lovelorn- voice memo

We can be friends

i dont even know what this is about to be honest its about being an obsessive crusher???

its in the air

Film Shadows

have had this one written for a while now and dont really like it but still decided to work on it for some reason

on my way home late at night
high school forefront of my mind
something about it is making me numb
somehow i cant get enough

oh i just wanna put it down
but it’s glued to my hand right now
grab another
further down the gutter

just noticed how often
these thoughts are in my head
something about em is making me think
i’m addicted to these feelings x3

oh i just wanna put this down
but it’s glued to my hand right now
and forever
maybe its for the better

can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
think this bottle’s
deep as deep ends
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
i think im an
alc c c c
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
think this bottle’s
deep as deep ends
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
i know im an
alcoholic

oh i don’t know what i’d be without
all this shit i pour in my mouth
i just wish i could put them down
but the bottles are glued to my hands right now
and forever
i’m gonna drown
i’m gonna drown
drown me out
drown me out

alcoholic demo

oh, there is a lost year
somewhere between you and i
you smell like a garden
i want to be twisted in your vines

i just want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

you gave me a flower
bright red and pink, but i got you stepped on
enter infestation
the doubt that I think i’m not what you want

but i want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

cracks and petals cut were bound to come
when we were never meant to love
but that doesn’t mean we can’t break rules
this is filthy love but it’s golden and
the whole world needs to know it
but i dont like convincing you

the garden & the pavement DEMO

song for akira :)

mixed and mastered by John Trainum

Lil Cow

my lonesome was literal 
my hoping is visceral
I use to keep my head above the boards
draw the line between my laws
when someone folds 
the creases more
I miss you lover

coughing my lungs up
and leaving it longer
least the smoking smoked the flaws all beneath that construct
kept it collected and cool for the summer 
i miss you lover

its though i’m proud
of every doubt 
in every sound
i think losing it again
a softer mound
of boy hid down 
inside the ground
it sits about 
in old me 
is every bruise 
and every stitch
a sign of this 
I think that everythings boring
and everythings boring

Boring

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

lets still love us still (demo)

artwork made by @malusmatrona on instagram

i don’t believe it
said you’re tired and leaving
tomorrow you’ll be out of state
for some unknown reason

right in front of my eyes
a perfect picture that time buys
breaks apart uneven
for some untold reason

alternating questions 
not the greatest first impression
it’s not about getting even
except to you for some reason

i listened to your stories
with bleary eyes at four in the morning
we lay our heads and then it’s evening
for some untold reason

the garden & the pavement DEMO

Max Bass