[prod. weepings x spiteful]
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lyrics:

Fuck what you talking bout, said pick your head up listen.
Lost inside the forest, rain is pouring, moonlight glisten in the end
One more step my friend ...
Please don't give out, but your bones grinding; break and bend
Cold night with no light to spark the blend
Need me some medicine
Times now are different from back then we would just pretend
Everything's alright,
Vision going white,
Missing this tonight,
In the pines I write,
~
Then the light shine through I don't know what to do
I stare, at my own reflection as it ripples from the stone
I tear everything appart. watch my heart melt down
Knew it from the start, want no part of this town
They all fake, They all snakes
So I cope by hitting every note
fucked up on a monday
Sunday's further than the love she wrote

Shine-Through

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 1: Toshokan]
And I'm afraid I lost another friend
Seems like everything is fine 'cause I'm forced to pretend
Fade into oblivion, don't wanna make amends
If this is serious, then it's my descend
My eyes still burning 'cause I cried all night
I'm still hurting, nothing feels right
Bentley called me up like it's the middle of thе night
Still got a voice in my head, pleasе don't think that I'm lying
I miss you, you don't really care
When I needed you, you were there
Talking about me is not fair
Yeah, talking about me is not fair

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs
[Bridge: Toshokan]
I couldn't see the truth
How could I be so blind?
And when I feel so blue
I stare up at pastel skies
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
And when I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 2: sewerperson]
She's in the party, it started after the party (After the party)
I understand and I'm ready
Memories were made for forgetting
I keep my confidence close
Keep my drink filled with Henny
Girl, I just need to relax and I hope my body can let me (Body can let me)
And I got this target on top my head and it fucked me
I hope you'll still try to love me, I let my barriers down
And I prepare for the ugly
She's at home with her partner and I just hope that she's comfy 'cause girl I know it gets rocky
But hold on (Hold on)
Baby, stay strong (Stay strong)
Hold faith even when it seems lost (Seems lost)
It's alright (Alright), when we move on (Move on)
Don't talk, I can hear your thoughts, yeah

pastel skies (prod. wolfgang pander) 

toshokan - PATIENT w/ sewerperson

this hell that i live in

2nd single on duskdreams, thanks to @dxnnyymusic for crying on his verse coz he gets no females

album soon...

lyrics
im stranded here baby 
but its cool now
took the time for myself
confirmed what i knew, now
i’ve let th waves take me 
had to move out of that cruel town
if i dont make it out its ok at least ive 
drowned out all of this blue sound

i found peace in this silence
no surprises
solice in a death where there is lack of violence
down in the depths where no heads r collided
frowned upon rest, took my meds lost my eyelids

i knew all of that shit would come back to bite me
now having swam with the sharks i can tell u i took it lightly
out of spite, we like fighting 
“but lemme make it right please”
as if that makes a difference on the outcome, its just timely 

im stranded here baby 
but its cool now
took the time for myself
confirmed what i knew, now
i’ve let th waves take me 
had to move out of that cruel town

all of that blue sound
it takes so long to just reach me
i cant tell if u gon come around

waves crashing, goodbye is all that i see
u wanna see where i go now
circles, in circles and circles
im catching the surf but my heads down

quietyyy
catching the surf but my heads down 
im a strong swimmer but baby i might drown
you’ll never catch me around again
keep me in thoughts ill live on in your head
keep it in mind that you’ll find 
someone else to move on with 
it gets so much better when you reach the end

dont you forget bout the memories we cherished together, ill never forget what you said
that you’d wash away all my worries no matter how big
but my waves push you back and you’re watching me sink
my mental state reaching the brink
the vast ocean cold like my heart
and the frostbite took over my mind i cant think 
go call for lifeguards, its pointless, im lifeless, i cant see a thing 
the ocean it takes me i cant SEA a thing

and if I dont make it outs its ok coz I drown out all o' that poo sound :)

blue sound ft dxnny (sleepy fish)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

Hold my hand
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Hold my hand
I need
some guidance
I need
Reliance
Still a kid in my bones like
Overthinking my whole life
9-5 kill my soul
Don't want to do what I'm told
I remember playing all day
Couldn't take a wrong way
Now I'm older
Push that boulder
It's September already
Now the summers' soon ending
My flame smolders
Getting colder

I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown

But I never said it was easy
I'm waiting for death to come free me
I pray that this winter don't freeze me
There's levels to life like a Avicii
The king of my mind like Medici
I'm human, can't help but be greedy
I know that this world doesn't need me
I don't let it make me uneasy
Can't go back I know my own fate
I've tried to run but can't sedate
These feelings I've always felt
Inactions add up to hell
I can't help but to rebel
I'm stuck inside a cell

I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown
I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown
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Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

Hold my hand

self prod (loop by jolst)

(lyrics)
Fuck all that, id kill myself
before i asked you for your help
its hard to admit but the world seems bleak 
i struggle to find colors even in my sleep
i hardly dream smoke too much weed
hopefully im fine by this time next week
i been strugglin could really use a hand
but its my fault i lost my friends 
x2

but i wont admit it
just give me another dose
and while im at it
i knew that it was close
to nothin, what you expected of me
but somehow i still fucked up everything
but now i must go and my only hope 
is that you'll be fine living life on your own

i'll write you a song in my suicide note
walk out the house with just my clothes
its not my fault i swear i didnt know
id break my legs and have to move on

its not what it seems
baby i been losing sleep

trapped inside my mind

NICKISGONENOW

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