Break The Illusion

Lyrics:

Open minded like JFK
Paranoid that I’ll be killed any day
Fuck any of the racks that I might make 
Everything on this earth 
Will eventually burn away
So I can’t say 
That I’m looking forward to another day
Anyone I might know
Could turn on me for mullah
So I’m stone cold like Medusa
Heart froze like a cooler
Give a fuck about the love and hate 
These feelings I can’t articulate 
Negative vibes are ripping through my skin
I don’t think I need to demonstrate 
Hurt myself time and time again
When I’m feeling sad 
Suicidal tendencies tend to win
You turn a blind eye 
every time I’m feeling bad 
Now you act surprised 
When I turn up dead
—
My life be full of lies
Ima fill myself with lead
Bodies dropping 
But I still can’t get rid of you
Now I’m hurting 
Yeah I’m always feeling blue
Veins running cold 
But the thermometer go through the roof
Blood boiling hot 
My wrath and fury is overdue
(Woah woah woah)
(Aye malxcxous go ahead and Smxle)
(Aye malxcxous go ahead and fucking Smxle)
(Go ahead and fucking Smxle Wah!)
It’s been a long day
Let’s go ahead and wrap it up
Ahaha okay I gotchu
—
Malxcxous the head rippa
Taliban
Soul snatcher creeping out 
The shadow land
Steel slashing blood spray
Like an avalanche 
Talk tough now they praying 
With a shattered hand
They don’t want war just smoke 
For the Instagram
No heart I dissect em’
Like a diagram
Wires in my brain twitch
Programmed to withstand
Lurkin’ where the silence breathe
Welcome to the wasteland
Trophies in a duffel bag
Marked with a spray can
Malxcxous the name 
They whisper when the plague land
Final breath drawn
now they sleep in the quicksand
Malxcxous the end 
not a person, just a hitman

Smxle

Lyrics:

I’m a fucking outlaw
Bitch I always been about the cash 
Rob a motherfucker 
Turn his body into ash
Turn a hoe into a psycho 
Who be fienin’ for me  
Gave her such a good time
She was screaming for me 
Now I’m out the fuckin door 
The speed I have exceeded 
Hear the squeals 
Nah it ain’t my tires peeling 
-
Blood on the dash
got no time for the healing
Heart iced out
yeah my pain it got no ceiling
Driftin’ through the night 
I love a classic Mitsubishi 
Name in they mouth
but they scared to say my name
Malxcxous_Smxle the title 
Don’t wear it out mannnnn
—
Never leave a witness
Shedding silence through my pain
Midnight whippin’ 
steady swervin’ 
In the rain
Cold steel tucked
Got a demon in my brain
Cruisin’ past graves 
Like I’m part of the terrain
Laughing at the reaper
Cause I stole away his fame
Young psycho Killa 
I’m engulfed by my wrath
Outlawed soul
I was never on the path
(Pause)
You do the math
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All this fucking trauma 
Got me living a lie 
Smiling for everyone 
Even though I wanna die 
Looking down at my arm 
Thinking why’d I quit
I’m still hurting 
Ain’t it obvious 
I don’t need a psychologist 
To tell me somethings wrong 
I’ve always been a psycho man
Where the fuck my meds 
I’m tryna make my body drop
Here come the Fed’s 
As soon as I take out my opps
Born a fuckin threat 
I was a lethal weapon 
Give me that injection 
I’ll make it quick 
With Smith & Wesson 
Give a fuck about the fame
People always switching lanes 
Never trust nobody 
Lone Wolf 
Solo 
Dolo
I’m an Outlaw

Outlaw

Lyrics:

Siphoning all the souls from my enemies
God got my back 
I don’t trust no serpentine
I’ve had wings on my body 
But they burnt off with the halo man
Ever since I lost my innocence 
I’ve had a life full of pain
Staying inside 
yeah I’m classified 
People ask 
who am I 
I’m just another regular guy 
Until you meet my eyes
Trauma meeting the openings 
Of my wounds on the outside
On the inside I just want to die
But I still got hope for what’s right
—
I always wanted scales 
To protect myself from harm
But I could never help 
Putting more scars on my arm
People want me to save myself 
But I can’t feel bothered 
I was raised in hell yea
Ima regain my honor
—
[Switch-Up]
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Waiting to overcome my pain 
It’s gonna be a while
I’ve been lacing my drugs and alcohol
With denial
I feel fear
I feel shame
Bleeding through existential pain
Pray for me but I’ll never be saved
A long time ago 
My soul was taken away
Now I’m burdened by my shackles
Ain’t shit left here to tackle 
All my problems have been multiplied
Do you see hate in my eyes
Overshadowed by thoughts of death
And suicide
But who am I 
To say that it ain’t worth a try 
To dig myself out of this hole 
With hopes of a better life
I’ll tell you why 
I don’t deserve 
No redemption 
From birth I was forsaken
Forced to remember 
My past transgressions 
And erase the rest of my mind 
Oh why?

