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The Live Set

Cloud Occlusion - 38

Cobblestone Set

Eggshells and rollercoasters
I don’t know which I fear the most
Just waiting for the explosion
It comes even when not provoked
You sidle up to me
And bury your head in my chest
Your arms, they pull me
Even sleeping, you’re not at rest

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Your laughter flows through me
Makes me happy like nothing else
Those who know, those who knew me
See a softness I never possessed
You’re the blinding sunlight
That peeps through the hole in the fence
Your light you like to keep hidden 
A perfect line of defence 

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Hold tight, hang tough
You are enough
Hold tight, hang tough
You are enough

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Eggshells & Rollercoasters

Verse 1
As I touch your trembling shoulder
I say love shouldn’t be this hard
You’re afraid to look at me
Scared I'll start
To make you talk, to make you think
Join the dots, find the link
You know that I won’t rest.. until I…

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Verse 2
It’s not the nail, that’s all you see
So hand that hammer straight to me
You think that you've all the answers
But I know that you are wrong
So I will fight you, I will bite
I will find a way to prove what’s right
You know that I won’t rest…..until I…

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you...

Verse 3
I know you turn onto yourself
Silence every cry for help
Let darkness kill the pain
It did before, it will again
But I am here to disabuse you
Of that notion, of that cure
And my kindness might feel cruel
Because it’s new to you and I will….

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Bridge
I know it’s hard to surrender
It’s hard to be helped
But sometimes you have to accept
That you can’t fix yourself

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Heal You

I see your silver hair and your smile
So proud yet all the while
Pleased to lead from behind
You always took the time
To let us speak our minds 
So sure that we’d shine

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

So many nights, by the phone
You said never walk alone
So you ferried us home
Not a harsh word from your lips
Just the same sound script
And a hug and a kiss

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

Now I’ve kids of my own
I see them through your eyes as they grow
You’d have loved them, I know
So I bring you to them instead
An extra kiss to the head
As I put them to bed

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

Glowing Embers

I call to talk but I have nothing to say
I just want to hear your voice
I act like I don’t have a care in the world
And that not being yours was my choice
I wanted to tell you that I can’t stop thinking
Of you, your face, and your ways
But words once spoken can’t be reclaimed
So I play the role of friend instead

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

Your touch is accidental
But it hits like an lightening bolt
My face is a mask, I’ll never show
The feelings you evoke
Are you really not aware
Of the chaos you create
When you’re not here, I’m clear of mind
But one look and I can't think straight

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

I rest my hand on your seat
When I travel alone
You’re a ghost in my days
Presence felt, never shown
Not a chill, but a warmth in my bones
Like a secret, comforting shawl

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

False Friend

Feel that pain it happens when you care
Lean right in, embrace it if you dare
Dangerous days, perilous nights
I’ll take the reins, hold on tight

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me

One step first, my love is all you need
Soon your thirst for more will set you free
Joyful days, blissful nights  
 Sit with me, hold me tight

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me
  
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
Don’t hold back cos life won’t wait
If there’s never love, there’ll never be loss              
We’ll all be shielded but at what cost

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me

Risk the Fall

Blue Dream

All arrangement, instrumentation, production, mixing and magic dust by  the astoundingly talented and very patient @jambrains  

Verse 1:
You think you know what's going on but you don't 
You call it out so that I hear but I won't 
Never learn don't you see you've gotta let it be 

She's mine you've got to see that it's so
She's fine I swear it's time to let go
When will you realise that we all know you’re spreading lies 

Chorus:
Hands off she's mine
Really she's fine 
Go find yourself a new obsession 
Take your love away
Take your love away
Cos it’s not helping 

Verse 2:
We've reached the point the damage is done 
When will you see that she's can’t be won 
Divide and conquer was your aim it was a losing game  

They’re so united it’s hard to break in
I know you tried but you could never really win
Can't break the bond, it's too strong

Chorus:
Hands off she's mine
Really she's fine 
Go find yourself a new obsession 
Take your love away
Take your love away
Cos it’s not helping

Bridge:
Couldn’t you be happy with what you had?
You had to push and push and push and make me mad
Step away now
Step away

Hands Off (She's Mine) feat. Jambrains

Again @martimedia has taken my tracks and worked his magic on a mix. Bruce plays bass....

Verse 1:
You catch me unawares
As I listen again and again
Your words touch me deeply 
In a way that I don't comprehend

I didn't know what I was feeling
Till I found you
I was blissfully melancholic
My sadness unassumed


Chorus:
If I don't know I'm hurting
Does it mean that I'm fine?
And if you don't know I hear you
How can I make you mine?


