catch me/differences

Yeah
Ugh
How the hell do I tell what's right from wrong
It always seems like everyone got it put together oh
I don't think I care enough to get on
At this point I hate making every song
Honestly it don't bring me peace anymore
I reminisce when I was sleeping on the floor with my dad
Wanted everything it never mattered what I couldn't have
Now my vision distorted and I been heading down the wrong path
I was supposed to learn from my mistakes now I might crash
Why the fuck do I keep breaking down
I think I really fucking hate me now
I'm closer to the end
Can anybody somebody just hear me out
No who
Don't ask me how I'm doing
When everything gets rough I'm holding on
I aint really that tough I aint really that strong
Its my fucking life I ruined
I don't wanna get into it oh
Lately I'm the clown or I'm the pawn everyday I'm feeling stupid oh

I give advice to everyone but never take my own
I got problems on problems I guess you can say I'm grown
And I wonder how they'll feel when I'm dead and I'm gone
Tell my mom plant a tree when its time
I don't wanna tombstone
I don't want nobody crying
I don't wanna do wrong
I just wanna make it right
I sit at this laptop
Complaining about my spot
But I know that there's others that don't got it like I got
Used to put it on my mother one day I would pop
If you ask me now Ill tell you ima stop
Its not the same as before
Cause I don't want it like I did anymore
I don't see the point tell me what its for
I cant go one day being sober
This my dream and I think its over
Oh its over

overU

overU [p. silver + august]

we are fine but we're not (prod. drmabeats, ayoley, miroow)

respite

Lyrics:

okay clearly i dont think that we'll be making it thru
you got these thoughts in your mind and you dont clarify
time could expire but i'll still stay by your side
it's evident to me that you dont see what i see

i just tried to bury the hatchet but you dug my grave
embed it in my neck wont see another day
i just wanna be okay but i dont think i can
it's so strange to me how quick you found another man

[bridge]

okay clearly i dont think that we'll be making it thru
you got these thoughts in your mind and you dont clarify
time could expire but i'll still stay by your side
it's evident to me that you dont see what i see

i just tried to bury the hatchet but you dug my grave
embed it in my neck wont see another day
i just wanna be okay but i dont think i can
it's so strange to me how quick you found another ma--

[skrwd]

I see all the shit you say
I heard about him
He seems great
Bet he lays with you all day and knows exactly what to say
Pay attention to the signs
Know his hands don’t fit like mine
Might be gone inside your mind but you’re still alive in mine
I regret how I moved
Sometimes i wanna redo
No matter how hard you try
There’s just no stopping the truth
Might have a girl in the room 
But I still wish she was you
So anytime that you want
You can come thru
I been workin OT
Posted up in OC
Shawty want Chanel 
She can get it, girl you know me
Even after all this time I feel you in the late night

[getbetter]

okay clearly i dont think that we'll be making it thru
you got these thoughts in your mind and you dont clarify
time could expire but i'll still stay by your side
it's evident to me that you dont see what i see

i just tried to bury the hatchet but you dug my grave
embed it in my neck wont see another day
i just wanna be okay but i dont think i can
it's so strange to me how quick you found another man

hold me close for just a single night
time goes by as the stars change overnight
and i dont wanna be on the receiving side
i already gave too much of my life

so dont hold me down
while i try to seek out shelter
cause this life that im living it aint the same as it was
and im tryna find some shelter from the storm i know is comin

bury it ft. skrwd (branwen)

lyrics:

one night...
i wait and i take my time 
i wanted to find a way
to make it all seem okay
when it makes you feel alone
but i'm ready to say i 
couldn't leave it in the way
i couldn't make myself settle down
couldn't settle down

and suddenly...
i'm waiting for summertime
won't fall asleep at all
i won't let go
i don't want to get in my head
because i won't live in my head
it's hard for me you know?
to get everything that you said out of mind
because i'm still waiting on the stars to shine
like you said
heaven-sent 4AM
i don't know
like we're told, so it goes

