Tell me that I'm safe
This is where I wanna stay
Cause when I'm in your arms
All my problems go away
Don't know what to say
It's like my memories erased
Light another blunt
And imma take it to the face
Girl I know that I'm a waste
I'm just something in the way
I will never fit in
It's just something in my brain
Smoke away the memories
And trip away the pain
Acid in the castle
Got it dripping
Like the rain

Crying on the phone again
I'm alone again
All the walls are closing in
Thought you were my friend
Until you stabbed my back again
Barely breathing
I don't even know what's happening
I might die tonight
Bleed out in the twilight
Scars up on my wrist
Cause I'm terrified of life
Terrified of love
Even though it is a lie
Felt my soul die
When I looked into her eyes

When I looked into her eyes
Felt my soul die
When I looked into her eyes
Terrified of life
Terrified of love

Terrified
I'm gonna die tonight
Let me lye
With you in the afterlife

Ask me if I'm fine, I don't really know
I tried to talk to you, but you said you should really go
It's been raining but I think that it's turning into snow
Maybe you should stay until I know you won't be cold
You've got blood upon your eyes
I thought you said that you weren't killing in the night
Impossible to save you if you wanna die
I couldn't help you even if you were alive

Tell me that I'm safe
This is where I wanna stay
Cause when I'm in your arms
All my problems go away
Don't know what to say
It's like my memories erased
Light another blunt
And imma take it to the face
Girl I know that I'm a waste
I'm just something in the way
I will never fit in
It's just something in my brain
Smoke away the memories
And trip away the pain
Acid in the castle
Got it dripping
Like the rain

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terrified ft. yung van (prod. aidan)

just something laying around

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

no i'm not fine
don't tell me that it's better this way
i miss your hair, when it falls on my face
you're the right one, shoulda let you in though
i'm in a cycle, flowin like the wind blow
but you missed it now you're all up in my business
hit the right lane now you switched up doin cocaine hung over
she still rockin chokers but my shawty rockin boulders 
ya you don't know her

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay

now i got a gun to my head
i don't really give a fuck 
cause i feel so cold
i got time on my hands 
no blood on my knife
but i feel so cold
and i came thru in a fast pace 
all eyes in the hallway
with a past tense demon 
i feel his teeth sink into my veins
but i feel like i'm a nothing
suffer the name, so stuffy
tell me i'm facing something

my baby so goth got lipstick on my blunt
and now she left me i'm like wtf
i'm so toxic, you could catch me at the mall in hot topic

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

don't enter pt. 2 (prod. pretty boy ron)

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

Stream on Spotify

panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

[PROD. IOF]
https://soundcloud.com/prodiof

SUISAI
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai

ERISU:

You don’t know what it means to me..
'Cause I’ve been hurt more than you can see!
What lies beneath my skin is something unreal...
Behind your face shows a thousand ways to heal!

It’s okay, it didn’t really hurt for me!
My BLACK HEART captures all the pain numbing!
AND ALL MY EFFORTS BURNED DOWN InTO the Ashtray..
All I wanted is to feel at least something...

And Would you even care if I sent my soul to die for you?
IT’S ALL I WANTED was to see you goddamn smile!
Smile for me beneath the pale moonlight!
Because the darkness gets lonely sometimes..

And I believe you can save me somehow!
The way you look at me gets me through this HELL!
And maybe one day I will see the light!
But for now can you bring me through the night?!

Save me, Lover!
Savor me!

Tell my pretty lies..
It’s all I need!


I don’t need the truth,
I wanted fantasies!

So cut my eyes out!

And feed them to me!

SUISAI:

'Cause its been way too long!
I'm beat up the least you could do
Is just see through those promises you made a waste of space in us
What used to be beautifully
Crafted now rusted
Just blown to the edge of the cliff
It mustve been to late
Wish that you could relate
Wish all of the signs that you show
Wouldnt Lead to 
unfinished roads
Lucky i havent hit that dead end yet
Cause ive been through too much shit to be let down
again~ again~~
Painting pictures in my head
Of where everything worked out
Of where all this shit worked out

A THOUSAND WAYS TO HEAL - ERISU X SUISAI [PROD. IOF]

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

Face First In The Concrete

loner

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

Crashout

crashout

https://open.spotify.com/track/0NPrRpo8Z66KgBroH22hE2

produced by @fantom-instrumentals
featuring @seejayxo

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
all i see is dead faces
in my room by myself, i can't take it
call my phone, say you love me but you faked it
i don't care anymore, im too abrasive
and bitch you basic
(x2)

[@seejayxo]
why you act like you aint see thru?
thought i told you that i need you
i was steady bleeding
you were so deceiving
baby, i just wanna know if you believe him

i see faces on my wall
i still be waiting on your call
but i know it wont come thru
know that it wont come thru
why even i gotta love you?

im better pickin up a gun
smoke all up inside my lungs
baby i just gotta tell you
gotta tell you the one
fuck it, i just gotta run

[@lottaheart]
all i see is dead faces
in my room by myself, i can't take it
call my phone, say you love me but you faked it
i don't care anymore, im too abrasive
and bitch you basic
(x3)

Face First In The Concrete

NICKISGONENOW