The Upload

lyrics:

use to think that i would end my life
different bottle, still the same night
looking at myself in the mirror
wishing i could just disappear
so i did i took a trip and i really needed it
gave me time to clear my head and thinkof what to do instead
of focusing on all the wrong things
i'll be grateful for everything like

thank god, thank god, thank god
for getting me through it
thank god, thank god, thank god
for getting me through it
thank god, thank god, thank god
for getting me through it
all of these things i love
came to me through him

tell me something that you love
(i could tell you where it came from)
tell me something that you had that you lost
when it left had you feeling like a drug
thats a lesson from the man from above
tell me what you're scared of
guess what, no one gets through life alive
might as well enjoy your life
everybody makes mistakes
guess that's just what learning takes
but will we ever learn?
i'm just trying to return

(i'm just trying to return)

thank god, thank god, thank god
for getting me through it
thank god, thank god, thank god
for getting me through it
thank god, thank god, thank god
for getting me through it
all of these things i love
came to me through him

smile! (you will never make it out alive)

ty to everyone hopping on and travvy for the nedarb beat :)
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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: Robstar, teddyboi, popularreject & Nkno
Production: Nedarb
Mixing: lil XipZ, Robstar, teddyboi, popularreject & Nkno
Mastering: lil XipZ
Cover Art: Physs
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LYRICS

[Intro: Robstar]
I already wrote you a letter but I scrapped it
Tore it to pieces, abandoned the ashes
Hoping you were better after what happened
But I know for a fact you don't need that

So I wrote this letter after adapting
I found a life that I want you back in
And even if it plays the same as our last fling
Fuck it I'd be happy with a relapse

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
im writing love letters
i hope they get to you
heart cold just like december
wrote this on a friday afternoon
your voice is all i remember
but your ghost haunts me in my room
your perfume fragrance on my sweater
wonder if ill ever forget you

[Verse 1: Teddyboi]
me and you on these late night binges
taking percs up the nose with syringes
how could i forget you? pretty fucking easily
now i show up to the street i been lookin for revenge uh
sparking up the blunt like im burning down my bridges
late night binges, percy got me itchin
had to kill you baby, im sorry i didnt mean to
im just angry and anxious and the pills stay between you

[verse 2: popularreject]
ha, fuck you
FUCK!
youre a piece of shit.
I FUCKING HATE YOU!
broke me into pieces
when all i really needed was some love n affection
I fucking hate you.
shit was great, shit was fun
now im up every night
and im writing bout how much i fucking hate you
fade to black, flash to white
now im wasting all my time
but the point is that i mother fucking hate you

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
im writing love letters
i hope they get to you
heart cold just like december
wrote this on a friday afternoon
your voice is all i remember
but your ghost haunts me in my room
your perfume fragrance on my sweater
wonder if ill ever forget you

[Verse 3: Nkno]
pick up the pen, so what am i writing down?
i know i let you go and i know i let you down
i see you changing with the seasons
thats a whole other reason
why i always try my best in every situation?
every situa-a-a
and i ask myself if ill even make it
make it

Love Letter (w/ Robstar, teddyboi, popularreject & Nkno) [Prod. Nedarb]

sometimes im a fuck up but know that im still me

Low Bat

low bat

Churchill Downs REMIX

yeah i know
that i'm a bad friend 
you don't have to tell me twice 
yeah i know 
i don't deserve you 
i'm sorry for letting you down 

i'm always in my head i'm 
always in a mess i'm 
fucked up cause i dont know the best time 
sun goes down 
sun goes up
still the same old me 
bad luck
ships left shore
i'm stuck here 
dangling my legs off this wooden pier 
i might jump 
i might fly 
i might crash 
i might die 

yeah i know
that i'm a bad friend 
you don't have to tell me twice 
yeah i know 
i don't deserve you 
i'm sorry for letting you down

bad friend

Everything is never everlasting 
Let that pussy sing while she gag me
I was so ashamed when you met me 
I sit alone while they @ me 

Ball boy you a ball boy 
Get me a Gatorade 
Sad stuff on my Samsung 
Pills in minute made 
Bad bitch I’m with a bad bitch 
You know we sleep in late 
Madness life is madness but I’m getting paid 

