark
so Where is the best spot to die at when life gets hard
Im tapped out
Im spilling my brain and your answer is steeped in sly remarks
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U push at the small of my back and Im falling 170 yards

but I get u back in the worst way
U see my worst face 
Every time u look at outside in the yard
Arterial blood thick as toothpaste
How was the view with
My skull opened up like a birthday card
I think u raising the asshole bar
All this work for a condo and luxury car
Ill fire bomb u while u drive to the bar
Its a fire works show in the back the car
I will rip u apart and im not even high right now
Ill meet you on fifth lets just meet up and die right now
ya The building is empty there’s no where to hide right now
Meet me up top fuck it lets both jump down
48 floors 58 floors they passing me by right now
Im going fast but I stand on his back and I land on him skateboard style
He got his brain pushed out
Fuck it though I got my feet blown out
Even his shoes flew off
Thats how u know that he dead right now

Lets go
I swear u take off the glasses and light up the park
You pick at my brain pick out the pain in fragile porcelain parts
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U feeling my frame u touch on my face and worry become malark
Where is the best spot to die at when life gets hard
Im tapped out
Im spilling my brain and your answer is steeped in sly remarks
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U push at the small of my back and Im falling 170 yards


this letter - interlude

marsmal

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