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Keeping Me High

shivers w/ notahero [prod. artemys]

-DespairInToAshes-

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Mastered by ztope


https://on.soundcloud.com/rgfJXSvvKTWbXqou7

the epilogue w/notahero

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

fight this feeling. (feat. notahero) (prod. jolst x shxde)

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up digits hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (feat. notahero)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor
featuring https://soundcloud.com/hoeplessboy

[nvr nvmbr]
my wrist like a freezer
i’m drinkin’ tequila 
this ain’t Aquafina

i’ll bleed, i’m anemic
she said that she needs it
i’m watchin’ her fiendin’, ohhh

i flow like i’m chosen
the city, it’s frozen
she said that i’m goated, ohhh

she’s givin’ me throat
then i’m sendin’ her home
can’t let her get me out my zone

i’m fillin’ my chalice with blood
‘cause i don’t give a fuck
EQ out the mud
now she suckin’ my nuts

i’m with Zane in the truck
you know that we’re drunk
your bitch in the cut
& she’s tryna get fucked

i’ll blow out my brain tonight
i think that i’m goin’ insane tonight
she’s grabbin’ on both of my chains tonight
i thought i never could change, i might

sick to my stomach
fall; feel it plummet
i’m reachin’ towards something
but receivin’ nothing

save time by dyin’ 
‘cause i’m dead inside
you’ll be alright
when i leave you behind

i swear that i’m tryin’ 
& i need you tonight
just come & say hi
can’t get you off my mind..

you know i’ma demon
i’m tweakin’ & geekin’
she’s eatin’ my semen

i ain’t got a reason
you know that i’m leavin’
‘cause you left me bleedin’, ohh

i told you i need it
you changed like a season
i’m way off the deep end

i’m scarin’ my friends & my family
losin’ my sanity
i know that i’ll die in the snow

my wrist like a freezer 
i’m drinkin’ tequila
this ain’t Aquafina

i’ll bleed, i’m anemic
she said that she needs it
i’m watchin’ her fiendin’, ohhh

she’s actin’ so trife 
so i’m grabbin’ my knife
then i’m takin’ that bitch for a ride

[hoepless]
takin’ that bitch for a ride
smokin’ all night but i’m never alright
forgot about her but you stay on my mind
never on his but your always on mine

i’m at home, i’m poppin’ these benzos 
crash this whip it’s a rental 
need her heart but i took her life
that ain’t what i meant tho

you wanna say that you miss me
i wanna say that i miss you
you’re alright when i took your heart
i ain’t know it was ice cold

right time but the wrong hoe
i don’t know what I’m gon’ do
you don’t know that I’m upset
you don’t even know I let you go

you don’t know what I meant
you don’t know how I go
you don’t know how I am
you don’t know how I roll

you don’t know how I am
you don’t know how I go
you don’t know how I am
you don’t know how I go..

tequila

iTunes

i have 76+ hours on the oblivion remake already... talos save me

Praying To The Nines (prod. Ushanka Boy)

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

AFTERLIFE (FT. STAGGY) [PROD. CMAK]

Sudden Moves *prod. ilynedia*

abstractions and vignettes of emotion and experience, i hope you enjoy

all beats by elijah david: https://www.youtube.com/@ElijahDavid_

thank you to notahero and shizukesa for helping complete some tracks and provide a unique perspective to the emotions i've felt

atleastitsrainin with notahero [prod elijah david]

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