featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

spotify

pathetic ft. residential

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

(casperrr)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

(heylog)
she just burn right thru the past
like we were never a thing
baby how could u do that
and throw me against the wave
i just need someone to talk to
and have a soul to stay
i wonder if ppl are leaving me
and parting their own ways
morning always passes by
when i see u it's never right
right right right
when i see you it's always night
our insides exchange heat
when ur body lies w me
i don't want u to leave now
how bout we both just shut down

(casperrr + heylog)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

casperrr x heylog - when ur body lies next to mine (nevrfrvr)

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

bound w/skele & heylog

lina - heylog (transparent)

got fired, heres some music

my temper been on and off
walking home 4 o clock
wasting my time a lot
I really dont wanna talk

D1 but dont wanna ball
i'd jump but im scared to fall
if that shit makes sense at all
suppress it with alcohol

but now that the cold is here
take me to somewhere near
by the pond or the weathered pier
to remember better years

give me my time to myself for a minute like
bacardi bottles in the back of the civic like
next time you see me im testing the limits like
this music is something you cannot prohibit 
im home

d1 (neverforever)

I have this daily fear i've lived my best, and theres nothing left to come
like these constant notions i piece together don't fuck with me enough
is it the self esteem or the overwhelming selfishness in my blood?
or how i settle down in past mistakes to mask what i've become

i lie awake

atleast im honest
fuck the things you promised
these thoughts engraved inside me make me vomit
atleast im honest 
fuck the things you promised
so dont judge me for these pills inside my pocket
atleast im honest


honest (all we left unsaid)

sewerperson - trust in me

Antonello
[Verse 1] 
A fine millennio sei arrivato come un bug,
Una mina vagante, un uragano in volo,
Tra il bene e il male, hai acceso il mio mondo,
Un tira e molla lento, poi un legame profondo.
Ti eri perso nel dolore, nell’abbandono,
Io crocerossina, il tuo rifugio inviolato,
Persona complicata, vita da fuoco e vento,
Amavi il caos, ma cercavi un porto certo.
[Chorus]
Antonello, libero come nessun altro mai,
Mi hai insegnato a volare, a rompere i miei guai,
Controcorrente, con te ogni regola ho spezzato,
Sei stato la storia che la mia anima ha valorizzato.
[Verse 2]
All’inizio mi usavi, me lo dicesti, non era amore,
Ma il tempo ha rovesciato quel quadro di dolore,
Io ancorato a te, la tua ancora di salvezza,
Nella tempesta eri la mia fragile certezza.
La tua vita sregolata ti ha portato giù,
La malattia, il confine tra noi e il blu,
Un anno di lotta, riabilitazione e speranza,
E poi di nuovo insieme, nella stessa stanza.
[Chorus]
Antonello, libero come nessun altro mai,
Mi hai insegnato a volare, a rompere i miei guai,
Controcorrente, con te ogni regola ho spezzato,
Sei stato la storia che la mia anima ha valorizzato.
[Bridge]
Ma il conflitto cresceva, la vita era prigioniera,
Il tuo spirito si spezzava, l’ombra si faceva nera,
Tra gelosie, silenzi, e notti di paura,
Io stavo accanto a te, resistevo con cura.
Fino a quando l’equilibrio si è rotto nel buio,
Ti sei incontrato con la morte, io ero il tuo rifugio,
Antonello, la tua ora era anche una nuova vita,
Hai lasciato un insegnamento che mai sarà finita.
[Outro]
Antonello, libero come nessun altro mai,
Mi hai insegnato a volare, a rompere i miei guai,
Nel cuore vivi forte, il tuo spirito non muore,
Sei l’eco guida, la tua fiamma si consuma con ardore.

Antonello

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

shelter

@heylog

lyrics: 
i been doin better
since i removed her number
baby im alone
dont know which one i wanted
i visit ur home
only to get high though
the drive dont feel the same
when it never thunders home
i can hear the train
it remind me that i made it safe
oh how we were close
its a shame we let it go to waste
fighting off n on girl
we werent made for eachother
i wont lose these memories
but oh man i really wanna
oh its a shame
we let it go to waste
baby heal my face
im losing everyday
oh man im done
god ive had enough
i swore it on my mom
i said i wish i was gone

i been doin better
since i went and left her
i still have ur things
including ur sweater
i can give it back?
dont wanna leave a thing behind
cause u just wished me death
i hate u disrespecting mine

i been doing better
since i ever met her
why u wanna talk and shit
dont u see its over?
i cant stand to be friends
id rather call us enemies
ur eyes oh my god
theyre the fucking death of me
i hate that ur happy
i wish u were hanging
from the fucking ceiling
cause you
fucked me up
and i cant get over it
i need some revenge

i wish i never loved her
i shoulda just left her
i was doing fine
until i fucking met her
i shouldve just disposed of u
but i didnt wanna hurt u
this is how i feel
i hope youll understand me soon

better (ft. heylog)

nevrfall