Masking off pain when you let me 
I said bitch you’re my caffeine 
I was so worried that you stabbed me 
Life is all worries till we’re buried 

Guido boi bumping lil soda boi
If I make this money then would you call me?
remember Halloween party it still haunts me 
Remember boys would mock me but now they jock me 
Yeah yeah yeah 

Everything is never everlasting 
Let that pussy sing while  she gag me
I was so ashamed when you met me 
I sit alone while they @ me 

Oh I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Yeah I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Let me figure it out 

I was in pain when you met me 
Waterworks drained to the backseat 
If I leave now would you stab me?
Your kiss tastes like morphine 
like morphine 
like morphine 
Morphine 
Morphine

guido boy bumpin lil soda boi (prod.Inkivi)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive, 

shitty take, what y say, ik ur joking right,
we gon pull up with them toys, we staying up all night, 
yea u better watch ur back they're lurking with the knife, 
you will see the light, 
the fire will ignite,

eating all these shots, when will I just let go, 
I won’t work w u, a snake since the get go,  
I’ve been feeling blue, I deserve a halo 

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive,

im a bad guy, put them bodies in a freezer, 
telling lies in my head, I don’t need her,
But they know I do all this just to please her

and I know that I’m fucked up crazy,
2 blades on my hip cuz they hate me ,
and I promise I won’t change as of lately,
2 pills in my cup it’s amazing x2

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive,

get me high [tiresss]

Lyrics⬇️

its not a coincidence that i ruin everything in life
maybe if i just applied myself then they would think I tried 

i cant get myself to try if i dont think i have anything i should live for
why dont i just do more
cuz i spent way too many cold nights on the floorboards
i wish i could restore
i wish i could feel more

but i been stuck like this for longer than you know 
i dont feel like anybody even thinks that i could grow
cuz its been like this forever i dont see a place to go
i dont think that its been better but i swear that i can hope
i wish that you saw my life through my eyes and then you’d know 
that every single night since you been gone i felt broke
& i dont even tell you why i love myself, i dont
cuz i dont even tell you that i trust myself, i dont

i check my phone
its jus like a 100 messages to come home
i dont wanna do that anytime id rather be alone
 i been chillin on my own
im still happy what i chose

back then i swear i would do the most
and nowdays im not even close but you still think ill overdose

and it dont matter what i say if you dont think ill ever know
just how you really feel every time i touch the stove

all my cells have been straight burned from all the stuff inside my body
clearly i been stuck on every oerson who ever turned on me

please dont stab my back
i would rather do anything just to hear ur laugh
again 
i would do everything i never did up inside my head
i was stuck up in my bed everytime you time you said im next up
i dont wanna hear u tell me that im just the best of 3
bet those 2 other people had everything over me

best of 3 (mackk)

lyrics


when i woke up 
i saw ur body in that box
uve made ur decision 
while i sit here and rot
i keep tryna push off these blessings that i got
tell me would you still be there when the frost forms
im so damn greedy oh we couldve got more
i reject the meaning should i sit and watch more
i was never real so i bought more 
oh i bleed in bad forms

not what i want
disbelief in what i saw
is it all good now
as it all burns down

bullshit on my phone
i had to cut it off
tell me am i prone
to losing what i got
sometimes u jus have
to let it run its course
i pour up this liquor 
and my fate restored

when i woke up 
i saw ur body in that box
uve made ur decision 
while i sit here and rot
i keep tryna push off these blessings that i got
tell me wuld you still be there when the frost forms
im so damn greedy oh we couldve got more
i reject the meaning should i sit and watch more
i was never real so i bought more 
oh i bleed in bad forms

made of ice (sorrowbringer)

take it from me
devilish habits the fruit from a tree
dont wanna be 
the person they thought 
i would never achieve 
no enemies 
stick to myself 
while they talk about me
dont wanna link
lately theres been too much pressure to think
 7 to 3 
you hear the numbers 
dont know what it means
not what i need
your negative energies 
not what i need
smokin the tree
dont wanna talk 
why you talkin to me
dont wanna link
keepin my distance 
like its a disease

i dont like that shit
pull the light back i
try to keep distant but 
runnin right back
it’s everything that ive wanted 
and its everything that im not
saved seats for summons
flip pages read the lies
reach out for nothing
they took the light
reach out for nothing 
it hurt deep inside
guess that its tough
never get back what i thought was a light
look in my eyes
never a truth from your rhythm despite

