bonnie

i was too scared 
to fall in love 
to feel someone else’s touch 

all i heard 
wasn’t enough 
for you i fell so hard 

and that is why you’re so amazing
and that is why i feel frustrated 
and after all is set stone we’ll 
go on and regret nothing more

here i go now on my own
feeling lost and so alone it’s
what it is and was before 
nothings changed it’s you i’m leaning on

now it’s too late
to conjure up
the courage i felt so tough

i’m right there 
when you’re not
i shouldn’t have fell so hard
 
and that is why you’re so amazing
and that is why i feel frustrated 
and after all is set stone we’ll 
go on and regret nothing more

here i go now on my own
feeling lost and so alone it’s
what it is and was before 
nothings changed it’s you i’m leaning on

Nothings Changed

{dont delete me}

thundering fighter jets rip the picturesque sky apart
another casualty in this senseless war of art
i heard a woman say that’s the roaring sound of freedom
and thought to myself her brain must be pretty numb
from feeding the insatiable war machines of the state
sick symbiotic relationship they use to dominate
one more two more how many more populations?
for the prosperity of our great fairy tale nation

oh say can you see?
patriotism ain’t the same thing as being free

pledging allegiance is a kontrol trick for human beings
yeah I know that’s hard to grasp especially when you are not seeing
the horrifying outcomes of the often spouted hollow phrases
like you can love it or you can leave it if you hate it
because here in the land of the free thanks to the brave 
you’re free to disagree but you’re just desecrating heroes' graves
kind of like the graves of men and grave of women and graves of little kids
who lived a whole lot like you with regional differences
different languages creation myths and skin pigment
cultural superiority is only a figment 
of a state sponsored second-hand imagination 
natural curiosity entertained to sleep and calcified with education

oh say can you see?
patriotism ain’t the same thing as being free

so peek through cracks in hands and see the nightmare we endorse
because even if we’re unaware we’re still passively pissing on the corpse
of whoever wherever however The Party next decide
will make for a healthy bottom line Q4 genocide 
is it easy to look away when it’s not your family on the business end
of the drone bomb chemical agents and generations of gene mutation
is it blissful to be naive to humanity tortured and torn?
or can you see the hypnotic free falling acrobatic aerial bomber porn
as just another jaw dropping tail spin tingling heir forced masturbation
glorifying war for one more generation?

oh say can you see?
patriotism ain’t the same god damn thing as being free
what will it take for you to see?
blind obedience binds us in chains of slavery

ultra kontrol

Played in September 2025 in Zermatt in a small mountain chapel!

2025 Madre - Cual - Kapelle Zermatt

An extended metaphor 

PC: Kat Vlasova  http://katvlasova.tumblr.com/

Darling

see u tn

You Can't Change Me

i was taking a bath and i was listening to my mnl sound playlist then i thought... hmm i wanna cover manila
so here it is
might edit a vaporwave version idk,,

Nothings Changed

Nick Brljak