Verse 2:
Push past my defences
My sword and my shield
I was fooling myself so completely
With lies ingrained and lies believed

Pierced by the weapons you wielded
Your words and your voice
Pared away my illusions
And exposed my every choice

Chorus:
If I don't know I'm hurting
Does it mean that I'm fine?
And if you don't know I hear you
How can I make you mine?


M8
I can't turn you off again
Now you're playing in my head
You can't unsay, I can't unhear
The things you said


Chorus:
If I don't know I'm hurting
Does it mean that I'm fine?
And if you don't know I hear you
How can I make you mine?

If You Don't Know

When an explanation is confusing, you want it to be clarified

Explain Yourself

Awfully Keen

here's a (hopefully) hard to hate remix produced with many thanks to CODENAME : CATATONIC https://soundcloud.com/todgeetar for writing/recording the insanely perfect electric riffs i always heard playing along with this song but my homie, Krainmaker feared would bully his beloved acoustic track.  now that this version's dropped,  i adamantly believe i was bang on and they complement each other beautifully.

for those feelin it, you'll likely find joy in the original, conveniently linked below-

https://soundcloud.com/spinmanfinn/grewvee-train

written/recorded by Spinman Finn/ D. Krain / G. Lindo / W. Brewster / T. Salin
vocals courtesy Lisa Lindo
©2017, Urban Must Music (SOCAN)
direct inquiries to spinmanfinn@gmail.com
finally followable on Twitter @SpinmanFinn #occasionallyinteresting
for sonic inspirations search Spinman Finnlist on youtube

Electric greWVeeland (Spinner Production)

All fab guitar and bass tracks provided by @rosarius (guitar) and Bruce (bass). 

Verse 1:
Not deep and meaningful just real
A chance is lost to tell you how I feel
As I cover up the gaping hole you miss
My smile is just a curving of my lips

Pre-chorus:
The great pretence
My last defence
You see I'm hiding
And every day
Is a chance to say
Please come and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Verse 2:
As I carry out my daily work by rote
The date passes yearly without note
A testament to being in control
You assume the loss it, took so little toll

Pre-chorus:
So bloody hard
Not to discard
What won't define me
And every day 
Is a chance to say
Please try and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Open Up a Crack

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DĒP & The Anthropophobia Project - Take From Me

Isolation is my protection from the world pushing through
Shutting down seems like the easier thing to do
I close my eyes and cover my ears to lock the past away
You keep telling me that's a battle I'll lose every day

Why should I listen to you
Listen to you
Why should I listen to you
Listen to you
Listen to you

So many years getting away from the life I knew before
So many faces lost to me now, I don't want to see them any more
You say that I should throw wide open the windows to the past
But you had dreams and I had nightmares and a fear built to last

Why should I listen to you
Listen to you
Why should I listen to you
Listen to you
Listen to you


The world is full of bleeding hearts needing salvation
But not me
Shut down time is my safety line,
My sanctuary
Go spend your time on some other poor soul
Don't borrow my trouble to make you feel whole
Make you feel whole, make you feel whole, make you feel




Why should I listen to you
Listen to you
Why should I listen to you
Listen to you
Listen to you

Listen to You

Contortions

BVs by the lovely Emma J

How could you do it right in front of me
You told me I was special that you'd never leave
You took her hand so gently as you dropped mine like a stone
You promised me forever yet I'm sitting here alone

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

What changed in me for you to see me differently
To dull the wonder in your eyes when you look at me
To silence all the compliments that came so easily
Are the promises you keep for her the ones you broke on me

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

The shock has faded now at last
You're a feature of my past
I wouldn't believe it
If I hadn't seen it
The person you've become is one you swore you'd never be 

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

Cold Hands

It's not the losing that I hate
It's the constant hope that's killing me
As I pick myself up off the floor 
I find I want to try once more
I close my ears to logic
Cos the odds are not what's willing me on
It's my crazy stubborn need to show you
I'm the one who wants it most

Watch me lose my mind in pursuit of my soul
Seek perfection but want so much more
As I chase unattainable goals
I walk away alone

It's not the winning that I crave
It's the fear of giving up that's driving me
So what if my delusion gets  right under your skin
Don't you know that I am happily ignoring 
All of your advice for me
Cos I'd rather own my failures
And listen to my sage within

Watch me lose my mind in pursuit of my soul
Seek perfection but want so much more
As I chase unattainable goals
I walk away alone

I'll walk my walk
And you won't stop me
Just sit back, enjoy the ride
To know best 
Must be a burden
Throw it off and take my side

Watch me lose my mind in pursuit of my soul
Seek perfection but want so much more
As I chase unattainable goals
I walk away alone

Lose My Mind

All songs on channel are original and copyright of Karen O'Mahony (c). 

You'll find me also here in my collaboration project with Johan Alm https://soundcloud.com/ashesfordreams

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