(chorus)

april

good morning ft. sace6 *hayden havoc*

w1th0ut 4 tr4c3
f4b13
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@jolst & @punkworldthreat
art: @ejcarrmusic
ep soon...
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lyrics:

aint shit hard for me at all
i be down so much i forget i know how to ball
i can’t get enough when im wit u i want it all
i been up i cannot fall
hit the pen then dip im writin fables on the wall
hear my story loud im quiet im not standing tall
i cant rly stand up for myself much anyway
feel the consequences while im withering away

back n im takin the backseat
baby i need to relax we
takin it quicker than maxi
yeah, uh
thick skull like a pachy (dinosaur reference)
order up for the pack meet
re up at the acme
i been on go so long i forget how to sit down
i smoke double duffel bag i cannot sit down
i know shit always come up so i dont go out
this the hardest part of livin on my own now
no one ever ask me why im on my own now
shit like this why im always in a break down
this november so much colder than the last one
maybe thats a sign i gotta move it past ya

aint shit hard for me at all
i be down so much i forget i know how to ball
i can’t get enough when im wit u i want it all
i been up i cannot fall
hit the pen then dip im writin fables on the wall
hear my story loud im quiet im not standing tall
i cant rly stand up for myself much anyway
feel the consequences while im withering away

its silence that haunts me
i cant focus im watching
where u go when im talking
u once told me u want me
whats the point in such conflict
life is futile and short lived
i cant spend it in jersey
losing friends before thirty, fuck

i been wasting so much time
next thing i know 20s gonna pass me right on by
gotta get it goin fore im running out of time
always running out of time

without a trace

fable [jolst x punk]

spotify & apple

i was waiting downstairs on my own 
staring at the painting 
are you coming home ?
i bet you're still debating 
i can feel the pain in my chest escalating 
i just punched a wall cause I'm feeling animated 

i get angry i get mad over heated
had to turn to drugs cause i was seeing demons
pressure in my heart yeah i keep on bleeding 
still waiting for you to come home again
to complete my healing 
times going fast haven't seen you for seasons
didn't take any pictures cause i didn't think i'll need them
can't look through my memories cause i burnt them for treason 

i was waiting downstairs on my own 
staring at the painting 
are you coming home ?
i bet you're still debating 
i can feel the pain in my chest escalating 
i just punched a wall cause I'm feeling animated x2

what could of been?  
you kept me the dark like an eyesore 
you hid me away from reality
got me thinking why your still fucking mad at me 

why your still fucking mad at me?
i tried my best yeah i tried fucking everything 
you don't know me
you don't know me
you don't know me
part of me feels like I'm just a phoney

animated (jolst)

new single produced by @irby314 & @pekarot_161

lyrics:

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
It's hard to fill the satisfaction
Moving target, always lacking
It's like you took everything that I ever wanted
Hidden on the surface
Planted urges
Now you're saying I should
Walk away
Walk away

When I came back I told you
None of this can stay
So you took something you knew I wanted
Wrapped it up in shame
Old standards mold the frustration
Presenting this duel fate
I'm still standing to find the answers
Are they written on your
Are they written on your face

Oh can I
Just forget about last night
Try to focus on what's mine and what's right
What's mine and what's right

Watching you walk away
Forced against one place
Still begging to escape
Oh does it even matter
Oh does it even matter

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
Like it's not what you asked for
So don't say
Walk Away

moving target [prod. irby & pekarot]

Woke up at 10
Took a 10 
Cause I ain’t myself 
My only friends
Inside my head 
He says get some help
But you can’t listen to what he says 
cause he talks to himself
What’s he really know 
When he’s got nobody else 
I feel lost 
Stuck standing where the streets cross 

She says I look out of it 
Like im tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so im working all night  

I gotta be delirious thinking I can change my life     
Staying up through the night with these bloodshot eyes 
Got a little routine watching the sun rise 
But Im learning how to not hate myself 
Im still watching after everybody else 
Im still figuring out all of these fine lines 
Between alternate timelines
The last time I checked in I was in good health 
What’s the point in having it if I’m gonna ruin it 
Its almost like the pent up the fear in losing it 
Stops me from ever enjoying any of it    
Im just filling the emptiness…  
With a little more emptiness 

She says I look out of it 
Like I’m tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so I’m working all night
She says I look out of it 
Like I’m tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so I’m working all night    

Focus on the target that’s ahead of you 
Life is like a contest 
And everyones ahead of you 
There’s nothing you could ever do 
It was never up to you 
It was never meant for you

animated (jolst)

nevermadeithome

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