Bludgeon

Lyrics: 

Everyday tasks 
Got me feeling wrecked 
Depression climbing high
Make me wanna cut my neck 
So I slice 
Then I roll the dice
Hoping to meet with the reaper man
Go ahead and put an end 
To my misery and pain 
What a shame it is 
That I couldn’t last long 
I’m throwing everything away
From my bedroom
Hoping they won’t find out 
When I buy my spot 
At the gravesite
Wiping your tears 
Spiritually telling them that it’ll be alright
But I could no longer divide my pain 
Into slivers 
So now I’m hoping that I’m better off 
with my demons
—
(Yea)
(Yea)
(Fuck)
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Yeah it’s so tragic I know 
Wishing just to bring a shred of hope 
But I stay locked away
Daily decaying from my mental state
She told me to get help 
But she the one who fucked my brain
Now I’m losing consciousness
My life slowly subsiding 
I don’t know who real no more 
So I can’t fucking ride 
No bitch I’m dying 
Slowly take away the things 
That give me anxiety 
Trust myself to die soon 
Even though it’s unlikely
Bottling up everything so I can’t fuck up
But when I explode 
I’ll turn the earth into a tundra
Know that I’m bipolar 
Cause my feelings are switching up 
Are you really asking me if I gave a fuck
I gave it all I had 
But you never listened
Disrespected me 
Now I’m in this position
Don’t blame me for what my feelings say
You cannot change me 
because I have walked away
I still plan to express myself 
until the day
That I can no longer 
hold the reigns

“Assisted” Suicide

Lyrics:

Darkness surrounding my life
Don’t know how long 
I can hold on the ties 
That bind me to light
Looking at me 
She got eyes full of demise 
She know if I take my life 
It won’t be a surprise 
That’s why I gotta blackout 
Before I fuckin drive 
—
Looking around at the mess I’ve made
She’s so tempting 
She know how to serenade
Got me strung out 
Like a tweaker in a cage
Nah I ain’t no mage
Nah don’t burn no sage
Hate me if you want 
This is just my DNA
Got my atoms colliding 
My problems subsided
The drugs rewinding 
My mind 
Hope is just me guessing that 
It’ll be alright 
Fuck
——
I crush the cyanide between my teeth 
Just so I can rot and die 
See my bad traits multiply 
Give a fuck that I’m high
Screaming suicide until I die
Don’t want kids in this life
Everything is so far out of reach 
It seems to be at all the times 
That I’m ready to take a step forward
Going through this life man I can’t stay sober
Need to hand a deity my controller 
Take over my body 
Before I go bipolar mode
I’m out my fucking mind 
All the time
Shredding through the ties 
That bind me to this life
And I still look to the sky
Just to ask god why 
I can’t reinvent 
My life to have a better time 
Oh no
—

BLACKOUT

Lyrics:


Fuck it all 
Thinking it might end tonight
Drinking & smoking 
Until my soul is out of sight
Thoughts moving faster 
I think I overdid it 
Now I’m losing my mind 
This ain’t a fucking figment 
Of my imagination 
I got the rooms spinning violent 
Walls closing in
You could say that I’m Dramatic
Tears they dry up
But my pain stay on automatic
Voices in my head
Telling me I’m all I got
Shadow in the mirror
Smirking like he want my spot
I been dead inside
But my body never dropped
Numb to all the pain 
Can’t tell if I’ve been stopped
No
—
Blank stare, cold veins 
Every answer I’ve given 
Has been mocked 
Can’t tell who I am now
-
Blank stare, cold veins 
Every answer I’ve given 
Has been mocked 
Can’t tell who I am now
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Somebody just stop the clock 
My shift is done 
I’m clocking out
Brain is fried 
I’m too far now
Shadows they follow me 
Demons surrounding me 
Just waiting to watch me drop 
Stick the barrel in they mouth 
Hoping they can guess the round 
Is it 45 or 9? Time to find out.
I’ve been killing away 
Every second of time I’ve got
If life’s a loaded gun 
Then I’m stuck in the chamber (Ha)
Ain’t this gods greatest joke 
The fact that I cannot die 
I’ve fantasized about many ways 
of taking my life

Disillusion

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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