7 to 3 (6astard)

lyrics<3

more than friends back then
now we’re not good
mixing thoughts up in head
like i said i would
laying roses on the bed when i walk thru

wash it away like the sins of a martyr
thirsty for my blood im a lamb to your slaughter
dont need any love so i dont know why i bother
pushing till you shove, i fell deep into your water 

think twice
next time you worry about me
girl ill be alright
i wear my heart on my sleeve
and idk why
ur always there in my dreams
when im falling asleep 
ur the ghost in my sheets 
its not easy being someome you dont want now
and its freezing, guess thats why i never go out
fight the feeling 
got me waiting for the comedown
every week,
i pave the streets of this ghostown

baby not thats not love
you leave me evrry other day
tried to lift u up
but you dont wanna have it that way
i wont stick around till you break
my lifes an endless cycle, im a moth to your flame

i wish the process wasent so hard
cuz everytime i tried to quit i hit the restart

overcome with guilt while I’m gassing up my room, I know that it won’t help 
but im scared to face the truth

ghost town [under the maple tree]

Lyrics:

kiddamo:
Calling my phone like I'ma pick it up
Drunk inside the party and girl I'm throwing up
All this money on me and it still ain’t enough
Fake it till you make it can you catch my bluff?
Living everyday with a broken heart
I'ma different man when I'm in my car
Gobble up the pussy like a pop tart
Better not miss or you’ll see the stars
Dangerous, dangerous
Fuck around with me and it get dangerous
Dangerous, dangerous
They don’t even know what i’m saying
Everybody wanna be famous
Yeah I'm hoping that they put me on a playlist
Dangerous, dangerous, dangerous, dangerous

MisFiiT:
Put us on a playlist about time
I was feelin dead now I'm feelin alright
I got many options it’s a rougelike
sad music or fuck shit

You hate that we up cry me a river
Ring ring ring I got no answer
You're a toxic ass bitch you remind me of cancer
But I still can’t get you out of my mind

*Instrumental Break*

Liru.:
I'm a player but don't play me it get dangerous
Shawty wanna stick around wanna get fame with us
Too tired for this shit but I'm staying up
Laid back in the benz or a bentley truck

That girl kept on calling my phone so I bought a new one
I got way too high damn I almost done went to pluto
My brother thought he wont make I told him you wrong
Fuck saving up im gon grind my way to a two toned

kiddamo:
Calling my phone like I'ma pick it up
Drunk inside the party and girl I'm throwing up
All this money on me and it still ain’t enough
Fake it till you make it can you catch my bluff?
Living everyday with a broken heart
I'ma different man when I'm in my car
Gobble up the pussy like a pop tart
Better not miss or you’ll see the stars
Dangerous, dangerous
Fuck around with me and it get dangerous
Dangerous, dangerous
They don’t even know what i’m saying
Everybody wanna be famous
Yeah I'm hoping that they put me on a playlist
Dangerous, dangerous, dangerous, dangerous

Dangerous (prod. djoeybeats)

I genuinely love this one so much

lyrics
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Wraith
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Locked out of my house
And its 20 below
I could go back to you
But I’d rather the snow
Winter winds, hitting skin
And I’m cold to the bones
Now it’s all sinking in
I was always alone

Look what did to me
Grabbing the mic and I’m spitting epitomes
Thought you were digging me
Making a mess and and then blaming me
You fucking kidding me?
Talking to you like are you even listening?
Gucci on me diamonds wet like a christening
Feel like I’m solving a mystery
Every time you even speak to me
Tell me what's happening

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web
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i guess im staying locked out
im trenching on through the snow
like baby i know that its cold
im out here in 20 below
and im trynna find my way home
its cold but i dont got a coat
i feel the blood sinking down in my throat
i feel the ache in my ears and my nose
when the winter time comes make december my home
i see your name when it comes on my phone but i dont wanna talk so i leave it alone
i guess im staying locked out
im trenching on through the snow
like baby i know that its cold
im out here in 20 below
and im trynna find my way home

december w/ web (prod. wraithontheporch)

ｓｉｇｎｅｔｔ００１

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