drinking until i throw up

My Shitty Attitude

look away (2018 snippet)

Nothing I say or do will change it
Memories last

Changing feelings n switching wit the seasons at last
Not stuck in the past, I got scars on my back
Blood on my bed, room filled with red
Can't see past it right now but there's something ahead

I dunno what u wanted but can I take a wild guess?
U wanted something, or someone who was less of a fucking mess

Memories past nah there’s no going back 
Sometimes I feel so sad cause nothing good ever lasts 

You’re all that I had now and you’re gone like that 
We stabbed each other’s backs and things turned out bad 

Now I’m messing up yeah I don’t know where I’m at 
Feelings gone so fast oh yea that’s a fact 

I used to be so attached then you packed your bags , it was over like that , now baby that’s a wrap 

I was such a mess I was so depressed
Under so much stress turned into a mess 
I was such a mess I was so depressed 
Under so much stress turned into a mess

mess ft. LA LUKO (prod. The Ushanka Boy)

INHALE

(Prod. Michael Harrison)

With each bottle that I finish 
I start seeing the truth 
I’ve only woken up to all of this 
Last night I was loose
I’m over compensating 
My life is so frustrating
But you won’t ever understand 
You’ve been making other plans

I’m not 
So sure 
If I will make it out
If I will make it out 

The damage is already done 
Pull the trigger of my gun
Blow my brains out just for fun 
Made you scared, so go and run 
I use to smile every day
But now my skies are all grey
I’m really not doing well
But I bet that you can tell 

I’m not 
So sure 
If I will make it out
If I will make it out 

Call me when you’re sober ,
So that I know it’s over 
I can’t even hear you speaking, I’m not really here all evening 
I’m Busy chasing paper 
Spend it on high strain flavour
I’m a liability 
And you’re the reason I am me 

I stare in to my mirror
Now I can’t see any clearer
Bloody hands and I’m not crying
Numb and dumb, why was you lying

With each bottle that I finish 
I start seeing the truth 
I’ve only woken up to all of this 
Last night I was loose
I’m over compensating 
My life is so frustrating
But you won’t ever understand 
You’ve been making other plans (with him)

I’m not 
So sure 
If I will make it out
If I will make it out

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Each Bottle I Finish

https://open.spotify.com/track/5oodSx1VXqSffLSCqiUkKq?si=111860bd32f647ee

prod moneo
mix/master @vito2300 <3

really excited to have vito on this one, hope yall enjoy it :)

lyrics:
a ghost in a crowded room
doesnt like the attention
your death still haunts me too
is that even worth a mention 
if i keep on this path of abuse
maybe ill see you real soon
but what kind of ghost are you
maybe its not so frightening

like the spiders web
that catches the fly
in the same way that earth
takes back what dies

it got way too loud
oh dont make a sound
it got way too frightening
ill leave it behind me

(vito)
your eyes, melt mine
like cheap silverware
your cries, in the night
echo through the air
so keep holding out
to bear the weight all on your own
is not easy
ill be there every time you call
if you need me
ill keep you safe from me
as long as im breathing

My Shitty Attitude

NICKISGONENOW