mekle

remember august

why does everything have to feel so numb..


credit to @realdepressionproject for this poem: https://www.instagram.com/p/CcfhJZdsp59/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=


a poem: from someone with depression to their partner

Places We Go

soap

dont get out of bed
it's nice to get some rest
i'll make u breakfast

tell the truth to me
should i stay or leave?
your pokerfacce is getting hard to read

living in a haze
when was yesterday?
you turn to me and say

"why do i exist?"
i could say the same
does anybody know?

i've been taking days off
and i'm scared when i stop
why can't we just live life?
if she's real then why
is it like this
when it could be different
for now, i'm living
for you

god (for you)

Charlottesville's Kate Bollinger performs songs from her new EP, Look at it in the Light (Ghostly), and beyond, live in the studio for XPN's Indie Rock Hit Parade.

Produced by Eric Schuman
Photos by Paige Walter
xpn.org // #IndieRockHitParade

Kate Bollinger - Who Am I But Someone (Live at XPN)

Kate Bollinger - Running (Live at XPN)

the war is over
i’ve packed my bags and disappeared
no closure
what’s the chance that i’m still here?
and you wanna know
if there really is a chance you’re going home
well, i’ve got news for you

that i’m the single tear that starts the tide
the creeping fear that sleeps with you tonight
and when the sun decides to finally rise
i’ll catch you every now and then
we’ll talk about what could’ve been
and how you never got to say goodbye

oh your sirens
are sounding off
when i’m firing
my cannonballs
cause they’re all your sound of hope
when your feelings
are borderline
disappearing
i’m still in your mind
cause i’m all you’ll ever know
oh in isolation
there’s no point in
faking
you’re cutting it close
and you don’t know where you’re go-ing
you won’t ever know
ever know
no

take a look at you
and tell me you’re not hoping
if you want the truth
you’ll need a diagnosis
but i don’t see
you going when you’ve always thought that you have known it
so i’ve got news for you

oh your sirens
are sounding off
when i’m firing
my cannonballs
cause they’re all your sound of hope
when your feelings
are borderline
disappearing
i’m still in your mind
cause i’m all you’ll ever know
oh in isolation
there’s no point in
faking
you’re cutting it close
and you don’t know where you’re go-ing
you won’t ever know
ever know
no

single tear rough demo

I'm young, I'm young and I'm still gonna die
Going through my phone hoping that I'm still gonna find
A reason to exist inside my own mind
Cause of those in the sand, I'm still in their debt

Oh I was thinking ahead
I was thinking I’d share
I’ll never do it again
Oh I’d never go back 
I’ve already lived it through 
And now it’s hard to forget 
And now I’m starting to heal 
As I look up at all the skies 
The clouds tell me to forgive 
It never was your fault 
They kept repeating to me  
All you were was a kid
You have to learn to forgive
You have to learn to forgive
There’s more to life than this

Why do I try
To tell myself
That this is fine
It isn’t fine
Guess I’m used to
Troubled minds
You don’t care
And neither do I
I'm not surprised, I’m not surprised
Here I am, back in time
Picking up the pieces you left behind
Cause who am I, who am I
If not the lover willing to try
I’m sick of my mind
I'm sick of my mind
Getting high, forgetting time
We’re way too young
We love and hide
(We love and we hide)

I'm young, I'm young and I'm still gonna die
Going through my phone hoping that I'm still gonna find
A reason to exist inside my own mind
Cause of those in the sand, I'm still in their debt

(Losing my will)
(Losing my chords)
I've been thinking a lot of the choices I've made  
Cause everyday just feels the same
Troubled minds, tear each other apart
To forgive, there's more to life than this
Troubled minds, tear each other apart
To forgive, there's more to life than this

Prod by: Cometrosa
Performance and lyrics: Cometrosa
Performance and lyrics: Pupaira
Performance and lyrics: Sophia Werner

FOILSICK (feat. Puparia & Sophia Werner)

cop graveyard

im giving up on love cuz i dont feel shit
i tried everything and im just getting tired of it
it's always too little or too much
im just wondering which part of my brain is making it tough

i get so tired of everyone
i just need my space just incase you tryna do me wrong
HOW COME
i can't fall in love just like
YOU CAN
I BEEN
chasing these people who offer nothin

im giving up on love cuz i dont feel shit
i tried everything and im just getting tired of it
it's always too little or too much
im just wondering which part of my brain is making it tough

i guess love is just too hard
maybe im afraid of showing them all my scars
making out in the back of my car
tryna find the reason i can't kickstart my heart
aye yuh and imma never figure all this shit out
i keep on thinkin about the memories my heads in the clouds
i got reasons that i keep all this shit to myself
i got reasons keeping distance lookin out for my health
guess it's my fault i got dropped off
cried in the back seat got no drop top

it's always too little or too much
i'm just wondering which part of my brain is making it
(feel shit)
just getting tired of it

single tear rough demo

Max Bass