LYRICS

I’ve been stuck tryna relax
Between the binary mask,
And my form now free from it’s grasp
Feeling so at home
Dysphoria float away
I need to heal from my past
To free my form from it’s traps,
And my body changing so fast, 
Feeling more it’s own 
Euphoria hold me

Since 16 known I’m different
I been wishing that I’d grown a little more quickly
Face too prickly, hips too thin
I was giving too much of a fuck about how they perceived me 
16 more to respect my reflection 
Working every day to see my gender represented 
Working on my voice, stressing over the inflections 
Didn’t have a choice, I had to mitigate the tension
And I reckon it was destined, 
Bad ass bitch, non-binary transfeminine
Lil’ witch business, switching positions, shit
I’m a goddess, I’m a furry, I’m autistic, woah
I’m the prettiest, wittiest, mystic sibilance, vividest experience, heaven sent 
Blissed out, sadomasochistic 
Whether I’m a Dom or I’m a sub,
Quantum physics!

Space traveler, I been mapping out a couple galaxies
Rapping ‘bout my travesties, killing it
Don’t matter cos I keep on, 
I’m the wrong t-girl to put the heat on 
Play life like I really got the cheats on 
Roll dice like I only got a D4
I write better when I think freeform, 
Late night, tossing and turning like I’m a seesaw 

It’s ok!
Better these days ‘til I’m in my grave 
Know I ain’t waste time, I just make waves
I embrace change like I’m on the next stage
Double Em level up,
It’s ok!
Better these days ‘til I’m in my grave 
Know I ain’t waste time, I just make waves
I embrace change like I’m on the next stage
Double Em level up, yuh!

I’ve been stuck tryna relax
Between the binary mask,
And my form now free from it’s grasp
Feeling so at home
Dysphoria float away
I need to heal from my past
To free my form from it’s traps,
And my body changing so fast, 
Feeling more it’s own 
Euphoria hold me

Way back when this journey started
Second guessing my own heart,
And distance grew between my parts 
The way that trauma shaped my arc 
I was tearing myself apart, unsustainable
Made who I wanted to be unattainable
Had to find a person I could relate to
In order to become more capable, changeable
Once I had a role model, I was unshakeable 
The inspiration grew and the feeling was unmistakable
The gender roles I grew up with started to feel replaceable 
Reclaiming the feminine self clearly became favorable
They finding me so confrontational 
Bitch, my existence not debatable

wildflowers

free form (𝘧𝘵. 𝘒𝘪𝘮) - 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘥. 𝘚𝘵𝘰𝘪𝘤

THE REAL RAP CARACAL. SPACE JAGUAR. LOFI GODDESS.
~almost a good rapper & non binary angel~

31 || They/Them/She/Her

@crashblossomsclique