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The Upload

featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

sewerperson - matter of fact (kimj & kassgocrazy)

lyrics:

I got ur face on my arm in ink
And just like the real thing it brought me pain
And just like the real thing I feel the eyes blink
between these bruises I made the cheeks pink

Before these French 75’s
I was i was doing fine
With liquor red eyes
I wish I had stayed inside tonight
She like u dont know how to party
How u done when the night just started
Rose for the broken hearted
One shot and the shits restarted
This night is the start of an era
Rolling up aloe vera
Low eyes under white mascara
Baby I can read ur mind
Smoke blow thru my drive
Kush clouds realign my spine
I think I secure my shine
I will see it thru this time

I got ur face on my arm in ink
And just like the real thing it brought me pain
And just like the real thing I feel the eyes blink
between these bruises I made the cheeks pink
 cause out in those woods I was terrified
But some how I will make it home alive tonight
And some how she’ll be warm inside this winter white town
And ill be tucked away up on this satellite

I got ur face on my arm in ink
And just like the real thing it brought me pain
And just like the real thing I feel the eyes blink
between these bruises I made the cheeks pink

And I made a promise for me to uphold
But late night in this bed without you tends to get cold
And I know think about the the way it torched
But I promise there was nothing in there for u anymore
I got ur face on my arm in ink
And just like the real thing it brought me pain
And just like the real thing I feel the eyes blink
between these bruises I made the cheeks pink
These Tattoos cover up all of my insecurities
 Im left without my faith when she cant tell me what to believe
But I will find a way like I always do
And Despite my brain my life moves on without word from you

I got ur face on my arm in ink
And just like the real thing it brought me pain
And just like the real thing I feel the eyes blink
between these bruises I made the cheeks pink

ink (jabarionthebeat x vvsmelody)

prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

This a dark road I laid a path and you don’t even like it
Backwoods, I’m looking backwards under my eye lids 
Light up, I light it up, I inhale just to try it
Now I’m smoking 4 or 5 a day and I don’t buy em
Load up, I’ll grab a gun and cock it at my target
Steady hand I pull the trigger, just so I can try it
Aiming bullseye, point blank, how am I standing
Put it back between my eyes and twitch before I fire it 

This six shooters got more then 1 bullet 
It’s hitting 0 it’s hit in the green
And all my bets placed 4,9 and 13
This roulettes Russian it’s not very
Clean 
My body’s fearing the worst I can’t 
Breathe
I saw you with another guy and I 
Screamed 
How many more until you stop being a slut 
Close ur legs just to open em up

And that really isn’t even half
You had to block me just to get in his car
It’s annoying that you don’t say it with chest
Window down I bet he’s kissing ur…

What id do oh what I’d do to anyone who ever tries it 
Molotov his bedroom 
Pouring petrol on his carpet
I’m gonna rip him from everyone that he loves
Stainless steel around his neck
I’ll put a knife in there and plunge
Stop being a narcissist baby I need some love
Like just a little more, then what I’ve already got
Anything is better than what I have
Please don’t neglect me I’ve had all that 

This a dark road I laid a path and you don’t even like it
Backwoods, I’m looking backwards under my eye lids 
Light up, I light it up, I inhale just to try it
Now I’m smoking 4 or 5 a day and I don’t buy em
Load up, I’ll grab a gun and cock it at my target
Steady hand I pull the trigger, just so I can try it
Aiming bullseye, point blank, how am I standing
Put it back between my eyes and twitch before I fire it

stainless steel

I wrote this Halloween Hymn because I could feel myself growing darker after another horrible relationship—after getting burnt, hurt, and torn. The darkness wasn’t just around me anymore; it was inside me, changing me. “One never evolves unencumbered.”

This song is about that moment when pain stops feeling like pain and starts feeling like power. When heartbreak becomes alchemy—when the ashes start whispering secrets. “A transmutation beneath thy skin— it’s weaving itself through thine life like a vine.”

It’s the sound of becoming something new after the fire. The shade of jade has turned to black. The light didn’t save me this time—the darkness did. “No dawn shall cease what hath begun, the darkness riseth—its will be done.”

