We can be friends

Non-confrontational social awareness
For the sake of fairness, I'm saying it first
You've seen my body and that makes me nauseous
Overly cautious, and prone to complain
But I'm here like I always was
Older and wiser, better with time
Was it fair for a man of your age to seek comfort in mine?

Oh, to be a child
Wide-eyed and wild
Oh, to seek the love you gave and in return
A punch, a kick, a blow, a burn
That rolls right through your fingers to the touch 

Non-confrontational social awareness
And you'll never say it, so I'll say it first
If I was so bothersome, why did you keep me at arm's length?
Was it convenience? 
I cried to my sister that day in the car and I felt so pathetic 
I couldn't quite get close enough
But I doubt that it crosses your mind 

Oh, to be a child
Wide-eyed and wild
Oh, to seek the love you gave and in return
A punch, a kick, a blow, a burn
That rolls right through your fingers to the touch 

Could we address the elephant
It's better than indifference 
And I know that you're an adult, beloved by everyone you know
I could've said it all out loud
But it's too late, you got your crowd
And I swear sometimes I hope that you're okay
I wish that you'd have wondered the same 

Non-confrontational social awareness 
For the sake of fairness, I'm saying it first.

Elephant

Film Shadows

have had this one written for a while now and dont really like it but still decided to work on it for some reason

on my way home late at night
high school forefront of my mind
something about it is making me numb
somehow i cant get enough

oh i just wanna put it down
but it’s glued to my hand right now
grab another
further down the gutter

just noticed how often
these thoughts are in my head
something about em is making me think
i’m addicted to these feelings x3

oh i just wanna put this down
but it’s glued to my hand right now
and forever
maybe its for the better

can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
think this bottle’s
deep as deep ends
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
i think im an
alc c c c
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
think this bottle’s
deep as deep ends
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
i know im an
alcoholic

oh i don’t know what i’d be without
all this shit i pour in my mouth
i just wish i could put them down
but the bottles are glued to my hands right now
and forever
i’m gonna drown
i’m gonna drown
drown me out
drown me out

alcoholic demo

oh, there is a lost year
somewhere between you and i
you smell like a garden
i want to be twisted in your vines

i just want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

you gave me a flower
bright red and pink, but i got you stepped on
enter infestation
the doubt that I think i’m not what you want

but i want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

cracks and petals cut were bound to come
when we were never meant to love
but that doesn’t mean we can’t break rules
this is filthy love but it’s golden and
the whole world needs to know it
but i dont like convincing you

the garden & the pavement DEMO

song for akira :)

mixed and mastered by John Trainum

Lil Cow

my lonesome was literal 
my hoping is visceral
I use to keep my head above the boards
draw the line between my laws
when someone folds 
the creases more
I miss you lover

coughing my lungs up
and leaving it longer
least the smoking smoked the flaws all beneath that construct
kept it collected and cool for the summer 
i miss you lover

its though i’m proud
of every doubt 
in every sound
i think losing it again
a softer mound
of boy hid down 
inside the ground
it sits about 
in old me 
is every bruise 
and every stitch
a sign of this 
I think that everythings boring
and everythings boring

Boring

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

lets still love us still (demo)

i probably stole these melodies from somewhere

tell me you’re listening
i keep you in foremost front parts of my mind
last night was different
you should promise the first time was the last time

you do things in the moment
when you don’t know if you mean them
when i let down my defenses
pull you out of the deep end
the breaking starts

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
that’s where it starts

sat on memorial benches in homestead
you joke that you’ll leave one for us when we’re both dead
and gone, ashes in homes
the spark on the fuse grew alongside your nose

and i know that’s impossible
so i'll be responsible and
take half the blame, i'll play your game
if you take back your bench, i’ll try not to miss

comfortable silence
the biggest smiles after a kiss
kickflippin sleeping over kissing learning hurting like little kids
i’ll try not to miss

oh why’d you do things in the moment
when you had what you called perfect
now i don’t know if you meant it
now i’m the one in the deep end
you broke my heart

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
can’t we restart

skatepark kickflippin except ive been sick for a week and almost lost my voice

out now on all streaming platforms!!!!!!!

this song is very special to me and i hope you love it <3

written by me (mia), produced by theo hoffstrom (cool guy)

https://ffm.to/miatimsliveforever

the garden & the pavement DEMO

Max Bass