prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

produced by the wonderful @iamaneerdowell

lyrics;
i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

gods always putting me thru tests
and all my friends are pushing me to the ledge
im still waiting for a text from my ex
my dr switched my meds
i think theyre working
its hard to fix something when ur always hurting
and nothings ever fucking working

is this shit always in my fuckedup head
i get tired of waking up and wanting to be dead
idk how much energy i got left
so leave me alone

if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
i dont wanna talk to you, you always got a plan
you use me for attention than go back to your man
ik i was apart of the plan
its okay you win

i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

try my best

ithinkukno (prod. michael harrison + xelfiy)

👻

(MisFiiT) you in the club and i’m in my bed at home
you go ghost i can’t rant cuz i been doing that
i been scrounging for your love in the trash ima sewer rat (fuckin rat)
i feel like cold cuz i always want more and more 
chimney, i feel like im stuck in a chimney
claustrophobic 
bacardi my cup it’s empty
i’m tired of feelin envious (jealous wreck)
there’s a pit in my gut
know this what i want
but i know you don’t care about it

(yungcray) you was at the club I was alone drinking down, this bottle that I store behind my bed,  it really help,
I’m in my head, it’s like a boat, I think I might drown,
I wanna go, just read my notes, I wrote it all down 

and I been feeling reckless, I really wish I knew more 
and I might wreck this life, or find anew door 
all black diamond necklace, it’s pretty it’s a dark tool, 
I think I’ll just go home and maybe write more

(icaruslurks) 
I do to much I know 
Lately I’ve been off coke 
And I don’t drink that much
I guess you’ll never really know 
But I guess I’m not sober tho
And if I say I am then I’m lyin
Can’t pretend I’m sober when I’m flyin
Can’t pretend I’m happy when I’m cryin
If I say I’m not then I’m lyin 
If I say I miss you then I’m lyin 
There’s no denying the misery 
I feel when you’re next to me 
I feel when you’re next to me

ghost in da club w/ yungcray & Icaruslurks (emory x cl6udy)

rehab (prod. michael harrison + xelfiy)

lyrics


when i woke up 
i saw ur body in that box
uve made ur decision 
while i sit here and rot
i keep tryna push off these blessings that i got
tell me would you still be there when the frost forms
im so damn greedy oh we couldve got more
i reject the meaning should i sit and watch more
i was never real so i bought more 
oh i bleed in bad forms

not what i want
disbelief in what i saw
is it all good now
as it all burns down

bullshit on my phone
i had to cut it off
tell me am i prone
to losing what i got
sometimes u jus have
to let it run its course
i pour up this liquor 
and my fate restored

when i woke up 
i saw ur body in that box
uve made ur decision 
while i sit here and rot
i keep tryna push off these blessings that i got
tell me wuld you still be there when the frost forms
im so damn greedy oh we couldve got more
i reject the meaning should i sit and watch more
i was never real so i bought more 
oh i bleed in bad forms

made of ice (sorrowbringer)

lyrics:

and it all went by like that
another year gone by left sad
i dont really want this chance
i might ruin everything we had

its okay i been spending time alone now
barely eating all my pants fall from the waist down
having big dreams yet feeling so awake now
in the night time chilling with my phone out
with my best friends sitting back to smoke loud
man i love life why the i gotta go now

and it all went by like that
another year gone by left sad
i dont really want this chance
i might ruin everything we had

you say you love me but i know you just dont
you wont change for me baby just go
and i dont want you to hit my phone
its okay i been spending time alone now
barely eating all my pants fall from the waist down
having big dreams yet feeling so awake now
in the night time chilling with my phone out
with my best friends sitting back to smoke loud
man i love life why the i gotta go now

i wonder what i'll become (prod. web + i dont like mirrors)

XELFIY_BDAY_2K25 ft XELFIY (ROLLIE)

Shout out halfhearted for working on this with me 🫶🏻

You haven’t seen the worst yet w/ halfhearted

this song shud explain my mumbling 
ok last one i promise next song will be more happy
prod and peformed by me

upside down

hey im back
peformed and prod me 

lyrics:
we gon pull up in the tracksuits
run a fucker down in my black boots
air max, 95
110 on the tag dude
fresh out the cage with a few scars
but its ok
gotta screw loose
"kurtains dis a new u?"

(hook)
so fuck you,
please dont act like u know me,
you never really tried, 
and u always tryna hoe me,
fuck you,
u can have it all its the old me,
it was never really mine,
all dese lames tryna own me,
so fuck you,
please dont act like u know me,
you never really tried, 
and u always tryna hoe me,
fuck you,
u can have it all its the old me,
it was never really mine,
all dese lames tryna own me,

kindness,
or maybe that was last week?
i cant remember,
to be honest shit is passed me,
and i dont wana care,
these thoughts cant last me,
and i been doing fine,
thanks for asking :)

tay: tomorrow morning, we're leaving
pierre: your guy better be legit, im not spending another day here
tay: oh he'll arrive, you know you're gonna be talk of the town tomorrow right?
pierre: thats the point ;)

(hook)
so fuck you,
please dont act like u know me,
you never really tried, 
and u always tryna hoe me,
fuck you,
u can have it all its the old me,
it was never really mine,
all dese lames tryna own me,
so fuck you,
please dont act like u know me,
you never really tried, 
and u always tryna hoe me,
fuck you,
u can have it all its the old me,
it was never really mine,
all dese lames tryna own me,

we gon pull up in the tracksuits
run a fucker down in my black boots
air max, 95
110 on the tag dude
fresh out the cage with a few scars
but its ok
gotta screw loose
i wish i never knew u

tracksuitz

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

try my best

marsmal