Transmutation

@heylog

lyrics: 
i been doin better
since i removed her number
baby im alone
dont know which one i wanted
i visit ur home
only to get high though
the drive dont feel the same
when it never thunders home
i can hear the train
it remind me that i made it safe
oh how we were close
its a shame we let it go to waste
fighting off n on girl
we werent made for eachother
i wont lose these memories
but oh man i really wanna
oh its a shame
we let it go to waste
baby heal my face
im losing everyday
oh man im done
god ive had enough
i swore it on my mom
i said i wish i was gone

i been doin better
since i went and left her
i still have ur things
including ur sweater
i can give it back?
dont wanna leave a thing behind
cause u just wished me death
i hate u disrespecting mine

i been doing better
since i ever met her
why u wanna talk and shit
dont u see its over?
i cant stand to be friends
id rather call us enemies
ur eyes oh my god
theyre the fucking death of me
i hate that ur happy
i wish u were hanging
from the fucking ceiling
cause you
fucked me up
and i cant get over it
i need some revenge

i wish i never loved her
i shoulda just left her
i was doing fine
until i fucking met her
i shouldve just disposed of u
but i didnt wanna hurt u
this is how i feel
i hope youll understand me soon

better (ft. heylog)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil is right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

i was just freezing but now im sweating bad
could u spare ur body heat im running out real fast
i tried to phone death, but they would never answer
u know girl its bad, when ur boyfriend hid the cuts from her
i dont know how ur doin this
logan ur insane
crows talk
but i ignore the fact my old girl has changed
skinny kid eatin chicken
and nothing but eggs
now im finna burn it all off on the treadmill and shame

(sewerperson)
born in the snow
cant be hurt my soul has changed
it isnt fair
i got a body but i share the brain
i want the truth
could u give it to me
dont sugar coat it
i got the pockets on me stinky cause they filled with potent
uh, she just wanted my ok but that shit is horrible
walking inside this hostel what im doing dishonorable
i change out my human into something deplorable
i cannot breathe this air they gotchu huffing so casual
ah, take me in
i cannot do this by myself
i could be back tomorrow i just need a little help
im in a trance
off these pills
i might piss myself
im too skinny for these pants im slippin out my belt
eyes
i could feel her eyes on me
i gotta heart but i move like im a zombie
go
you should go now u dont want me
im a burden
without me u could be happy

(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil lives right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

playing with my hands and i keep tryna pop my knuckles
i did every finger i dont know why i keep tryna crack em
dont give me that look
i told her u should really stop that
eyes are bouncing back and forth and all i feel is anxious
i told u i get anxious when im in conversations
but i just nod and laugh im sorry i wasnt even listening
i can hear the chirp as the room is getting silent
now im getting awkward i think u should really try it

spotify

anxious ft. sewerperson

lyrics:

Break my heart Words don’t work anymore
Touch my soul How u disappear when I need you the most

Memory inflicted scars 
U should go home before we get too close
and Every time I unravel
Quickly it shadows what u think of most and I hate it here
blood in the sink I could barely think
spent a rack last night
blood in the sink i could barely think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money all i see is red
you could take what you want cause im almost dead
you could tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

Break my heart Words don’t work anymore
Touch my soul How u disappear when I need you the most

coma (eric godlow)

I drove all the way here for this? (prod. homesick)

Hell Scene (prod. IV & minor2go)

this kinda shit never works out 

https://soundcloud.com/nothomex

Lyrics:

(bbyk9)
I’m sorry that I fell in love 
You don't gotta take me back 
No girl I never was enough 
Didn't before now I'm seeing that 

Come over here, and feed me lies 
Tell me everything will be alright
Babygirl give me bad advice
Hope you know I'm in my head tonight 

Tell me what’s the reason that I try 
When you never look me in the eye 
Everytime you turned away I died 
Just know that I’ve been tryna get it right 


(not home.)
Baby I’ve been trying to get it right 
I’m calling you, it’s late at night 
Your words are eating me alive 
But your smile brings me back to life 

Garbage seeping from my mind 
Girl like you was hard to find 
I’ll give you space, I’ll give you time
Baby I’m just tryna get it right 

Garbage seeping from my mind 
Girl like you was hard to find 
I’ll give you space, I’ll give you time
Baby I’m just tryna get it right 

(bbyk9)
Come over here, and feed me lies 
Tell me everything will be alright
Babygirl give me bad advice
Hope you know I'm in my head tonight 

Tell me what’s the reason that I try 
When you never look me in the eye 
Everytime you turned away I died 
Just know that I’ve been tryna get it right

better (ft. heylog)

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